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2011 Year End Entry

2011-12-27T16:31:00.002+08:00

Going through these office blues, when all you have to do is encode, check, walk, translate, wait for your boss’s calls and text for new tasks., it’s extremely boring but challenging in a way. Then again, I am happy coz from all these things, I am learning a lot, and when I say a lot, it’s [A LOT]. Caught in the middle of unfamiliar faces and places, I got the inspiration to make my 2011 year end entry in the office pretending I am working seriously on my translation. Just like the years that had passed, it’s my self-invented “TRADITION” to make a year-end entry to summarize and put end to another year that is about to end. It’s also a way of thanking few important people who made this year, worth remembering.

I can say 2011 was a great year, almost perfect. Though still haunted by those blue moments , and sentiments never left, more than half of its entity was indeed SUPER DUPER HAPPY, and when I face 2012 and think back about 2011, I can smile with that gratitude and true happiness in my heart. CHOZZ.

Thankful coz everything that I asked for 2011 when 2010 was still about to end, God gave them all to me. A sense that, you feel so loved by God coz he gave everything you asked, from acads, to good health, to my family, to nice love life,to my friends, to new people, to achievements, to plans that I was able to accomplish, to my so-called miracles that did happen, and in an amazing way, all those things made me feel fulfilled and satisfied. Simple little wishes and dreams that came true.

When it comes to failure, it’s part of life, but as to regrets, it’s a big ZERO. I can say this was the only year that I never thought of any regret. Still there were those “Inevitable sadness” that came from time to time, but never really had regrets about anything, with that alone I am really thankful. Coz in a way I learned how to appreciate all the things I have, manage my emotions, mature and grow up from all those childish perspectives I used to have.

Maturity at its best, to POSITIVITY, TO AFFIRMATION, TO FULFILLMENT, and to a HAPPINESS that comes naturally.

I feel really blessed. Thesis, Initiative for Peace, new experiences, new challenges, new things, new people, I never thought I would have.

So, THANK YOU EVERYONE who made my 2011 worth remembering. Thank you for sharing your lives with mine. Thank you for the hardships and smiles that will never fade into memory.

To my family~ as always. Specially to my dearest Papa who remained my inspiration all these years. To my Mama who never failed to understand my “growing up” stage. To my sister Dabyang for always being there for me, in any way, to my lil twin sisters for being so madlita and funny.

To my dearest other half, FAIFAI. <3 I know it was a tough start when we entered 2011. Things have changed a lot. There were a lot of challenges that came, there were times that both of us almost gave up, but I am thankful coz you were the one who fought for me when I was about to give up. Thank you for everything we’ve been through this year. We’re going back to the start, forget the hurts and mistakes, and I hope we’ll have more and more years to spend together. Iloveyou. <3

To Shigyo, you’ll always be special coz you’re the only one who can keep my SANITY. For effortlessly making me LAUGH OUT LOUD when I’m about to set into my EMO moments. You know what I mean. *Duh.

To my dearest friends, #TEAMARYAT, for being so so considerate, for all the things we shared this year, for all the crazy days that can never be replaced, for making me feel that there will always be people who can make me feel like I just can be myself no matter how careless and freak I become. <3<3 MORE LABLAB DAYS for us!

FRATSOR, im thankful coz I have crazy old friends like you. We seldom get together but when we’re finally with each other, one day is never enough. Specially to my dearest Kapitana Chen, my agent, my partner, my number 1 fan. <3<3<3 *hilas special mention pa*

To my new housemates, Charade, Clark, Yan-Yan, and Gene, learning how to be independent is extremely hard, but I can say it is made easy coz I am with you guys.

To my Vmobile family, for changing my perspectives in life. For giving such huge influence about POSITIVTITY AND AFFIRMATION. I might not have continued whatever it is that I have started but the learnings and application will always remain. And not to mention, the PEOPLE I met who made me smile, happy and feel inspired in the simplest way. I’ll always be thankful to God coz I met YOU. <3

And to everyone, to the special people, special friends, special acquaintances, I may not be able to mention all your names. But you know who you are. You all had unique ways in sharing a part of your life with me, and for that I am really blessed. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. *BIG HUGSS*

Thank you everyone! I hope we will all spend 2012 with happiness all throughout the year. All the best! Happy New Year!

xOxO,

dahly

Believe the Unbelievable (Nihongo Speech Contest)

2011-07-12T20:24:00.007+08:00

I swear to myself, if theres one achievement that i can say I am really proud of, its winning the Nihongo Speech Contest. Even the skies could testify how i used to hate Nihongo, how i regret having to face all those Japanese stuff everyday for almost four years now, and that i have tagged Nihongo as one of my greatest weakness. But as the title goes, believe in the Unbelievable. :) Choz.

Yes, it is my weakness. But for the record, nothing can never be done with my mighty mighty determination. I had a lot of Fear joining the contest.

1st- because i love English too bad that my jap. pronunciation is extremely bad.

2nd- im too afraid of failure.

3rd- there should be a lot of sacrifice.

i was determind to join because:

1st- there's something i wanna share

2nd- there's something i NEED to prove to myself

3rd- 1% passion. 99% pride.

I know i can't lose the opportunity, and the trust that my Senseis have given me. I can't act like i don't care when in fact people around me are working too hard to help me. And that, i know i want this and i would never ever want to regret in my life that i never tried just because it is my weakness.

Shang Rila Plaza Mall, Manila, February 26 2011.

The day had come, and booom . i was there in front of everyone, but i can't see their faces. The spotlight have eaten my sense of sight and everything was dark, my heart was extremely extremely pounding. It was a hard start, but i know, that there were 3 people from the audience who had their fingers cross, believing and looking up to me, my Senseis. Ayano Sensei, Daiji Sensei, And Haruyama Sensei, and i know i can't fail them.

Nonetheless, i have myself. and though before i never trusted my skills in Nihongo, that time i had to trust myself, and tell myself to do whatever i could possibly do to make the best out of such a great opportunity.

Getting there wasn't easy, being there was horrible, but finishing the Job was far way more compelling

for someone like me who never really had that special attention for Japanese.

And *BOOOM* BOOOOM* BOOOM* even brighter than the *MOOOON.* *MOOON* MOOOOOOON*. Like i always say to myself, i can be a firework. I can be whoever they want to be, because more than the passion, i had this Pride that i never would want to throw away just because of my Fear :))

It was worth it, it was self compelling, it was simply one of a kind!
And as I had to deliver my speech for the First Year Students' Orientation, i shared to them: i had to sacrifice my sleep, i had to sacrifice the time i had to laugh with my friends, i could just have let this slip away, i could have just slept and never cared, but at the end of the day, nothing is more priceless than being able to tell yourself, that OF COURSE , I WILL, and OF COURSE, I CAN!.

そして、皆さん、何もしてるとき、いつもがんばってね。

"-whatever you do, always do your best."

and as the last part of my speech says: 　

小さい大学だって、誰も知らなくたって、そこで何ができるかは自分次第なんです！

-" it doesnt matter where you came from, even if you're just from a small and not so famous school, the things you can achieve, the things you can do, it's all up to YOU."

So believe, and keep on believing. Aim High, Aim Higher. Ganbare.

Single

2010-12-26T00:06:00.001+08:00

11:00 pm . December 25, 2010 i became single. (:

year end 2010

2010-12-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

i should say, 2010 have given me much more than what i deserve. 2010 has been really kind and supportive. And i bid goodbye to this year, there's this hope that 2011 would also be as kind as 2010. So what's this? Year end entry! i never end my year without thanking those people who took part and brought happiness to my life.. to those people who showed me that my life is so beautiful and that we all deserve to enjoy its blessings.

So this time a more general approach (:

To my Family:

thank you for continuously understanding and supporting me on whatever i do. For inspiring me to make my dreams come true. The reason why i exist and why i love to exist.

To Fai:

For always comforting me on my stressful days and for treating me like a princess in every way.

To Fratsor:

For all the moment that we shared this year and for all those time that you're on my side and for understanding all my absences. hope 2011 would give us more party! party!

To my Girls to my thesis girls:

lyca, dannah and gene celle plus weng, thank you coz we braved the challenges and you always make me strong. For making me see my real friends in school for understanding me and for always telling me whats wrong and for all the support. You're not just my thesis mates but my real great friends who believed in me when everyone one else didn't.

To my Jenesys Family:

Ibaraki make some noise! im glad i met you guys! superrrr. I wouldn't want to spend that japan adventure with any other people than you.

Dear Friends:

Madhel , Shigyo, Aprylle, Ate Rc for always guiding me and leading me to the right decision. hahah!

TO Almighty God

For having me as your daughter and for giving me all that i need. for making me happy and for showing me that i deserve whatever it is that i work for. (: i can't make it without you on my side

Thank you so much. Really short but im really thankful. Broken friendships, misunderstandings, judgements, failures , pains.. they all me me whoever i am, and for all the blessing that came.. still thank you for making 2010 happy.

Debate

2010-09-27T19:59:00.003+08:00

I never thought I'll reach the point of loving it. I have debated before but never really felt that it was for me. it was some sort of a no-choice-thing thats why i de
bated. However, i am glad that because of that a person whom i really adore trusted me when it comes to,. how do i call it, argument formulation maybe? haha. and this year, its a great year for me. Mam Flora Cabacungan, my constitution and economics teacher have given me this opportunity to join the debating team in school even if i was not able to sign up for the team during the Club fair. When Gencelle told me that i have to get ready with my outfit, i was totally blank and said : "FOR WHAT?" and she said FOR DEBATING.

I was actually waiting for an opportunity to debate but never really did something about it. and then here comes the chance. i was like Oh~ la la~ THIS IS IT!. time to do something with my life.

On the 21st of September, it is my first time to debate in an inter-school competition. i never really imagined my self on that podium talking. and it turned out fine because we won the debate with Brokenshire and i had the best debater and best spearker thingie. LOL. that's funny. :P

and the second round was with Ateneo, too good to say that it was a great round yet we werent able to get. i dont why but the judges were really complaining about the manner stuff? and what they were talking about was totally different from what Mam Flora was telling us. Duh. no wonder.! After all, i'd still trust our dear moderator who reached as far as Texas all because of debating than those NOTSOARROGANTINORANT English teachers who were complaining about Public Speaking all through out their delivery of their adjudicator's speech but never really cared about the substance and our argument, hahaha. Not to mention, i know we won that round as EXPERTS really say but if its not for us, it would be just fine to accept their irrevocable judgement. haha! and i still have the compensation of being the best speaker. LOL. How sad. But at the end of the day, it did not stop me from loving and appreciating debating because its the only way i can express myself, use my cruelty at its truest sense and i can be proud of myself because i can excel on my own CHOSEN Field.

And above all those victory and lesson, i owe it to the one who First INSPIRED me to try debating.

And lastly, i am thankful to my one and only guy coz at the end of those tiring days of matter loading, he is always there to encourage me and take away my tiredness. (:

Kudos! to the Mam Flora's Debating Team!

GET OVER IT OLD FRIEND.

2010-09-17T23:53:00.003+08:00

Work Hard, and earn an achievement. That's how i molded myself. For every single achievement i earn, for every praise that people would tell me and for every contentment that i can feel when doing something, one thing is for sure, I WORKED HARD, I SACRIFICED a lot, even reached to the point of DESPERATION but never to the extent of using other PEOPLE just to gain attention, just to gain fame, just to be talked about, just to go farther than what other people have reached.

But how cruel life could be, when all you want is to live your life the way you want it to be. and then one day you'd realize that all the things you've worked to have was taken away by someone who used to be someone you've trusted a lot and ended up fussing about you and your PAST arguments with the people who wouldn't really care about the business of other people not unless you'd discuss it with them.

Months have passed, things have changed, memories faded, when all we thought that we all have moved on, YOU KEPT FUSSING ABOUT IT PALA UNTIL NOW? What's with you? can't you just get over it? does it still bother you? What do you want? YOu need fame? go eat it. I REALLY DON'T CARE. All I want is you'd THAT STOP FUSSING AND STOP TALKING ABOUT THE PAST.. ABOUT ME. Cause i dont care about you, i don't care about your life, i dont care what you want. I understand your desperation but stop using us to gain others' sympathy. Get over it! can't you? Honestly, its quite already awkward to complain about this thing again coz i learned to forget and let go . now its your time. GET OVER IT .

and what i have realized, we are playing games here, and you are doing it THE WRONG WAY and does it make you happy now? just have fun! :) i honestly wish you'd have fun. Coz at the end of it all, You'd still Lose and one day you'll realized that the only person yuo really hate IS YOURSELF coz you'll get to Regret the damage you've done.

MY HAPPINESS & SATISFACTION

2010-08-15T21:55:00.004+08:00

Months after i went back from Japan, i went through several changes. changes that were quite hard to adjust but made me happy and fully contented today as i write this entry. Like i always say: ITS BEEN a WHILE lil bloggie!

For me to talk about life, rationality, and success now, would sound quite unreliable coz i know theres a lot more i need to know about life. So now i'll talk about HAPPINESS.

On my flight bound for Davao, it was filled with excitement and sadness. Sadness because i know, no matter how i wish to be with Jenesys peepz again and do the same happy moments would be impossible. i mean there were really people who made me smile even when im away from the people i do love. I am sad because i wanted to stay longer with them, but reality hits me because on the 25th of April, i have to go back to where i truly belong. Davao.

When i stepped back to Davao's Soil, i realized, home sweet home at last! it was almost 3 hours of waiting until i saw him again. He gave me the tightest HUG ever. i felt it through my bones straight to my heart. (Hyperbole it may seem but it was then i realized that i really missed Him. i missed my prince. )

Then i saw my family, and i was happy really happy to give them my "pasalubongs". And i am proud of myself coz honestly, when i was in Japan, i never thought about myself, prior to being there i was really thinking of buying myself nice clothes, bags and of course cosmetics that would really really make me uber uber happy. but then, unexpectedly, i didn't buy any of those for myself. on the top of everything, it was for my family & fai that i would want to spend my money. one reason is that, when i was in Japan, i experienced enough, i experienced the things that i never thought i would experience so it wasn't hard for me decide on that thing. and everything paid off the moment i saw their faces. full of LOVE and Happiness.

A day after i returned, there was an unexpected confession from someone i never thought would do it. I mean, it was far from reality but it did happen, and i felt like i don't deserve it, so later i needed to let go of it, and so i Did.

then one at a time, i was able to see my friends. i was able to LAUGH and tell them the craziest stories of my experience. And i see them happy for me, one thing that i would really treasure because my friends are happy for my happiness.

May 2010, there were several family matters that made me worry. But then, it was time to be strong for my lil sisters and one person who never left me, who listened to me even if i talk about same thing over and over again was my prince. and from that time on, he never left me.

i don't really know the exact reason, why and how that the moment i returned he showed me the person i want him to be.

Class started, and i saw the people from school again. And i can see from their eyes who's real from not. The friend, oh! my so-called friend until now we weren't able to fix things. But later on, i realized that if its meant to be fixed it will be fixed, but not now, onyl God knows. i learned to forgive and just not care about how many of them talk behind my back coz real friends make me strong. Later on, i realized that i don't even need to tell them that what they are thinking is wrong nor prove to them that what they see and hear aren't true. People look down on you because you have something that they can't have like my friend shigyo always tell me. and no matter how many mistakes I've done in the past, it wont be enough for them to judge me coz i don't know them, And so be it, let people talk and let them be happy with what they do. hahahaha! after all, my life tells me the reason why they are like that.

In school, everything gets tougher. i mean in my acads, there are really days that 24 hours im wide awake just to finish deadlines and make sure that Doc Jubilo would be happy with our thesis. Somehow i got hooked into my thesis stuff coz its the first time i love doing it no matter how many hours i spend just to read articles and edit them. Nihongo, oh dude! it kills me everytime. But i am happy coz i still have good grades not as high as i really want them to be but they're ok. SATISFIED after hearing Doc Jubilo's comment and seeing those grades. <3>

Friends, my thesis fellas, my groupmates for life. i soo love them. because i see them work hard as i do. i see them serious and striving for our common goal. We go to church together and together we do more and more adventures. with all the sleepless nights, out of towns, and laughing moments till our stomachs ache. i can't exchange them for anything. people who keepon telling me to just keep quiet, people who keep on reminding me that there are a lot of traitors out there and that i never should easily talk and trust. Friends who tell me "LAB DAHLY LAB!"(while doing those hugging gestures)and i shooo them off then we laugh, people i never thought would be with me right now as i face the hardest part of my college life. the people who listen to me either when im commanding or im doing my storytelling, the people who tells me to shut up when i talk to much and most of all the people who BELIEVE in ME. My happiness and contentment for as long we do our struggles together. and i know we'll make it till the END.

And then, at the end of each day in school, there's the red car with the dragon waiting patiently. Days when he knows im too busy to eat, he goes to Mcdo near the school and buy my Rockin' Ruby Float, burger and fries. The guy who gave LIL FIFI to help me with my thesis stuff..When im about to cry because im really tired in school, he makes me strong and reminds me of my dreams for my father, and for my family. On weekends, he treats me massage to relax myself. The man who calls me 3:00-4:00 am in the morning just to tell me he loves me and same thing that makes me fully charged in the morning when i go to school.

Indeed, to seek for to much is not right. but to be happy and feel contentment of what you have is the best thing that anyone could ever do with life. I can't say it was easy as counting 1..2...3, but just as i decided on things and just as i learned to accept mistakes, it taught me how to be HAPPY with everything. <3>

Gnite fellas.

xoxo,

F.meteora

'10-'11 SEMESTER STARTER.

2010-05-30T20:46:00.002+08:00

a week more to go its another headfreezingsemester. Oh well, i might as well discuss few lil things in here because i know I will be going through a lot of severe changes for this semester. With my schedule, teachers, grades, and FRIENDS. a little too hard adjustments to make this semester wonderful!

oh well, i feel excited about it. i've done doing my pre-semester shopping and for this week i will be contemplating about the things i want to happen in my life for the next 5 months.

with my schedule, great great great no problem at all. i have this planner given to me by a friend and mind you, it helps a lot. i super heart the stuff coz it suites my overlygirlywhatsoeverpersonality and makes all things easy and seriously organized. *laughs*

teachers: oh well, few months ago i was excited about the mysterious OSA replacement of our ever loved ex-OSA Sir Arnel, whom i really adore coz he braved leaving the school to explore on a more complicatedextravaggant adventure of the real world. haha thats how i see it. But gladly, its Ms. Flora Cabacungan who will take over his place. and im just so happy happy happy knowing that its someone who i equally look up will replace Sir Arnel. makes me more and more excited about this semester. i know she'll be very very good. super bow* mode ako when it comes to that woman. (:

Grades, haha. overly frustrated with my acads, i want to be more responsible about everything under the sun. plus 3rd year is such a roller coaster ride as everyone thinks it is. but got to be ready about everything. damn. damn . damn. i want to regain the old me so bad. hope ill achieve whatever it is would make me really really happy and of course with my parents. haha

lastly friends: few people slashed out from my list of true real people. but i never see it as something derogatory on my side. i dunno why. no one can blame me. :P but thats just the way i see it whenever people betrays me coz i know i don't lose anything from people talking behind my sexyback. LOL. after all, im satisfied with the very few ones rather than having bunch of fake people around me. annoying it is! haha. good thing is i need not to branch out another enlightenment session just to make myself understand few people who in any way DO NOT MATTER. aw.

im damn bored thats why im making this blah blah again. i know its not nonsense though.

xoxo,

f. meteora ♥

WORTH THE WAIT- JAPAN INVASION

2010-05-16T14:42:00.004+08:00

it was month of May last year when i had this silent depression when one of my greatest dream was canceled. it was as if losing the chance of bringing that dream into reality. but still, i waited. waited in a sense that i was enjoying everyday taking my attention away from depression. i thought it would never push through. January '10 came, there were no updates. i had 0.01% chance.*sighs*

February came, but still the pursuance of the programme was uncertain. march came, i fully lost the excitement i needed to prepare for the tour. and then finally April!

its April, everything was set, i went to Manila but never really had the same excitement i felt last year..why? because i was too afraid that things might be the same as last year.

12th of April:

before i slept, in my overly cozy bed, i told my room mate julie ( i miss julie my room mate forever ) "finally. we'll be in japan tomorrow". but deep inside the uncertainty grows. i mean i had this thing in mind " aiish. basin dili napud madayon" (baka di nanaman matutuloy.)

13th of APRIL

we woke up 5 am. went to the airport at 6. checked in . and finally boarding time.

JAL Flight number 746-- i was enjoying the food.*laughs* but didn't really had the full blast of excitement.i dunno why..,something was really bothering me that time. i just felt lonely somehow. after 4 hours: *boom* finally, im in Japan!!

One thing i remembered before i got out the plane was the thing Haruyama sensei asked me about the thing i really want about Japan. i simply said its the Sakura. seriously. if there's one thing that really amazes me its that tree. its soo beautiful in pictures. but far way more more more beautiful if its real. when i saw many of them from the plane window., i really wanna cry.l. it might be too simple, too shallow but Gosh! this is it!. its the Sakura! its Japan! the long wait and all the uncertainty, its over!! Outside was so Cold! haha. This is really is it! i can't help it. LOL. this was the day I've been waiting for. the Start of everything. (: I was REALLY REALLY REALLY HAPPY. So Happy. and now, its God who's telling me:

"that's why i canceled your trip last year because i wanted you to see the only tree that i know would make you really really happy"

-- indeed. tama si Daddy God. (:

on the way to the place where we would have our dinner, i can see Tokyo. LOL. the Lights the people! its so amazing. i love the fashion!.. the girls were like dolls wearing barbie's boots. Everything was just so clean.amazing.and FREEZING.

the first japanese Food we ate was "SHABU SHABU". at first i thought it was an EWW. but the moment i started eating, i can't help but ask another bowl of rice. haha! SSSOOO DELICOUS.!! haha

After eating we went to our hotel. its the Grand PRince Hotel in Tokyo. had fun in the hotel because it had a balcony and you can see tokyo from your room. and not to mention..i Love the Shiseido shampoo. *laughs* thats why i miss japanese bath now.LOL. superrrr LOL. haha

After 2 days,of activities and tours in tokyo, we moved to Ibaraki prefecture for our homestay.

and now im missing my foster family. they were so nice to me. they even treated me and my sister dianne like their own child. i miss my Okaasan who was really giving us the full accommodation and was doing stuffs for us even if she doesnt have to. like carrying our things for us. she was a great mother. and i miss Sakura san who always talk to me with sense and my younger bro na super gwapo na kinikilig ako. LOL. the family was really nice. oh so nice!.. we even had a very emotional farewell. ill surely come back to Japan and bring them sumthing because of everything they have done to me.

Randomly, here are the things we experienced in Ibaraki:

She's my buddy in school. We have only one buddy but the lil girl and her friend was very kind to me. i had a lot of funny moments with them during our class. LOL.

during our Calligraphy Class. haha. thats a mess.\

Tsukuba Mountain. superr nice view!!

Sakura was enough but God made me experience more than that. Ther shouldnt be snow on spring time pero ayan. haha. My friend shigyo says im really lucky. haha. indeed. di ko naimagine.

After 6 days in Ibaraki we went back to Tokyo. on the 8th day, its coming into my senses na that the program is about to end *cries*. i didn't really want the program to end. i dont know why. ill miss the people. ill miss the group. especially when wehave long hours of travel, i miss the singing moments together in the bus. like when everyone sings together. :(. i sooo miss those moments.

When we went back to tokyo it was as if we we're enjoying our last days in tokyo. everything else draws me closer to those people.

My picture in Asakusa templE where me and monique bought soemthing funny: Love charm *rofl

its the Tokyo Tower.! wheeee!

our last night in Tokyo. when we made takas from the hotel and went to Mcdo. haha! credits to mark for the libre. haha

aww. i sooo miss you guys.

Oh well! everything comes to an end. but until now i feel lucky. oh so lucyk to have been to a great place. haha. Now i have this full realization that the saying "PAtience is Virtue" holds true. haha. if not because of the cancellation last year i wont experience snow, i wont see sakura. and i wont be with those25 people AGAIN.i wont see YOU again.

haha. i really enjoyed being with you guys. Thank you to our supervisors To sir Nan and Mam jo (i remember the medicine that mam jo gave me when i had this lil problem ) ill super remember those eating moments na halos lagi nalang buffet. ill always remember you guys. it would never be fun if not for you. . the people who always had smiles on their faces. every morning we wake up and all we do was eat and talk and ride the bus for free. and go to amazing places that i could never even imagine i would see. all for free. the pleasure and the free treats was really enjoyable. but more than that, its the bond that i built with those those amazing people. Really amazing. haha. and now i just miss them so much. tsk2.

And i met one special sister from those people. her name is monique. just can't imagine that we have a lot of things in common. we were always together doing our own stuff. haha. i miss my girlfriend! hope to see you soon sis.! ^^naaaah!

Basta, im happy. about everything that happened to me when i was there. this year's summer was great. superrrr. Well of course i was a bit sad not to see my long lost unseen friend shigyo. psssshh. but i know we'll see each other again someday. in God's time. and sad about the thing that was bothering. HAHAHA Pero over all, masaya ako. sa lahat ng blessing sa akin ni Dadi God. and in spite of all the problems and few people i can be happy. Masayang MasayA kasi coz whatever it takes, i all have the reason para maging masaya coz i remember you guys. Basta Thank you. thank you.

" Indeed Japan is a great great great place. no words to completely describe how beautiful the country and its people <3<3<3>"

oh well, till we see each other again guys. i miss you!!

Till then xOxo.,

<3<3<3>

JUST TALK YOU ARE GROWING UP

2010-05-15T18:41:00.004+08:00

life might not be as perfect as you want it to be.
people come and people go. YOU must choose the ones you want to stay.. let go of people that doesn't need you (vice versa). IF you remain making friends with those people who keep on twisting your words into Lie, are you stupid enough not to go against it.?damn it.

letting go is not easy as you think it is. people judge you because of the ONE SIDED STORY they hear from one mouth to Another. They ACCUSE you on something because they thought they are indulged with information thus giving them the right to burst out words they thought would even make sense. and even if it would HURT someone else, they wouldn't care.thought i don't know what you are talking about? guess what? I HEARD.

you were not given the full accountability to care about what you say about me or anyone else., but human beings as you are, you are all capable of thinking about the next word that comes out from your mouth. in fact, you dont know a thing. you don't know what happened. you Dont know whats THE TRUTH FROM ALL THESE LIES.

yes, its so easy to accuse someone.SO EASY TO ACCUSE ME. its easy to choose whom to defend...to whom you would want to listen. But at the end of the day..are you happy? do you really know something about me?..and do you really care about what you are saying? you are literate people of the Philippines, you judge, i listen. you talk, i chill. *laughs*. BUT THE MOMENT YOU'LL HAVE TO EAT YOUR WORDS, BE CAREFUL COZ YOU MIGHT CHOKE ON THEM. GROW UP PEOPLE. :) AND CONTINUE TO FUSS ABOUT YOUR GREAT SELVES.
AND YOU THINK YOU GOT ME CONQUERED OVER? WELL, SCREW YOU TOO.

LAST THING,
I'm letting go of someone because we're not growing up if we're together. i have friends far way better than you ., people who doesn't think of everything as a competition. people who wont pull me down. Old real friends who all have the right to talk about me. NOT YOU. not those people. Move on.

ITS A GREAT NIGHT TONIGHT. PERFECT TO SAY THOSE WORDS. AYEEEE.^^

FORGIVE AND FORGET

2010-01-15T20:11:00.004+08:00

Late at night, i always ask myself if i have already learned to forgive. When pain keeps coming back at night, do i really have the option to just ignore it or am i stucked right at the middle of being not able to forget the pain. From the deepest part of my emotions, i know im trying my best to forgive and let my life go on the way it usually does. And yet there still comes a day that all i feel is that i was being betrayed by the people whom i thought i could trust. i would be stupid if i say i have moved on but still the bitterness wont get rid of me. it makes me sad because at the far end point, i know i should have given up. on my mind is that, i need to let go. just let go..but i just cant throw away few memories. and on the other side of that end point is the decision i had to stand with right now. a decision that slowly consumes me. but then when i face the mirror, i can see the changes. the person that i want to be right now is simply not the same as the person i see on the mirror. Im too afraid to fall too much. im afraid of everything that could happen. im afraid to regret that i have given up my ego because i want a relationship to last. And then he suffers. and thats the last thing that i want him to experience. i want to be happy. i want us to be happy being together because i know, being with him is temporary. i cant in anyway make a happy ending alone. but i just can't stop here. its stupid because i know one day we have to stop but letting go right now is beyond the line that i would want to cross.

But then again, everything pains me. the betrayal itself makes me feel bad about myself. it came to a point that i have to question what else do i have to do? what else do i have possess so that i could be enough for him. where did i had my shortcomings..what did i do to make everything go wrong. and lastly, what does the other one has that i dont have. damn. i hate it. i hate the feeling of comparing myself to others. but i have no choice. and now everytime i see her, everytime i hear her name i can't help but hate her. because among anyone in that house she should have understood the the situation and yet she was too desperate. and i simply get disgusted with her face. But i know i cant spend any more day hating her. it wont make sense after all. and it won't make me forget the pain.

On my mind, i know i just have to keep on trying. Try to bring back the usual person that i want to be. i've been betrayed, i got frustrated but life goes on. A lot of people just don't understand why, but i've made up my mind that i will continue. continue to fix whatever was broken. And just a piece of advice for myself..ALWAYS FEEL WORTHY.

i KNOW THAT IF ITS NOT TODAY, SOMEDAY I'LL LEARN TO FORGIVE AND LATER FORGET. I CANT HURRY THINGS. ITS A PROCESS AND IT ENTAILS TIME AND MUCH MUCH EFFORT TO BE ABLE TO GET OVER THE PAIN. I WANNA FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF AGAIN.

JUST WANNA SHARE IT TO ANYONE WHO CAN READ THIS.

M- BETRAYAL

2010-01-04T17:39:00.001+08:00

It is bad enough when a stranger or foe betrays you, but when it is someone you believed to be a close and trusted friend, it is especially hurtful. It might feel like you were taken advantage of, deceived, humiliated, despised, cheated, or stabbed in the back. Oftentimes it comes as a surprise. That is why it is so painful. You would not expect to be hurt so badly from someone you thought you could trust. So you are left in disbelief and unbelievable pain.

Anyone who has experienced betrayal knows how difficult it is to recover from such an experience. The person you thought you could trust and count on is no longer the person you believed them to be. So you wonder what happened.

Betrayal is a destructive force that leaves many ruins in its path. Betrayal changes everything. Relationships and all those affected will never be the same again. The damage done can be irreparable. Trust is lost. Wounds run deep. Anger persists. Hearts are broken. Self-protective walls are erected. Pain is long and lasting. And we wonder…. Can trust ever be restored? Do wounds ever heal? Will anger cease to exist? Can hearts be repaired? Will the self-protective walls ever come down? Does the pain ever go away?

Not only does betrayal change relationships, it changes individuals. Something happens inside of them. They might find it difficult to ever trust again. They might be more guarded and protective of themselves for fear of being vulnerable again. They might learn to be more discerning and less naïve. Their expectations of others may change. They may reflect on their own role and responsibility in the relationship and what went wrong. They might try to understand, empathize, and forgive. They may be motivated to grow from the experience and learn more about themselves and others.

The pain of betrayal is very real and has a significant impact on the lives of all those who have experienced it. It is one of those painful life experiences that have the power to change people’s hearts and lives forever. If you have ever been betrayed, you cannot change what has happened to you or make the pain go away. You need time to grieve and feel angry. You need time to be comforted and encouraged. You also need time to restore your faith in yourself and others. Betrayal hurts and there is no fast and easy way to heal from its affects. It takes more than time. It takes a heart that will not harden. It takes a commitment to believe in others again. Relationships do change as a result of betrayal; but ultimately, how it changes you is what matters most.

YEAR END ENTRY 09

2009-12-24T23:09:00.003+08:00

Year end entry here it goes!!:) hahaha! Feels like it was just yesterday when i published my 09 year end entry..and now 2010 is coming *cheers*. I must say 2009 was way better than 2008. Hahaha. As usual life gets better nga naman. But i admit, first three months of the year wasn’t good because of my frustrations..sentiments and all. But the last month was a super duper boost..coz had this greatest achievement in my lifeeee. And thats completing the 9 simbang gabii. *claps*.And i always owe my life to Him because even though it was a bad start im still here, very happy despite of the few problems that i have to face. This year’s eyar end entry is quite different. Ill mention only the first 20 people who really made an impact in my life this year.

1:PAPA- on top of everyone is my father. For all the sacrifices. I had this deeper realization how lucky i am to have a father like you.

2.MAMA- thank you for supporting me,.and for still loving despite of my laziness. And for showing me how important i am.

3. ATE DAVIE- 3rd place goes to my sister. Haha. Thanks for letting me understand my bio report and for taking care of me when i was in manila. Haha . char echus. And simple because you are my elder sister and you take care of us.

5.SISI – for being so sweet. . and kay may masugo ka.

6. nana- i hope everything gets well between the two of us. Hahaha i still have you as my sister and that won’t change no matter how many times we fight. LOL

7. FAI-For being there everytime im depressed..and for always making bawi..and letting me realize lots of things..and for loving me with your own way.*hugs*. Thank you sa everything.:) ilove you.

8. mariel-for my latest super duper close girl..haha. i lab you miel. Thank you sa mga talks and all and simply being there for me . always. Always.always. its always nice to have you. Haha. You’re the girl!

9.Chen- for making my birthday so special.. one certain thing na dili nako maforget na gihimo nimo sa akong life aside sa pagsave nimo sa ako sa pool ..kay sa tanan depression nako sa akong birthday ikaw ang pinakafirst na naghatag sa ako ug reason ato na time para mahappy ko

10. madhel- for being my bestfriend..longest bestfriend ever. Bsan dili najud mi nagakita always..nagiisa ka lang tlga. No one can replace/.

11. brucie- for being like my brother. Sa mga rescue and sa tanan laags ug serious things na mashare nako sa imo.

12. shigyo- my sooo distant friend. Imy. Dili jud pwede na mawala ka sa mga people na gusto nako i thank..coz even though you are there..tapos mga down moments and all..kung confused na kayo ko ikaw ang naga[aunderstand sa ako sa mga bagay bagay na dapat nako masabtan. And il always remember..haha. we are still under “the same sky”

13.lyca-oiii. Charrrr. It was a tough year for our friendship..thank you coz we were able to regain the friendship we usually had. And for all the OP moments nato sa classroom na kita lang magkasinabtanay . haha.

14.ate rc= for being such a good influence. Haha. Kay one certain thing na maremember tika ter everytime na mubuhat ko ug mali maremember tika kay dapat ako musunod sa imogn path. Haha.

15.dannah san- woooah. Super duper thanks for everything..as in everything kabalo naka sa everything kay u know..paguban sac r ..pag fish ug infos and for still being a friend.

16. eprel-dili pud pwede ka mawala sa akong list ..like shigyo bsan layo ka..i know ur still there considering me as your friend. Bsan dili na kau ko makaOL. Pokes. Pero seriously, thank you and i super miss you.

17. knayeza- for listening sa akong mga senseless jud kau na sentiments. And for being there..and for being the super neutral person na akong nameet. Haha^^ lab you labz

18. miming- para sa mga learnings sa love..and for being my friend. Sa tanan help since hischool days ..thank you sa mga advices and wisdom. Haha

19. To my LOLO who passed away last Sunday. Thank you for being my lolo,.and i know you’re with HIM na. FAREWELL LO.

20. TO MYSELF- haha . echusera.! I want to thank dahly. Haha. For being strong..for being nice..for being rude..being a friend..a lover ..an enemy. LOL. I know everyone doesn’t understand me..and my behavior. but naaaaaaaahhh. Its not a problem because i have those 19 people up there o who will always and always be with me. Haha, its a job well done this year.

Thank you everyone. God bless. And let peace reign. Backbiters,you make ssshhhhh during this season. Haha. Ill shut up na. Lets be happy everyone. Godbless!!

YEAR END ENTRY 09

2009-12-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

Year end entry here it goes!!:) hahaha! Feels like it was just yesterday when i published my 09 year end entry..and now 2010 is coming *cheers*. I must say 2009 was way better than 2008. Hahaha. As usual life gets better nga naman. But i admit, first three months of the year wasn’t good because of my frustrations..sentiments and all. But the last month was a super duper boost..coz had this greatest achievement in my lifeeee. And thats completing the 9 simbang gabii. *claps*.And i always owe my life to Him because even though it was a bad start im still here, very happy despite of the few problems that i have to face. This year’s eyar end entry is quite different. Ill mention only the first 20 people who really made an impact in my life this year.
1:PAPA- on top of everyone is my father. For all the sacrifices. I had this deeper realization how lucky i am to have a father like you.
2.MAMA- thank you for supporting me,.and for still loving despite of my laziness. And for showing me how important i am.
3. ATE DAVIE- 3rd place goes to my sister. Haha. Thanks for letting me understand my bio report and for taking care of me when i was in manila. Haha . char echus. And simple because you are my elder sister and you take care of us.
5.SISI – for being so sweet. . and kay may masugo ka.
6. nana- i hope everything gets well between the two of us. Hahaha i still have you as my sister and that won’t change no matter how many times we fight. LOL
7. FAI-For being there everytime im depressed..and for always making bawi..and letting me realize lots of things..and for loving me with your own way.*hugs*. Thank you sa everything.:) ilove you.
8. mariel-for my latest super duper close girl..haha. i lab you miel. Thank you sa mga talks and all and simply being there for me . always. Always.always. its always nice to have you. Haha. You’re the girl!
9.Chen- for making my birthday so special.. one certain thing na dili nako maforget na gihimo nimo sa akong life aside sa pagsave nimo sa ako sa pool ..kay sa tanan depression nako sa akong birthday ikaw ang pinakafirst na naghatag sa ako ug reason ato na time para mahappy ko
8. madhel- for being my bestfriend..longest bestfriend ever. Bsan dili najud mi nagakita always..nagiisa ka lang tlga. No one can replace/.
9. brucie- for being like my brother. Sa mga rescue and sa tanan laags ug serious things na mashare nako sa imo.
10. shigyo- my sooo distant friend. Imy. Dili jud pwede na mawala ka sa mga people na gusto nako i thank..coz even though you are there..tapos mga down moments and all..kung confused na kayo ko ikaw ang naga[aunderstand sa ako sa mga bagay bagay na dapat nako masabtan. And il always remember..haha. we are still under “the same sky”

11.lyca-oiii. Charrrr. It was a tough year for our friendship..thank you coz we were able to regain the friendship we usually had. And for all the OP moments nato sa classroom na kita lang magkasinabtanay . haha.
12.ate rc= for being such a good influence. Haha. Kay one certain thing na maremember tika ter everytime na mubuhat ko ug mali maremember tika kay dapat ako musunod sa imogn path. Haha.
13.dannah san- woooah. Super duper thanks for everything..as in everything kabalo naka sa everything kay u know..paguban sac r ..pag fish ug infos and for still being a friend.
14. eprel-dili pud pwede ka mawala sa akong list ..like shigyo bsan layo ka..i know ur still there considering me as your friend. Bsan dili na kau ko makaOL. Pokes. Pero seriously, thank you and i super miss you.

15. knayeza- for listening sa akong mga senseless jud kau na sentiments. And for being there..and for being the super neutral person na akong nameet. Haha^^ lab you labz
17. miming- para sa mga learnings sa love..and for being my friend. Sa tanan help since hischool days ..thank you sa mga advices and wisdom. Haha
18. Monique: for being my super close friend sa jenesys. Haha. Can wait to see you again.!
19. To my LOLO who passed away last Sunday. Thank you for being my lolo,.and i know you’re with HIM na. FAREWELL LO.
20. TO MYSELF- haha . echusera.! I want to thank dahly. Haha. For being strong..for being nice..for being rude..being a friend..a lover ..an enemy. LOL. I know everyone doesn’t understand me..and my behavior. but naaaaaaaahhh. Its not a problem because i have those 19 people up there o who will always and always be with me. Haha, its a job well done this year.

Thank you everyone. God bless. And let peace reign. Backbiters,you make ssshhhhh during this season. Haha. Ill shut up na. Lets be happy everyone. Godbless!!

second sem second year depression

2009-11-10T13:39:00.003+08:00

tsk2. its been soooooooo long. hahaha. im sorry if i really cant have a time to time update. well right now, everything makes me feel bad. i dunno. well except for the few happy moments of course. but the rest..its frustrating,.

i know i have this eagerness to make a little changes in my life but i dunno how and where to start. and i dont feel like i wanna do it now..but i really wanna do something..to achieve something. .i just dont know if i can do it. arrghhh!..depression.depression. few things hinders me to exert the best that i had to do to make some people happy. tsk2

anyhow..first day went on just fine..but i dont know if it will still be fine in the next few months..i just hope and pray that i will be able to do it...i hope everything would be just fine. i need to be happy. hahahaha:) thats all for now guys.:)

HUSH.

2009-09-08T20:34:00.003+08:00

im currently listening to TAYLOR SWIFT's BREATH. very nice song..go google it. LOL. if feels great to have recovered a major problem. i dunno how and why it did happen..but one thing's sure..i learned something from it. it did'nt caused trauma it just bought the realization,..that in this life we have to weigh things accordingly..never be too selfish..and DO NOT BE AFRAID TO OPEN UP. Bottom line of the issue:: it ended well. and im happy. "people are people & SOMETIMES WE CHANGE OUR MIND." it isn't too late to fix things. it might NOT be the one it used to be but at least it should be way better than before..and it takes time. NO NEED TO HURRY:) JUST ENJOY LIFE.

kanina, i had a nice chat with my ever dearest friend. it feels great to have felt that im worth something for my friends..even though im like this..?aw. haha. also, to know that you are doing something good for the people who matter to you..tsk. *hugs shigyo*. i love it when i talk about serious matters to junric. haha.

im doing fine now..except for my academic demands. it makes me feel stressed. there are even times that i wanna freak out..i badly need a yasumi. i want to rest for a while. everything thats happening in school makes me sad. i wanna rest for a while. another thing that concerns me is being a housetoschoolbacktomyhomeagainGIRL. arrghh. i hate it!!..but i know it won't last long though.

i guess im not really happy right now..well happy about few things..but not completely happy..so after all, IM NOT REALLY HAPPY, no matter how i ignore this sadness. i dunno. i feel like i always shift my personality.

everything make me busy..but at the end of each day when i lay down in my bed..i am SAD.

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL 2009-2010

2009-06-15T22:27:00.003+08:00

oh well ., i was so excited yesterday. i got so excited for mediocre reasons. well it went well., we were laughing like there's no tomorrow na of us being together. i uber missed those peepz.. they made my stomach ache again. haha. after class my and my friends ate at dencio's then we moved to Gmall to watch DRAG ME TO HELL.. that was the hardest part for dannah san. haha. oh well i enjoyed the movie. i tried to watch it olnine but the quality was really bad. .tsk2. i was happy naman all day eh..then i visited baby zakky( prince's niece.) before i wont home and fixed my things. well im a bit sad right now...coz today also MARKS the start of our busy days., its simply saying that we cant have much time for each other the way it used to be. aiish. im gonna miss him. i hope everything will be fine tomorrow..and by the way my professors arent that good. one is old., boring..high blooded teacher and uber soft voice..tsk2. and my nihonggo teacher i dunno if she's nice..but still i find it hard to understand her since she's a japanese. aarrghhh i want to make this sem special and satisfying coz im planning sumthing for myself in the next sem..i honestly dont know if if its right but its under observation panaman eh..im not going to elaborate about it...just soon soon soon..everybody will know about it. till here., im so sleepy now. bye firends.

xoXo,
f.meteora.♥♥

CLASSES OFFICIALLY STARTS TOMORROW!!

2009-06-14T18:03:00.002+08:00

classes officially starts tomorrow. well i dunno if i'll be happy or sad. excited or frustrated. hahaha!! but honestly im excited. i dunno y..coz of all the things,,.this one is the much awaited tlga for me. haha. its another school year ..new people and stuffs. i wanna make a difference this time. arrrghh. God help me. well yesterday i was supposed to make bla blah here., but i wasnt in the moode. well im happy with my life now. and i just hope that everything will be fine this sem. and i cant wait for the jenesys to come again. i miss my friends there..huhuhuh. i sooo miss them. well anyweii wish me luck guys. love you all^^

i dyed my hair!!!

2009-06-09T14:50:00.003+08:00

eh sabi ko naman kasi dapat di na ako madepress. hahah. eh kaso nadepress tlga ako..linte. kaya ano pa bang unang biktima natural ang buhok ko.. dahil sa kawalan ng kaligayan(*watta term*., ) oo yun na nga..dba nga kasi sabi ko sa previous entry ko wag lang sana ako madedpress kundi magpapacolor tlga ako ng buhok(hahaha nagbanta)...oo yun na..ewan ko ba anong kulay nito..something red pero brownish xa sa pixies. well anyweii its fine naman..i dont super hate it. it made me feel better yesterday. haha^^

2nd year 1st sem|| super short hair

2009-06-04T22:10:00.003+08:00

school starts this monday. oh my oh my. actually it started last june 1 but since im a lazydorkyhleplessicklittlegirl, i did not follow the rules. i dont want to go to school since its too early to be doing stuffs. . and orientation thingie. well not part of my whole being. haha. and another thing., im sick again. i dunno wat the hell is happening to this body. my head is uber aching. as in seriously aching..not the usual ache ., something so unusual. maybe theres soemthing wrong with my eyes..well i still dont know. and the anti biotic that the doctor gave me? i cant take it anymore., i always feel like i wanna vomit everytime i take one. thats why i stopped. and she said it should be for two weeks but i cant take it anymore., thats why cguro im sick again*cries*. sumtimes i have fever then my temperature goes down naman everytime i take paracetamol. well i just hope that everything gets fine this monday so that i can go to school by that time.

my hair!!due to my depression problems i cut my hair again..shorter than ever!! i think this is the shortest ever since nagkamalay ako sa mga buhok fashion. hahaha. i dunno y i had to cut it again..naging "feel ko lang" xa agad. ewan ko ba..oo super short like rihanna's hair..super short i tell you. thats i dont take photos yet until its short enough na to be presentable sa mata ko. haha.^^ everyone says its ok naman but i kinda hate it..kasi i miss my long hair days. bka din magpacolor ako soon..well RED will do. haha^^ kaya wag naman sana ako ma depress ulit bka ano na maging mukha ko. hahaha

what else., well i hope this semester would be a great semester. you know... the clasm8s., the activities and of course my grades. i need to work with my grades..tsk2. and and..i hope lesser problems with my loveleife..and more more happiness. well i wish myself gudluck. hahah

i miss my HS friends. if i'l be okay this sat baka i will partee nanaman with them. i miss the drunk days. nyahahaha^^. i miss the lights..the music..eveything!!! haha^^

well since ims ick i'll sleep early. goodnight folks!^^

FRIENDS CHANGE=REVILLA GET LOST

2009-05-25T20:03:00.003+08:00

people doesnt seem to be the same since the day i went home. walang lang..i get so skeptical why they have to be naive. aiish. wala lang. friends used to be so close to me..but now seems like i dont know them anymore..vice versa. aiish. i dont want to think about them though..i have more serious friend. and i guess people change din tlga..tsk2. those who remain are the real ones. and i have a lot of those. miss you friends. i dunno why i get so dramatic on issues like this. tsk2

and one more thing., i dont want to elaborate on this coz i dont have much knowledge about the issue. its just that SEN. BONG REVILLA irritates me..coz he's making this shout shout sa senado about the hayden kho issue ..hell, he's acting as if he's so clean. duh!!showbizz nga naman..im not on the side of hayden pero duh why not talk about the economic issues of the philippines or better yet take a good look on swine flu. watever it is..just talk about something that could benefit the body politic and not on few individuals. get lost REVILLA. you dont know anything naman eh..talak ka ng talak wala ka naman tlgang alam at ewan ko ba kung bakit na-upo ka jan eh ano bang alam mo sa constitution. pasalamat ka na nga lang malakas ang charisma mo sa sambayanang pilipino..and just like other politicians kaw lang din nagpapabagsak ng pilipinas kasi napupuno ang senado ng mga walang utak na mamamahala. number one ka don..sunod na yung tatay mo. aiish. yun lang naman..nairita tlga ako sa way na nagdeliver xa ng kanyang point SA senado na para xang dakilang malinis na palengkero. hahaha. ok thats all. mabuhay philippines!!!

wala lang excited na din ako magaral. si revilla kaya may balak pang magaral??haha

POEM BY SOLIS

2009-05-22T00:08:00.004+08:00

One More Chance (Ehime Version)

BY: MARK SOLIS

Ang pagkakawalay sa isa’t-isa ay parang break-up.

Pagkatapos ng lahat, kailangan magmove-on.

Kailangang bumalik sa kanya kanyang buhay.

Marahil nga ganito talaga ang tadhana.

Pero di tulad ng usual break-ups, hindi ko ito pinili.

Sa ayaw ko at sa gusto, kailangan makipagbreak

Kailangan magmove-on.

Eto ang love story ng Ehime, ng buhay ko,

ng buhay mo, ng buhay nating lahat.

Subalit tulad ng mga karaniwang mga love stories,

sana meron ding mga second chances.

Kung mangyari man, mapapatotohanan natin na, oo nga,

Love is better the second time around.

Naks!
Oha.. Analogy.

credits to: SOLIS.

wala lang mas namiss ko sila .ginawa ni solis ang poem/quote. .. huhuh. see you again guys. at nakarelate tlga ako dito sa ginawa ni solis. ahahaha. ang saya. love is better the second time around tlga... waaaah!!^^ see you soon guys!! lets just wait and pray and everything's gonna take place at the right time at the right place. . sana keep intouch. haha. ang saya tlga..thank you soo much for the happiness guys. !!

EHIME GOUP OYEAH THE BEST

2009-05-21T23:01:00.005+08:00

well ever since i went back to Davao i never had the chance to make blah blah here. i miss my bloggie. well obviously im sooo back. tsk2. our travel to japan was postponed because of the swine flu. well kakalungkot kasi nga after all the excitement and preparations di pala matutuloy..pero come to think of it,its for our own good din naman tlga..and were still young to die din naman..*pokes*safety first tlga dpat..they said in the morning of the 18th 20 pa lang ung confirmed cases and on the evening naging 100 . if not for the fast development daw of the flu they would pursue the tour, but the WHO or world health org advised them to postpone it as it would threaten our national security. well its so frustrating but we just have to accept the sense that its not yet the right time..be it a blessing in disguise for everyone.

but despite of all the frustrations brought by the h1n1., i can say that i was really overwhelmed with the pre-dparture activities itself. i mean just meeting the people and experiencing new adventures ..and all..things ive never experienced alone..its still so fulfilling on my part. and im just so blessed and blessed something that i should really thank of is my EHIME GROUP.

i must say though we are the noisiest and we had the greatest number of late members during the orientations of all the other 3 groups, and the japanese are really strict of the time.haha. i really had fun being with them specially on our last night at the hotel..we had our truth or dare..spin the bottle..-bonding ng bonggang bongga.!! everyone was really nice .. as if i knew everyone before the programme.

and i miss them soo much right now. tsk2. specially my very close friend monique.. she was my closest friend in the group..on my last day in manila we went to MOA..and todo bonding..she's so nice coz we were both bubbly kaya nagkakasundo tlga kami. and also jeffrel..na sobrang bubbly din na love namin ni monique..tsk. si solis ang aming ever active leader.....si ardy..si jake..mona..and everyone!!everyone.!! i miss them soo much. ehem!!ehem!! the best. tsk2. love you all guys. see you again this october!! hopefully. bonding tayo ulit.

monique and I sa MOA.

letter . huhuh.

our bonding moments sa north pole room. room 1106 nila ardy solis at jordan. we call the ROOM., the EMBASSY. jan ang meeting place namin. haha

miss ko na talaga kayo guys!! see you again!!wheee!! KJ na H1n1 tlga. haha. pero see you!!! whee! lets pray!! love you guys!!SEE YOU AGAIN GUYS SA EMBASSY!! oyeah!!

*more pixies on my FS.*

manila

2009-05-16T09:27:00.004+08:00

its my second day in U.P. im at my sister's dorm right now..tomorrow i'll be transferring on our hotel..tsk2. everything seems to be going smoothly..but before everything it was really rough coz i had this headache ad fever because of stress and all ..tsk2. before i left davao.. my parents had me checked up at the hospital coz i was really sick...huhuhu. they were afraid that i might be blocked due to the very strict secuirity of the aiport dahil sa swine flu..i had three doctors around me..tsk2. good thing they gave me the best medicine pra mwala ung fever..may tonsilities ako..i dunno the spelling that caused my headache daw..sumthing bacteria chuchu.i dunno what are they talking about..they gave me this medical certificate so that if it happens na ipapaquarantine ako..pwede ako makaalis agad..precuations ika nga..tsk..when i reached manila super kakapagod parin and my fever konti and all..but that wasnt the hardest part ..hardest part was the homesick thingie..i dont have my parents here to take care of my meds and food..but good thing sister is here to take care of me..and i miss my lil sister sisi who sleeps with me everynight pra ndi na ako magkabangungot and all..i miss my parents and i so appreciate the support they are giving me..even when they are far they always check and remind me of my meds..tsk. and fai..i miss him so much..he was also so supportive coz he went with us in the hospital..i miss him too..he was quite kinakabahn na bka mwala daw ako and all..i miss everyon ..my friends,,tsk2. ill be back soon na man eh..pray for me my health everyone..tsk2. i badly need ur prayers,

and of course..wanna say happy happy birthday to my papa!!! i love you soo much papa...more bdays to come and candles to blow..wish you a very good good health..i love you papa!!!

19th monthsary & roseville fiesta.

2009-05-02T13:58:00.005+08:00

he placed the balloon on the back seat..then when i sat down in front..i was shocked when he hugged me and he said happy monthsary then he pulled the balloon from the back. haha^^ wala lang..so sweet of him. :)

lalalalovee**19th monthsary.

sama-sama si little girL super kulit. haha^^ she loves taking pixies. LOL pero we dropped her sa kofishop kasi magdate pa kami ng kuya niya, LOLZ

naging tradition na cguro whenever sum1 is kulang and doesnt go with the laag we make like this. first victim was tiffany. haha^^ crazzzyyyyyy friends.:)
love them.

yesterday, we made fiesta fiesta sa roseville. sa kanila sarah mendoza., kanila roi..and brucie. haha. super busog. supposedly we will watch bamboo's concert in damosa demo too crowded the place. thats why we just went home early. we had lots of fun when we had our videoke in roi's place. but i saw someone i really hate. my friends XXxx. Xxx ni miming na si B****. haha. super harsh.. i said hi then no reaction. duh!! anyweii. lots lots of fun yesterday. haha^^

hate typing long entries. so lets make use of the pixies.

xOxO,
f.meteora

untitled.

2009-04-25T21:50:00.002+08:00

recently, i get frustrated with the slightest things that bother me. i dunno y i have to become this sensitive. i mean, i have this disease,.i i super hate it being with me. but its me, one thing i learned about one litre of tears, i cant get rid of anything coz this is me., this is my body.. i mean , its not about physical or anything..its about emotional..arrrghhhh!! i soooo hate this feeling. coz i dont know how to handle..it does pain me because i have to think about all these things that makes them super burden..too hard to handle. aiiiish. i need someone right now..i need friends. i miss them. i talked to mariel a while ago and it feels good..its just that its better seeing them personally. i miss my school. i miss my friends there..i miss the bonding moments and everything.i miss studying..i miss those sleepless nights.. summer is soooo boring right noww..i wanna cry i wanna let these thing get off me. i hate it. i mean..i feel like being abductd from the reality i used to stay. i have all these imaginations..everynight..but those imaginations dont make me feel happy and eager to reach them coz they are juz too far from reality. really. its so hard. i have dreams but seems like theres something i wanna get..but i dnt know what exactly it is. im typing anything right now that comes into my mind..but it doesnt feel better. i wanna go back to schoooooooool. i miss my friends...*cries*...i so miss studying.i miss everything..i miss nihonggo. everything !! arrghh! y do i keep saying all of these things???!! aiish. it feels like hell sitting here..typing anything..i dunno whats the title...frustration?? duh. duh. im too tired to think of other things. aiish. im not ready with my stuffs. im gonna travel but i still dont have anything. im excited and i badly want that one to happen tomorrow. i wanna sleep early but i cant sleep. i wanna gain weight but it doesnt happen ever !! the problem is that i dont know what the problem is. *shooots myself on the head*... arrggh. i said i wanna have firing..hahah. oooppsss that comes back to my mind again.. why the hell do i want to become an agent?? aiish.

this is nonsense. bye.

HAPPY 3rd ANNIVERSARY

2009-04-24T21:20:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 3rd Anniversary METEORIC FANTASY!!!

wheeee^^. i know its too advance. haha. i changed my layout in accordance to history. as history says change thy layout every year. haha. i used to change layout like 3 times a year but due to my busy schedule *or sometimes im pretending to be busy*., i cant do it so i made it once a year. well, soo much love for bloggie!!^^ i owe a part of my life to bloggie coz without Meteoric Fantasy i wont be here typing senseless stuffs obviously*pokes*. well right now i'll talk about my new layout and my 3 years with bloggie since i'll be out of the country the day Meteoric Fantasy will celebrate its 3rd bday. :

okay i'll start^^

LAYOUT:

its lighter this time, hmmm since the last one was so black this time lets have lighter colors. LOL. though black background with white font doesnt irritate our eyes but this time i want white. WHITE for purity? haha^^ as much as i want this one to become yellow and other pastel colors i cant do it. like for 5 days ive been trying to mix and match colors and BG's with yellow but they just dont fit my taste. haha. i mean i sooo love yellow but duh i used a yellow layout before so finally i had this one. i hope everyone likes it. im more on the visibility of the contents. like i want the words to be seen clearly so that you dont have to higlight and all just to make it clearer. haha. hmm what else., it also describes my 3 years with my little sanctuary..i made some changes on the left side., my profile and all. better read them coz they arent too long. woooaah. this was the only thing i have when i cant talk , spazz, cry, share to anyone. secrets that arent published for my privacy..but as much as possible i want to share evrything. but i have to keep something private between me and bloggie sometimes. hahah. seems like its my boyfriend for three years? LOLZ. dami ng pinagdaanan si bloggie kasi from my first bf to the third anjan xa..from the kpop addiction hanggang ngayon sa palipat lipat ko nalng na addiction andito prn..good thing it cant complain anything.*pokes*

BG MUSIC:

this time, i want an instrumental BG. recently i find some songs noisy even the mellow ones., i find it irritating the moment it starts and the voices and lyrics of the singers kinda irritates me already. so my new BG music is MOONRIVER. haha. maybe some could fall asleep with the BG but i sooo love it right now., its feels good to the ears while reading. and it doesnt irritates me.

WEll, i wanna say thank you to all the readers. haha. i know there are only few of you., before i had this crossed-post with multiply ; like if i post something here it will also be published in my multiply account vice-versa, but i stopped it because i realized that its better that only very few could read, its better this way coz there are a lot of salt-mouthed people out there. haha. well thank you again readers specially to my two friends out there you know who you are..hahah^^ eprel and shigyo. You all keep this Bloggie alive. thank you. thank you. and of course thank you to bloggie. and advance happy 3rd anniversary! Godbless everyone^^:-)

xoxo,
F.meteora

ALIAS-current addiction

2009-04-23T22:08:00.004+08:00

its my latest addiction. well its summer baby!! haha. im not doing anything and facing my pc bores me from time to time. i dunno y. tsk2. but i have to talk about this one more tomorrow coz i feel like the lightning might strike my antenna or watsoever. byee.!

*edit*

gudmorning..i mean good afternoon. LOL. its already 1:00 pm on my clock..tsk2. i juz woke up. seems like the heavy rain made me sleep peacefully last night. haha*pokes*. so., like i said its my current addiction..i finished the 5 seasons already but im going back to the start..tsk2. i dunno why. unlike the boys before flowers this one had a good ending. && i feel like i wanna be an undercover agent again..it was my dream when ALIAS was aired in Philippines a long time ago..honestly i adore Jennifer Garner that time..but i thought Philippines doesn't have CIA ..FBI..whatever . we only got PNP..AFP..and some other rebel groups. hell, i dunno what im talking about..soo off the topic. hahah!^^ anyweii, the thought of being an agent went back after days of watching it. i skipped from one genre to another..coz i used to watch all those highly emotional asian series ..and then this time haha freaking terrifying ..uhm not terrifying ..lemme say its more on action scenes ..fighting scenes so its thrilling. and the technologies and all..its amazing..i know it might not exist in real life..but it really amazes me..and all of the RAMBALDI's treasure and everything. haha^^ the story is really good..thats why if i start watching without taking my bath ..i cant take a bath anymore because while watching time moves so fast. like i start at 11 am and then at 10:oo pm i find myself still wearing the same colthes i wore when i started watching it. tsk2. LOL. i just love the series sooooo much. haha^^ and then i mentioned something to prince about it..like i wanna try FIRING.. i mean using a real gun and all..and then he was saying that he wont allow me coz imight shoot him if everything gets worse. *pokes*.haha. and i cant take the impact thingie..it made my curiosity get even worse coz whats with the impact ba and all..ahahha. coz i really want to try firing.. and then i mentioned to my mom what if i enter the training for the POLICE women coz im so desperate to hold a gun..and she was like goooooo!!..but i wont risk my hair just to hold a gun. coz once i enter that police police thingie they will cut my hair short..too short ..and ugly. huhu. i mean holding a gun doesn't mean that i wanna kill somebody..i have a lot of people to shoot but i wont risk my name for them..haha. i find it cool to have another revision of what they usually call "sexy". haha. coz usually girls are so maarte and they are so "lamya"..and im one of them right now then if it happens that im alone and someone might do something bad to me of course looking at me they might think that im that weak and all..but if i have my gun..*whhheeww*..cool. im gonna shoot him on his head. haha^^ bury a bullet on his brain. haha. sooo brutal .isnt it?. but i think its time for girls to fight. so every girl should have a gun!!! haha. joke. im kidding. i only want a gun and i only want how to shooot for emergency purposes . the country isn't safe right now. haha. im gonna tell my father about this...surely one day he'll teach me. hahahaha^^. he dreams of me being a policewoman. but hell no because my hair!!haha. it would be a nightmare. okay okay im talking tooooo much already. to make it short. i want a gun. and i want to learn how to use it. nyahaha^^*evil laughs.* jennifer garner inspired me so much to have a gun. LOLZ. her name in CIA is AGENT PHOENIX. so my name in CIA in my dream is AGENT METEORA. duh!!duh!! whatver. im hallucinating ************ HELP. forgive me. i have to go. nyahaha!

and one last thig., meteoric fantasy is celebrating its 3rd anniversary dude^^ whhhee* claps for meteoric fantasy*.. so tomorrow i think., hmmm probably i'll finish doing my new layout. i made a lot of changes. tsk2. next month 3 yeas old na si bloggie. haha. soo happy that i kept something like this lil bloggie for three happy years. hmm thats all!*

mwah*

JENESYS

2009-04-15T19:27:00.002+08:00

this one really bothers me since march. LOLZzz. until now i still cant believe it..wla lang na man..kasi today i recieved my e-ticket for my flights. and then i recieved the handbook..but still i cant believe everything..maybe because i feel so guilty for not being with HIM for weeks..i mean..spiritually im not healthy but still still i am blessed with what i want . i really dont know..im just excited and i cant believe it..tsk2. i hope may comes as soon as possible so that finally mapaniwalaan ko na...gusto ko lang magTHANK YOU sa kanya..as in THANK you..i feel so blessed. tsk2. wla lang. un lang..i need to go. bye^^

BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS ending

2009-04-09T20:36:00.015+08:00

hello bloggie!^^ haha. wanna have updates.updates.updates. haha. i miss bloggie.

ok,ok., bowt the previous entry., I FINISHED BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS last april 5 a day after miming's bday. ., i was able to finish it after that uber busy day. bruce and i prepared for her surprise party in the cooperation of her tita. and im sooooo glad to see that everything went on and everything happened that day was really according to the plan..but above everything im happy to see my friend soo happy. haha. this was her pic when she entered the venue., she was really crying !@_@ LOLZ.

BRUCE and I were the MC's for that night. hahaha^^. i enjoyd everything even though there were some unpleasent instanced on the process of the preparation, but i know i spent my time enjoying and the thought that its for a friend it makes me really happy . and miming is one of the greatest friends i have in my life now..coz she's only the one who understands me when it comes to matters that are really really hard to understand. haha. well anyweii., happy birthday again to my dear frien.

okay., okay back to the BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS thingie..i was really really frustrated with the ending. arrrrrghhhHh! i soooo hate the way they ended the series. i mean i was really enjoying the first episodes and i was really expecting that the endinh was really bongga to the highest maximum level..but sooooo SAD~! the ending doesnt suit the impact that the series made on the first 23episodes. sooo sorry to say that. well, right now im still thinking of another series that could make me busy this summer. maybe this time., a japanes series. GAWD! i badly need to practice nihonggo. haha.

and then., hmmmm. recently i am really happy with whats happening with my lovelife. i do hope its always like this. lesser misunderstandings and all. ..haha. and we make use of the unlicalls nyt recently thats why i cant wake up early.. hahaha^^ and then we always go out watch movies and eat.eat.eat.

adn then we got this new stuff. its name is FIER. he looks like FURR. hahaha. so cute the lil pggy. :)

i was really touched when he gave me this mug with an ice cream on it the last time we had a fight ..then he wa making bawi . its a mug with "world's groovies girlfriend" statement. soo lalalalaove. hahaha^^

this is his cute lil sis na sobrang kulit. hahaha^^ si IYA, recently i always make tambay sa bahay nila to play with this lil kid.

and this one is his elder sister's baby during her baptismaL. prince love this baby soo much. its so fun watching them together.LOL. and when this baby had her baptismaL prince was the one holding her ..and prince didnt know what to do when the baby was crying really hard. haha. i enjoyed watching him tensed. haha:) baby Zakkara is 2 months old.

see.see.see. everything is going fine . and soo happy and overwhelmed about it. but one thing really bothers me. it my grade for my english subject..coz i had a fight with that teacher so i dunno if she made it personal or what coz she gave me 75% rating during our defense. but hell , i know i did my best . but i dont want to make any argument ulit coz she's not an open minded teacher and she's so kawawa na coz its like everyone on the first year level filed complaints for her attitude problem.haha. soo much for that person.

i wanna greet my lovely friend. EPREL!!! hahaha!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EPREL.!!!

..LOL. awa naa pa picture. haha eff.i miss you friend. i know ur doing fine. huhuh. too bad u cant celebrate bday with us. tsk2. :) goodluck sa life. my wish for you is to have more more more boylets. haha! peace^^ we lab you!! from dearest bombshells!. haha:)

OMG!@_@
ineed to go. bye!!!

xoxo.
F.METEORA

BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS

2009-03-31T00:33:00.007+08:00

im so into this one lately. LOL. i was about to search for top rated Japanese series kanina., and then i tried watching the first part..and then i ended up getting hooked up with this. haha. So Yi Jung his real name is kim bum(xi men in MG) LOL. he is soooo hot. i soo love his hair..his smile! everything. and and almost the same name with my bummie. lol. i think they do have save similarities. the smile and the lower part of their faces lookssimilar at times. wahahaha. but im more interested with Goo Joon Pyo(dau min su in MG). haha. he looks good..with the vurly hair. awww. i love the way they made the series. i think im sooo addict with this one., in fact i did not take a bath today..and its already dawn thats why i need to stop wtaching it for while..i need to take a break..but kanina i was really unstoppable. oh my oh my!! haha. i miss those addict days of mine. the girl who plays Shan cai., her name is Jandi i think lol no time to check the spelling..aww i also love the way she carries her role. haha. i cant compare it with barbie hsu though. well o well., just wanna xare it to everyone. i badly need to sleep. haha. i love KIM BUM and LEE MIN HO. and the other two guys too. LOL. i soooo lurve hawtttttiiEesss. haha. i remember the MG days., and i think im going insane now.!!! reallYyyyy.!! haha. feels like im in heaven specially when the two main characters have their sweet and annoying moments together..and and when lovely kim bum smiles. haha. he's sooooo cute. oh well i badly need to sleep now..and then tomorrow , im gonna wake up earlier than the usual 1:00 pm call time. haha... nytie everyone.

and one last thing..look at the boys. haha. they are terribly HOT. LOL. im melting now.!! hahaha. specially the two guys in between. uber LOVE!♥♥

♥♥♥ F. M E T E O R A ♥♥

MY DAY MY BIRTHDAY

2009-03-18T12:11:00.012+08:00

i think this is the best time to update lil bloggie.oh its been a long long time. and my friend dear shigyo keeps on reminding me bout this one. haha*winks at shigyo* well anyway school is done. and it was a great great year for me. thank God.

yesterday., was..

MY BIRTHDAY!!

well, i wanna thank everyone who made me really really happy yesterday. i wanna show how thankful i am to those few people who made my day very special. thank you first to God coz im still alive, i owe every single blessing that He has given me. The JENYSYS TOUR was the only thing i asked for my bday but he gave me more than what i asked for. im going to Japan this May for a study Tour. whheee~ i'll be seeing another place , 'ill be seeing my uncle there..and i'll be away from home for more than ten days. i feel so lucky coz God gave it to me no matter how malditah i am.

anyweii, my birthday. hmm the day before my birthday i was crying for like 5 hours and my eyes really sores. i wont be shy to show this stupid picture coz it's real. it really hurts. this was taken around 12:00 am of March 17. im really hurt because of something that bothers me since march 16. i mean taken for granted by someone who matters a lot to me and another fight on my birthday. i dunno why he consumes everything that even though i hate moments like this he doesn't take into consideration my feelings and that, its my day and he should understand me. for some reason i really cant understand why he acts like that on my day. well anyweii, i just wanna show you this one but i don't want anyone to pity me coz later on you'll see how destiny, and how God made me realize that there are certain people who can give me happiness even though im not asking for it. i wanna show you how frustrations turned into a HAPPINESS.

then after that when i woke up, i checked my FS and a very special friend EPREL made me smile. she's away from us right now but i appreciate the things that she made me comfy the night before my bday. i know she doesnt understand but she keeps on saying "ayaw hilak". haha. then another comment from my friend since grade school PRINCE JOHN daw. haha. thank you.

then later, after lunch i went to the mall.LOL. to meet chen., and then she said na nasa mall na daw xa then when i got there she was sooo tagal ., then i was complaining na where was she and then minutes latar she showed up with a CAKE. haha. tapos hindi ko na napigilan ..naiyak lang ako. im really happy coz i thought no ones gonne bother to give me one. haha. i LOVE YOU CHEN! here's our pic togther.

then while we were waiting for the other peepz, dumating si Bianca with her friend Cha. LOL. and then while we were making chismS..SHIGYO called up. WWHHEEEEW~. another big reason to be happy. haha. we talked over the phone for almost 30 mins?? hahah. i miss him. thank you Jun. he promsied to call me then ginawa tlga..LOL. and he was laughing about another girl and another gUy na TRALALALALA. hahah. amin na lang yun.

and then later dumating si TIFFANY. haha. LOVE YOU tif. niadto jud siya bsan unsa kalau ang MATINA. and then my bestfriend bianca., thank you diay kay ni-absent daw siya sa iyang BIO-CHEM class for me. wahahah! char touch ko ter. LOL. then later., dumating si BRUCE & MING. with another cake!! wahahaha! and a YELLOW BALLOON!!. thats y nakahilak napud ko. char OA. pero REAL. swear. haha. thank you tlga. haha. wala ko nagexpect kay bruce. LOL.

then after that , bruce and ming kelangan an nilang umuwi coz they have exams pa.huhuh. pero as in i am really thankful tot he both of them coz they both know how i really feel. and then after that, kain kamis a PENONGS. me tif bianca and chen. wahaha. then aftr balik sa GMALL para antay kay miel na sobrang gutom na daw. wahaha. then when she arrived sakay na agad ng taxi para punta sa KTV!! wheeeeEee! i lurve it. then doon we really had a great great session. kabuang ang corcage sa ckae 80 pesos mas mahal pa sa paradise ah. OA kau. nyahaha.

here are some of the pixies during the KTV session:

and then, we blew the candle and they sang happy bday for me. simple but for someone like me its really a big thing that they are there to make me really really happy. i always count on those people who makes effort to make me happy. everyone close to my heart really know how special for me my bday is, that even a single happy bday song that everyone sings is enough to make me cry. i really appreciate those people who makes me feel imprtant during my day. the most special day of my life is me bday thats why no one should blame me why i always cry on the simple priceless things that people do for me. my 18th bday though it wasnt soxal it made me realize a lot of things..too many things that should i have realized before pa..sometimes you just have to hurt so that you can make yourself realize who are the real people who truly care and love you. i 18 now and i think it sreally really time to be mature..mature in a sense na i wont let mt self be a doormat in one of my relationships, equal footing shoudl always be excercied in every sense of the word., its like that. i need to love myself than loving him.

and then after we went ot my grade school classmate's debut. and then i met my elementary gang again ! hahaha. sooo happy to see them!!! whheee!

hahaha. we had sooo much fun. mga lapit na 1 ako nakauwi. haha. they are so nice tlga. wahaha. anyweiii., juyst wanna say i'll be mature this time. you know there are a lot of things i realized yesterday. i wanna thank my parents for giving me my life., my sisters of course., i'll be good this time. my ate take care. i miss you..to m friends!!! una sa lahat kay SHIGYO sa mga enlightenments., for listening to my sentiments. haha. kabalo ko kapoi na at times kay cge lang ta balikbalik..thank you for being there. and making me happy on my da. sa akong P4 haha. chen thank you kau kay pagtungung palang nako sa mall gipahilak na ko nimo. wala lang...hehe. kay tiffany and miel., girLs you know you know a lot about me..haha. wala lang pud thank you kay always mo naa sa akong side kamong tulo dili ko nnyo ginabilin. KAY MIMING. ter kabalo ko na sa tanan tanan tanan ikaw ang nakasabot kung unsa akong mafeel right now thankful lang jud ko kay naa ka para ipaunderstand sa ako ang mga bagay2. kay EPREL sa cge hatag advice ug hope. magpictorial na ta! waaaa!. and of coruse di jud nko pwede kalimtan si BRUCE. bruce touch gud kau ko sa imong gibuhat ala jud koooooooo nagexpect ignan tika. haha. lab you bruce. sa akong ever dearest bestfriedn since preparatory si BIANCA, te wala jd ka nawala sa akong bday after all this years naa jud ka sa akong pinakaspecial bday ever. wahaha. lab you ter. sa lahat ng nagreet. sa akong mga classmates sa elementary..kay PRINCE JOHN daw..he was so nice yesterday..kay 2 ka ralph tong isa na taga addu man to ug RALPH namu sa elementary..waahaha. thank you. ila matet ug gkai love you girLs! ila joes., erwin., kinsa pa to..wahaha. sa inyoha tanan na nagtake part para pakatawon ko sa akong bday. wala lang thankful lang jud ko.

thank you to everyone na nagreet sa FS sa FONE, Prince, madel, lyca dear, dannah san, balong and Nice, sa aking uncle . bsat asa laht.. i really appreciate the sense na naremember nnyo ang aking bday specially to those people na nag effort para mahappy ko. even though there were instances yesterday that made me sad, i know i cant confine myself to one person only specially when that person doesnt understand how i really feel. more than anything else i want my feelings to be always respected., i want to be considered not only as an option. it doesnt make sense after all kung magluluksa ako coz of one certain part of my life., coz more than that i have my FRIENDS and of course my FAMILY. people who never took me for granted. thank you to everyone who made my day. you just dont how that im really really thankful coz you made my sadness disappear. it doesnt matter anymore if i cried last march 16 coz now i finally realized who are the people who considers me as an importantpart of my life. my birthday means a lot to me and its something that i want him to realize, ruin everyday of my life except my BIRTHDAY coz its worth my life. its the only day that i can see who remembers, who forgets, who hides, who shows up and who really makes an effort to make me happy. who celebrates my life with me and who love me. now i owe my life not to my only one but to alot of people who made me happy. i will never forget evertyhing that had happen yesterday. sooo much gratitude to show to everyone. . thank you sa lahat who made me realize all this things. thank you from the bottom of my HEART.

till here.

xoxo,
FMETEORA

all pixies on my Friendster.

frustration

2009-01-06T19:51:00.003+08:00

honestly ..im a bit frustrated with my performance recently., i mean i could have done better than that but i chose to settle for less to prioritize some people i have in my life. .. just yesterday, i had a problem again with my teacher..my ENGLISH teacher..and im afraid that that anger would turn into sumthing personal..and about my grades..its really frustrating..i wanna achieve sumthing..:(..well anyhow, thy effort was enough naman...kaso hindi satisfying ang result. aiiiiiiiish. till here bloggie. i miss you..

YEAR END ENTRY

2008-12-23T23:33:00.012+08:00

oohh! right right now.., im having my blog updated coz according to my very good friend ..*well infact my most evil friend* ShiGyO. *winkSss**hugSs*., its been two monthS since the last time i had this updated. whheeew!. quite long. ., its like im taking it forgranted., well forgive me coz i've got a lot of stuffs to do..important ones. . my priorities.. bloggie would greatly understand that though..*hugSs my bloggie*. well practically speaking there are more important things to do with my life than bubbling about different stuffs online. okay.okay enough for that.. i'll be having my YEAR END ENTRY. yes.yes. its a practice since last year..if you havent read my last year's "year end entry" just check on my archives. again and again., i want to thank some people who made me cry., happy, laugh,,insane starting at the beginning of 2008 till the moment im encoding this one. its kinda stupid though coz no one might be interested to read it, well anyhow, i know someone's gonna read this and you have to leave a comment. ok bitch im gonna start;

when year 2008 started, ahm, i can say it started quite good coz everything was fine, high school days..everyone..my family, friends..loved ones...they were all fine..no major problems took place..i graduated from the school that I'd love to leave since i was on third year .i had to prepare myself for college.,stuffs like that.. my family were in good health, something that i should really thank of coz i dont want want anyone getting sick coz aside from the medical bills and all, i dont wanna see them suffering or what. i just want to see them fine. back to the school stuff; yah..at last ., iiwan ko na ang UIC..its quite fulfilling ..at the same time frustrating. i'll be away from my friends..i wont be seeing my prince everyday anymore..but got to be good and ready for the major changes of my life.

summer,; i was working in my uncle's company..and i wasnt really happy except for the fact that im earning my own money..but its kinda boring to wait for phone calls *cries*.

when the first sem started, everything was fine.. then at the middle of the year, whhhew. i admit that i was super down. its december right now and when i go back 4 - 5 months back., its kinda frustrating to have gone such a difficult heartache..one reason why i stopped updating this bloggie is that i dont want to share lonely stuffs here..i just want to share happy happy memories coz i want my friends and other people who care about me..when they go and check..then read sumthing on my bloggie i want them to feel fine and see im okay. thats why before i used to share stuffs here about jaejoong..dong bang..yunho..ki bum and suju..etc.i was happy sharing things about my fandom but its a different light when you go and step into reality. everyone knows what im saying. . and then when 2nd semester started, slowly ., i recovered from the most painful part of my lovelife..infact my life. slowly i was able to get back to my old self again. later on i'll be mentioning some people..pero pipiliin to lang yung mga papangalanan ko. well un na nga start na nga ako...kanina ko pa sinasabing start na..o eto na. in random order.

first on the list:

papa

of course. walang tatalo. ahm thank you.. for everything. for every single thing he had brought to me and my family. he's always me reason and my inspiration why i do good in my studies.

mama
thank you din sa mga sacrifices and understanding sa akin.

ate davie.
ter,haha. im just lucky to have you as my sistAaah. haha. pagtinarong skwela ter daghan pa bya ta dreams

nana & sisi
oi kambal ., dili magcge ug laag kay itom na kau mo. salamat bsan ginaway ko nnyo usahay labSs japon tanan.:

ate rC:
hey madam! haha. wala lang.salamat sa chikka ug guidance sa ako. wooah! idOl.

paye.prince.fai.
joker kau ka ye. thank u so much for everything. thank you for staying with me and taking care of me and making me happy.

shigyo
haha. thank you kasi pinagbigyan mo tlga ako nung umuwi ka sa philippinEs..alam mo na what i mean. the RH thingie. thank you for doing my assignments.thank you sa mga enlightenment s. ..and thank you for going back. i miss ur company:)..i miss you shigyo..:)

tiffany.
bib crOcs, thank you kau sa mga hilak momentS na naa jud mong duha ni mariel. pati lingaw kau ka mangaway..ahahaa.lingaw pud ka awayon. atik lang tip!!lab youuuu!

eprel

eprel, as usual daghan ko matunan sa imo. like "eptiome". haha. kababawan, thank you eprel. mixxxooo too!!* uli na diay kay magpictorial nata."

mariel
thank you kay naa jud ka always sa akong side.. you know what i mean..kaw ang only friend nako na nakabalo sa tanan2.. ana ka dako akong trust sa imo dhang. lab you dhang!

miming.
ter, thank you kau sa tanan. thank you pud kay naa ka always kung kelangan tka..

rotchen
mami chen, salamt sa mga advice ug mga happy memories with p4. lab youuuuuuu!.

madhel
beshieeey!*hugs*..ma count lang ung daysS na nagkita ta when college started..huhuhu. i mixxxoo.

bruce

hoi bruuuucee! this year tlga na tight ung bonding natin..magkasinabtanay jud ta bruce lalo na kung pareho ta naa kwarta pero kung pareho ta walay kwarta magkasinabtanay jpon ta. oyeh!

jecho

oi jeco kahit ganyan ka sakin thankful parin ako kasi year 2008 tlga tayo naging close. i mean FC ka man sa akin., pero i understand dami tlga gustong makipag FC sa akin. hahaha! jooooooooke!.. pero totoo jec, kahit inaaway mo lang ako, pero kung time na maging serious seryoso ka tlga to the highest maximum level kaso minsan palpak lang..hahaha. atik lang!*hugs*

mcdo

never tlga nagfade ang kasikatan ng mcdo sa buhay ka lalo na nagyon mas tumindi kasi nasa harap na tlga ng aking school. im soo thankful to mcdo kasi hindi lang takbuhan kung may problema, takbuhan pa kung may exams!!! woaaaah!. as in..thank you sa hot choco na nagpapalakas ng aking memory . ewan ko ba..but it helps. at sa coke float na naging love ko din at one certain point ng aking buhay.

dencio's

hindi ko kelangan pumunta gmall para makakain ng unli rice kasi nasa harap din ng school. whhhee!. ang yaman tlga ng damosa.hahaha*pokes*

lyca, dannah, knayeza

girLs, labs, thank you sa bonding and sa help..and for everything. thank you kasi i have my own company in school..thank you for making me happy. and thank you for the bonding. . knayeza, ter thank you for listening to me. lyca thank you sa mga kabuang moments ..dannah thank you sa mga kabuang moments pud..hahah. lab you labs! dili na lageh mag F. F oie, sagdi gud ng gusto mujoin..joiners ang tawag ana. atik lang! echusera!

haseagawa sensei!!!

whhhheeew. kahit ganyan ka..kahit hindi mo tlga ako pinili maghing student for the second sem..ur the reason kung bakit magaling ako sa nihonggo. char lang!! haha. pero totoo..haseagawa sensei wa totemo ii sensei desu. dakara suki desyo. domo arigatou.haha. sorry nagalow ang japanese ko right now..wala kasing class eh.*palusot*

haruyama sensei

haha . sa totoo ilang sensei na sinabihan ko ng boring. haha!..i wrote sumthing at the back of our activity sheet then i forgot that i wrote sumthing pala in there na "totemo tsumaranai= very boring". then nabasa niya..so nahiya tlga ako. well thank you..coz you always say.."ii desu!!"..haha. she's so pretty. thank you for being so nice to me despite of what i have done.

mkd clasmates.

haha. thank you for everythinggggg. thank you for making me smile everyday.

slaphies w/ kate

ooohhh.. one time this year year nagbonding tayo..huhuh. inaaway nyo prn ako as usual..pero thank you for the company..and thank you or being there..thank you for defending me..specially to azze..hahaha. bunganga mo tlga the best..and sheila whhheeWw.thank you for all the info and being a real friend..yen yen .,; thank you sa mga words of wisdom ..thank you for the friendship.

|| MKd||

wwooaah!:) i've learned to love my school as well as the people there.. my teacher and my schoolmates. kahit pumalya ako sa MKD NIGHT. LOL. i never shared anythig about it coz its kinda stupid & shameful on my part that i slipped during the show. well then, that was over, i made my part though. and now everyone knows about it. and i dont care anymore. im just uber thankful for the experience and the lessons and eveything. rest assured i'll stay there for 4 years of my college..i wont be leving that school and thats a promise i have to make for myself and for my future. haha.

ahm whoooo else., aii oo before i forget:

||those people naging reason ng aking suffering||
duh. its Christmas.so lets be fair enough na man to acknowledge those people na nag took part at sumali sa eksena as kontrabidas, yung mga antagonists ika nga. well thank you na din kasi you made me strong. sana na man year 2009 tumahumik na mga kaluluwa niyo este tumahimik na yang mga bunganga niyo..sa totoo its hard to deal with your attitudes pero kakapagod din pansinin yang mga ginagawa niyo..so be it. after all hindi rin na man kau magtatagumpay sa pagpull down sa akin.. certainly, i know im in the right position and i know what i am saying. haha.and for heaven's sake noh wag kayong umastang maganda kasi hindi tlga. enough. * enough* nababahiran na tuloy ng pangit na aura and aking bloggie. well lets be plastic; me and my friends love you! tC! hugs and kisses whores:)

ate celia
whhheee~ thank you nga pala for staying with my family for almost 9 yeaaars!!haba na pala. youre part of our family now. thank you for helping us out.

mary kay
nako nalng sino ba kasi ang dapat kong paslamatan, salamat sa sponsors. salamat sa mary kay. jusko ewan ko.

FAI. FURR
sa aking mga stuffs na bigay ni prince..thank you for being with me everytime na natutulog ako..wheeew. i soooo loVe the oth of you.

and of course.;

to almighty GOD
i wont be here without him, thank you for giving me everyone and thank you for taking care of my family. this year was a great year for my family. thank you soooo much for everything. my happiness and my sorrows, my joy and pain, my achievements and my failures, my friends and my enemies, i lift them up to you. whatever might happen this coming year, i know its according to your will and i'll be grateful enough to accept everything. sorry for my shortcomings as your daughter., sorry for my faults and sorry for those times that im blinded with my fear and anger. i loVe you..whoever you are who is watching me and my family..as well as with my friends and the person i love..thank you:)

whhhew. thats it. thank you everyone! till next year! love you all!:) merry xmas and a happy new year everyone! *huuuuuuGGGGGGgggggsssss & kissess* mmwaaahh^^~

tille here,

||f.meteora||

change for the better

2008-10-27T17:45:00.003+08:00

HOROSCOPE FOR THE DAY:

Hey, loosen up there! You can't become too obsessed with every little detail in life. Everything is what it is -- some things can be changed, but some things cannot be. You'll be doing yourself a huge favor by understanding the difference between the two, especially in your personal life. Problems could arise in a partnership if you are unwilling to just let things go. You cannot change a person, you can only communicate how their behavior affects you.

ive been so boRed na with whats happening with my sembreak. i was thinking back then that this will be sumthing memorable since its my first sembreak ever. well then..no choice but to go with the flow. i dont have sumthing to do with my life thats why im updating meteoric fantasy bloggie right now. hahaha. i woke up kaninang umaga around 8:50 then i ate my breakfast then i checked my mail, my FS and other accounts..then i realized browsing wont get me anywhere thats why i decided to sleep and then i woke up ulit around 2:00 pm. and i dunno what happened coz i got uber frustrated. i really dont know if its because my inbox is empty..or i just miss him so much..or im worrying about the 2nd sem..or its mainly because of the leeches and bitchEs around. aiiiish. i really hate thinking about my problems. i once learned to manage and control my feelings about these stuffs before but i dunno how and when i loosed my control again. its burning me alive..LMAO. and honestly it gives me incurable headache. and then a while ago i, checked my FS again after i took a bath and its kinda stupid coz there are no updates.*pokes*. so out of boredom i checked my horoscope. and hahaha. it made me smile.. coz everything that is going around my mind has sumthing to do with dooooo-bbiiii--dooo--wap horoscope.

for the past few days i adit i am so happy coz everything is sooo fine. n problems at all..but i realized if its really happiness or im just pretending that everything is alright just to avoid another pain. i mean, there are certain things i learned to ignore for someone's sake. ive been too attached to someone that i forgot to think about more important details. yah..yah..theres a big need for me to loosen up and balance things.. aish. i dunno if someone can get what the hell im talking about.

"Everything is what it is -- some things can be changed, but some things cannot be."

EXACTLY. if i want to change things i can probabaly do that if its meant to be changed by me.. however , i can see that there are more things na hindi ko na dapat pakealaman. trying to change everything into sumthing that satisfies my needs and my wants isnt really good na. coz it will still be my burden if i cant accept things as they are. confused? hahaha. ako din. okay,.okay one good example..bitches will always be bitches. they are born to be like that and no matter how you try to get rid of them they will always be around to mess things up..hahaha. you can never change them specially if you dont know them..i mean you knw them by name ..but you dont know their crappy motives. well, hindi na talaga mababago ang ikot ng utak ng mga linte na yan. and if i keep on thinking about them..it would be a waste of time..sinasayang ko lang yung oras ko sa mga walang kwentang bagay. and i dunno why im talking shit again. hahaha.

and about the behavior thingie..cge na nga hindi na nga mababago..nasa akin nalang kung ano ko tatanggapin ang mga bagay bagay. awww. sad. pero wala lng. may gusto akong gawin sa buhay ko na mas importante at mas may sense. ewan ko bah pero parang sawa na ako sa linte na sembreak pero ayoko pa bumalik sa school. i dont miss my school i just miss my friedns there and coke float. i dont miss my teacheRs din..huhuhuh. i havent seen my grades pa nga eh. aish this isnt going anywhere. till here folks.

♥♥ f. meteora ♥♥

gensan

2008-10-24T10:36:00.002+08:00

naawa na ako sa bloggie na to, wala ng updates. hahaha. pero im not closing this one. hahaha. from time to time im gonna update. hahaha. prang isang taon talgang walang updates bah.

galing ako gen san last week para sa debut ng aking mahal na kaibigan na si bianca. 3 nights ako nandoon. ahm., it was fun. super warm ang mga tao doon. yung mga close riends niya, ive met them already. si royder and jenny kaye., they are soo nice to me. since i dunno anything about everything sila yung kasama ko. hahaha. the birthday was fine. kakaiyak nga eh. and, and, nakipgabonding ako konti sa mga tao doon. pero hndi ako umabot ng hanggang umaga., mga 12 natulog na ako., uber pagod kasi sa biyahe ang wala pang tulog. hmmm., what else.. sembreak. ahm ewan. ok na man. . mejo boring nga lang pero ok na din to mas ayoko kasi ng may clase..kakapagod mgmemorize ng vocab ng lintek na nihonngo na yan. nga pala., may namention tatay ko sa akin na mag transfer daw ako sa second sem sa I.S sa ateneO., pero iniisip ko pa kasi parang ewan. ayoko doon. i love my school now and nakaadjust na dn ako sa environment and i dont want to start all over again. isa pa, ayoko sa mga tao doon. and honestly, ayoko lang. hahaha. yun.. ngayon masaya ako..masaya na hindi. of course dami din na man pangyayari na nagpapahirap sa akin..and naiinis ako sa mga tao minsan kasi hindi sila marunong magbehave at lumugar kung san sila dpt lumugar. alam mo un..may mga tao na finifeel talaga ang moment., yung mga trying hard na ewan. yung mga taong ang taas ng tingin sa sarili ..thn all the time pala ang baba na ng tingin ng tao sa kanila. alam ko na this a democratic country na man, pero come to think of it, the more na pinipilit mo ang isang bagay na more na mas OA tignan. ayt? wala lang..hahaha.

anyweii, i super love my friends. i miss them so much. lyca dannah and nice. hahaha. i lvoe going to school pero sana wala ng exams or quizzes. ok na yung quizzes pero exams pwede wala nalang..pati na rin ang assignment. hahaa. super tinatamad ako these days eh. pero i miss hasegawa sensei. hahaha. minsan naiinis lang ako kasi super strict xa sa akin. pero ok lang. then what else.]

hmmm maaya., i'll be with ENZO. excited na ako to see tiffany and mariel and rotchen and others. hahaha. pupuntahan namin si LILIBETH LOZADA kasi nagtatampo daw yun kasi no one is visiting hr daw..hahaha. o nga naman.. well anyweii .,

pagod na ako kakapindot . byebye na.

KARMA

2008-09-22T13:33:00.003+08:00

i feel like making a new entry for bloggie.. during my pschology class kanina, i got uber interested with the topic. it has sumthing to do with someone's level of intelligence. hahaha. it was quite crazy bcoz i was fooling with lyca and aya san, we always say we belong on the genius level..having 120 + IQ. hahaha. its stupid. pero hindi yan yung highlight.. my prof was talking about being successful doesnt necessarily mean you have to be intelligent.. its because IQ has to be with EQ..he was saying that its all up to sumeone's "diskarte in life"..then i realized ..maybe i dont hve that brain like Einstein's..but i can be successful if a want to..ayt?..anyweii, hindi parin yang topic na naging uber uber interested ako. when they were talking about the emotional chuchu., sumthing popped up on my mind. KARMA. then napaisip ako if psychology has sutmhing to do with it. im quite confused kasi..coz if i think about all the people who have caused me pain..i always depend on KARMA...sa naalala ko.. my prof said KARMA is a philosophical belief daw..pero doesnt have a direct connection with pyche..but but..as a psychology major and as a psychiatrist..he has always believed that us human being attracts energy. then i realized its super duper true..coz if i think so hard about a certain situation it happens so soon..and if i think that sumthing like this will happen i experience it immediately ashita , or the day after next. hahaha. and and.. its always good to have a positive thinking always ..the moment you open your eyes in the morning you have to start your day with a smile., becoz when you start your day positively then the rest of the day will be fine..but if early in the morning you are so sad and you dont set your mood then the rest of the day you'll be experiencing a lot of "malas"..becoz you have attracted negative energy. same as, thinking that you want someone to experience suffering or you think of negative thoughts to someone..it does happen..but..but..but..you should be careful coz at that point KARMA starts to enter the scene..okay..okay lets say you're happy coz finally the person you want to suffer ..really did suffer but sooner or later it will come back to you..twice..thrice. and whats the most interesting of all., is that when you badly want something or someone think of that someone before you sleep and right after you open your eyes..think..think and think..for exapmle you have a crush on sumeone then you want that someone to be yours..then think of him positively coz that attracts positive energy,,all you have to do is wait..wait..and wait.. but that doesnt have to become and obsession din..coz its beyond the limit. hahaha. then while he was saying all these stuffs., i was really happy..i mean i was like floating and everything ..natatawa ako na hindi ko alam..pero pinipigilan ko lang..LOLZ. im trying to get rid of all my negative thoughts coz i wanna be busy and i wanna be happy. LOL. whats the sense of my life if i will just focus on one person. hahaha. then about the KARMA thingie..i realized that its a big NO NO na i will think of it to happen to other people..its all up to fate.. hahaha. im having a lot of blaaah2 here..

i just wanna relate everything to my present situation. i mean having this kind of problem is not really easy ., it might sound for others so simple and i might say to everyone that im okay..im fine..but deep inside im really hurting..but what makes me go on with my life is the thought na may rason lahat ng bagay..hindi ko kailangan i confine ang sarili ko sa iisang bagay o sa iisang tao..kung gusto ko matulungan ang sarili ko..kailangn ko magsimula kung san dpt magsimula..more than sa lahat ng advice na natatanggap ko..more than sa lahat ng sinsabi ng tao sa akin..more than sa lahat ng encouragement ..attention..love .,.pati care na nararmadaman ko from the people who really cares..first thing's first. i have to believe that im really strong, i have to lvoe and take care of my self..and whatever it takes ..mahirap nga ..OO as in super OO. pero diba nga life doesnt stop there..life goes on..and i have to bear in mind ..that i only have myself now..there's no one i can depend on but myself..so un nga i have to be strong hindi para sa kanya..kundi para sa sarili ko..i can be happy if i want to..right?? hahaha. after all., it takes time parin.. pero slowly im learning.. hahaha. hindi ko alam kung san ito patungo..basta lang gusto ko magsalita..it makes me feel better din kasi...

nga pala, my day was sooo fine. natatawa lang ako kanna sa mga few happenings sa clasroom. like someone's is taking my jokes seriously and i dunno if he hates me for doing such thing..hahaha. d ko nga alam kung anong pumasok sa utak ko..bsta lang nafeel ko gusto ko magjoke..tapos xa yung nakita ko. .hahaha. pati yung ENGLISH teacher namin natawa sa akin..and for a while nastop yung class kasi si Feljohn , naging clumsy at ayaw nya na magsalit infront dahil sa akin..hahaha. hindi ko na yun ulitin..pero try ko lang.

and..and..i am having tutorial session with mamii's son..and i had fun doing it. and it feels so good to have helped a young mind. malay natin dba after all teaching is my calling pala..wahahaha. pero ayoko nyan..i wanna be a stewardess. ahaha. nangarap daw ako?? LOL.

hmmmmmm. what else..hindi ako nakafeel ng pagod..basta lang masaya n ako sumhow . hehe. wala n akong masbi iba. hahaha. pasenxaaa. till here.

better in time.

2008-09-16T11:52:00.003+08:00

i understand why there are certain people who need to leave..cguro nga hindi sa lahat ng oras kung ano ang gs2 ko yun ang pwedeng mangyari...hindi din all the time he has to stay..everything happens for a reason. i have to be strong for myself..kelangan ko maging masaya ulit..cguro hindi pa ngayon..pero someday..someday..i can be happy..im going through this process again..maxadong mahirap mag let go..specially kung alam m n ginawa m ang lht..but still hindi nyo n kaya..mahirap kasi ilang araw nalang sana..anniversary na..cince then..i wished..i hoped to celebrate my first ever anniversary..with that one special person..pero cguro nga ndi tlga para sa aming dalawa yun..i know he's happy now..ayoko n magbigay ng problems sa knya..whatever it takes..gawin ko lahat pra lang maging tahimik na laht ng bagay..matagal n dn akong nag give up..ever since the day he stopped texting me..i had to give up kasi napapagod n dn ako n ganito nalang palagi..walang pagbabago. its time to face reality..kelangn ko na ayusin yung mga bagay n i took forgranted for 11 motnhs. specially yung sarili ko..i have to love myself again.

pra sa mga taong nag take part at pumasok sa eksena.. around of applause for all of you..ngtagumpay talaga kayo..are you happy now?? do whatver you want..gawin niyo lahat pra mapa sa inyo ang gusto niyong maging sa inyo..i dont care anymore. magpakasaya kau hanggat gusto niyo..maglaklak kayo ng alak hanggang maging parang bote n yang mga bituka niyo..i know madaming masaya sa nangyari ngyon. whatever. for as long as i believe in KARMA wala na akong pakealam sa inyo..

and for you..hindi ko alam what else i have to say..yun n yun lahat..kung nakinig ka lang sana..at kung naniwala ka sa kung anong meron tayong dalawa noon. alam ko naman na you can live without me..madiskarte ka naman sa buhay alam ko u can get over too soon..magkita man tayo one day..sana makita kita na mas better person kesa noon..i'll surely miss you..we both have our freedom right now..you can do whatever you want..just take care of yourself.. im still thankful to have someone right you in my life..atleast at one point sa buhay ko..naramdaman ko na may isang taong katulad m n nglove sa akin ng ganun..yun nga lang hindi ntn nagawang i keep it for long..pero atleast we both tried..cguro nga this is really goodbye..kahit anong mangyari..u'll always be a part of me..gsto k lang maging masaya n tayong dalwa..ang dami ko din kasalanan sayo..gsto k lng maintindihan m ndi dn ako perfect..kinailangan k lang ng taong marunong umintindi..i thought it was you..pero hindi pala..no need to say sorry. kasi after all , it was all worth it..i know deep inside naging masaya din tayo kahit papano..somehow napaglaban ntn kng ano man yung naramdaman ntn pra sa isat isa before..i hope one day maging ok na lahat..just take care..till then :)

yun lang..i cant say im happy coz finally im starting to build a new life alone..its a process din naman.im strong. yun nga..hindi pa nga ngayn..pero someday..i'll gather the strength to finally move on..i know i can do this. bye!

happy birthday paye

2008-09-04T17:41:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAYE

hahaha. it was his birthday yesterday..i was with miming, jeco and bruce nung pumunta kami sa bahay nila..gud thing they were also there..coz im going to die without them. hahaha! anyweii, whats up with me, hahaha. parang sobrang tagal na tlga since nkapost ako ng entry. huhuhuh. i miss this. daming bagay na mas dapat unahin. i'll share some here.

wahaha.
yesterday, kausap ko si miming and she was saying something to me about a friend..and then..hmmm..wala lang parang na bother ako konti paro ayokong gawing big deal yun kasi ang babaw din naman..and no time for those sentiments.after all friendship will always remain. i love her naman eh..and i know i'll see her soon..when she's not busy anymore.

and then there is this one girl in school and i dunno why coz she keeps on leeching to someone and obviously there's something else that she wants to have.. aish. and she's very cold to me and so plastic..LOL. i can feel it..we used to be friends before but i dont like her now. she's so different and very desperate. well gudluck for her.

im honestly starting to regret why i entered that school..i dunno why but i miss few important people..bruce..miming..and other people close to me..aww. i wanna spend more time with them. huhuhuh.

and then..my friends in my present school..hmmm fine..lyca , dannah and knaeyeza..we always spend a lot of time talking..i do hope that our friendship will last. hahaha:)

and then what else..my acads..im soooooooo tired. im tired learning nihonggo and facing hasegawa sensei.. he is so harsh. i dont like him..and the lessons are really fast ..walang araw na nakakatulog ako ng maayos..walang gabi dn na pwede ko hindi buksan ang mga libro ko..unlike in high school..and and..im getting thin na..*cries* i really hate it..im so stressed out..i wanna rest. few days more..and it will be sembreak. LOL. wish me luck. i wanna be on the Dean's list. *

BOB ONG.

ayoko na ng libro na puro memorization. hahaha. thats why i tried sumthing new..BOB ONG's book. hahaha. i love his stories..LOL. not boring. hahaha. i think im obsessed with him.

O jo kaluguran daka
hahaha. its a song..naririnig ko before pero prang so awkward kasi parang ginaya nirevise lang..pero when i listened to it kanina..it made me happy. :) hahaha. its a kapangpangan song..reminds me of my friend azzedine. she used to teach us different words tapos naalala ko yung "KALUGURAN" na word. hahaha. this is my current LSS. song goes like this..
hahaha.
Oh Jo kaluguran daka.
Kaluguran sobra-sobra.
Kasara da reng mata pantunan daka
Lawen daka angga king mate ku,
Uling ika ing lulugud kaku.
Lawen daka Oh JO hanggang atin ka pang tau.

whate else..ahmm..his birthday..the night was fine..he had a lot of his freinds from his school..i saw IYA again..she's soooo cute..and mga kapatid niya..they are soo nice to me. hahaha:)..:) and then. LOL.LOL. tomorrow long quiz for kanji!!..i need to memorize a lot of characters. kanji really sucks. and i hate it..aish.

i dont have other news..i jsut miss bRuce. hahaha!
thats all.:)

nalingaw ko sa among KTV gabii. naks!

2008-08-10T09:17:00.002+08:00

hala nalingaw jud ko. swear. promise. to the highest level. to the maximum one. wahahha. grabe tanan saturdays nlng jud nko ba i spend it with my old friends. aish! i love them so much. . as in no dull moments with them. sa kinla nkakatawa tlga ako na as in to the point na sumaskit na tiyan koh. anyweeeiiiiiii. story goes like this,.

ngachat mi ni bruce mga start kay 1 man ata to then hantod na hapon..mga 3:00. then blah2 ..at first ngashare2 pa kami ng videos sa utube. and then sunndenly sabi koh..

" oi bruce manlaag ta"

nyahaha. then blah2 blah..hahahha. ngout na kami..then ngkita kami sa mall. then pagkatpos..pumunta kami sa isang store sa bajada parin pra mgatingin2 ng mga shirts..and then nung pabalik na kami sa mall tumawag si preeence. then he asked kung nasaan na kami..then sabi koh sa mall..tapos dumating si jecho..then dumating si prince..i thought kami lang tatlo.

and then suddenly..hahaha. sabi ni prince

" aiii., mg K1 ta."
then ngagree tlga kami tatlo immediately ..pero ngsuggest na sa ibang KTV bar nlng..then gicontact na namo ang the rest.. hahahah. katawanan kaayo. kay si tiffany ng city tour pa..then mariel naa pa sa bangkal..alangan shocking kau mga happening wla naplanuhan..mao ngdecide mi na sundu-on si mariel..pati si chen..LOL. then paadto na mi sa bangkal na astang layu-a.. hahaha. then naa na si chen., tapos pagabot namo sa balay nila mariel..hala ngdrama pa iyang papa. as in..gi-lockan ug door si mariel..pero wla ngpaapekto..ni-uban jud si mariel. nyahahaha. pagka nlng jud aning mga bata-a ni. tapos si tipaneee., ginatawagan pa kay ng city tour pa daw lageh..tapos mao to ana xa dili daw xa makauban ..pero dili man pwede wala si tipaneee kay walay kalingawan..hahaha. then after a while..naa na xa sa kanto nla mariel..tapos lingaw kau kay natapilok pa jd xa taps katawanan kau xa ug reaction mkasakit ug tiyan..then after...adto na mi sa GIMIK KTV bar..hala..naa na ddto ngwild nami..sayaw2 pati kanta2..then ngapas si dyan ng dali2. hahaha. tapos mga 11:30 pm na mi ngdecide manguli..murag mga walay tag-iya..si mariel nga prblema pa xa kung asa xa matulog..pero ila tipanee to xa mgsleep for sure. after sa ktv bar nglibot2 mi sa davao..kay wala mi paadto-an..until we finally decided na sa mcdo. pagkaabot sa mcdo..ngtxt na akong mama ng yaw-yaw..hala lipaya uyyy. mao ni-ana nlng ko ng mag uli..then gi-hatod ko nilang tanan sa balay..tapos wala ko gikasab-an kay gipananghidan man ko ni tipaneee. wahahah. nalipay jud koh.. as in super. makalingaw sila kauaban..to the maximum highest level. si preeence ang dahilan sa tanan kay siya ng-una2. wahahah.:) . power. nalingaw ko. ambot. makamingaw man gud sila kauban..huhuhuh. miss them soooo much.

mao lang to*hugs*

august 4- 9 update

2008-08-09T15:00:00.003+08:00

okay..okay..i'll have upadates per week. LOL. this is stupid. hahahah. before i used to update almost everyday..but i cant do that anymore. anyweii..ive been having problems with some bitches on earth. i mean., certain girls who care less about my feelings. flirts.stupid girls who has nothing else to do but to leech..leech and then leech. duh?!..to hell with them. if thats what making them happy then be it. after all they wont really make it. for sure. anyweii., updates in school.

im fne in school., except for my one subject. its killing me coz i have to do sumthng i dont exactly understand. friends are fine. i wanna say i miss BRUCE. LOL. hahaha. :) wala lang..na miss ko and darkest of all the darkest. ahahaha.:)

and then., what else. oh yeah. coke float is love. i love coke float. hahha. noon i really hate it., pero hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla ko nlng xa nagustuhan. well then lates addiction ko as of now. hhahaha.

ahm..yestarday.. nanood kami ng the MUMMY., i was with prince.. the movie was good. except sa mga distorbo na sumira ng moment. LOL. it was bcoz of a textmsg from a girl. cant accept that anyweii. i dont want to elaborate more about that.

and then..what else..nga pla., last wednesday..naging super down ako. hindi ko alam pressure sa skul and everything..and i tried to get rescue from him..LOL. ano yan 911?!) lintek,. good thing.. he was there for me. pinuntahan tlga ako. *kilig*

tama pla... this is furr gamay titong kau. LOL.makahilak gud ug renbow.

10th monthsary. hahaha. si bibi FURR

thats all. gotta wash my clothes na.LOL

saturday with biance, tif, ming, mahdel.

2008-08-03T12:12:00.003+08:00

helooooooo everyone. im back.im back.im back. after a while..i did not miss meteoric fantasy. LOL. i was thinking back then ifi'll still update it or not. LOL. anyway anyway..for the sake of my happiness i'll keep it. nonesense it is. yestarday..:) was saturdayyyyyyyy. LOL. i really love do yoobi. kasi ito lang ang time na nagiging happy ako with the few people i really love. *teary eyes*

anyweiiii. hi-way. before saturday is friday. LOL. 10th monthsary. LOL.its very fulfilling in my part coz 10 months is not really joke. what i mean is., we've been through a lot of problems..big big problems but still im happy to see both of us still together..for as long as i can and no body's getting hurt..id love to keep the relationship.LOVE WILL KEEP US ALIVE he gave me a very cute stuff..its a piggy-piggy stuff. at first., we were both confused of the name but finally we named it FURRLOL. .the other one is FAI., now its FURR. hahaha:). we didnt spend much time together coz he had to leave for manila..*cries*..but at least we were able to celebrate it. . and i was soo happy..and naiyak ako pagkakita ko kay FURR. wahahah. its sooo cute.LOL.

and then saturdayyyyy. woohoo. saturday is the day. i thought my psyche class will start at 9:00 am..so confident ako maxado and super tagal ko bumangon..maaga ako nakagising pero super late akong bumangon..then LYCa san my friend called me..then she was saying

" hoiiii!! asa n man ka??ganina pa ngstart ang klase"

me: ha?! 9 man ang clase dba?
lyca san: pataka lang ka 8:00 am kaya!
me: ngeee! maligo pa man ko!:
lyca san: ayaw na kaligo uyy diretxo na skul!

blah~blah~

wahahaha. akalain mo yun..no need to take a bath na daw. thats crazy..so immediately i rushed to the bathroom then..naligo ako then bihis then alis bahay..LOL. then nung pasakay na ako ng jeep i realized na wala akong coins so i have to give my 100 pesos..eh super nanginginig na ako kasi late na ako maxado..tapos nasa pinakadulo ako ng jeep kay dhl sa super ka loka ko at super lakas magpatakbo ni manong at lakas ng hangin// lumipad ang aking 100 pesos*cries*..sayang nmn yun..minsan ka nalng makakita ng 100 pesos ngaun. well anyway sana ang nakapulot mabuting tao..hahaha:)

then natapos ang klase koh..masaya..bti nlng wala ako napagalitan. then pagkatapos sa school pumunta ako sa mall to meet with my very good friend bianca.. and then yun ..kain and everything..then we asked my another friend since elementary na si camille if she can go..then nakita nmn siya ulit ater a very long time..but then she left immediately kasi punta pa xa sa skul niya coz she had to do something daw..then tiffany joined us..as well as with maryzelle..kumain kami sa greenwich..then naglakad2 ..naghanap ng mga pwede istalk..then nung napagod na kumain sa mcdo..tapos naglkad2 ulit prang mga tanga..then napagod kami ulit kaya ngcoffee sa rooftop..then at 7:00 pm madhel joined us..and super duper happy coz we were able to talk about a lot of things. awwww...i super miss those people..and one thing pala..bianca..me...and tiffany nakaviolet kaming tatlo..and all those times n nglalakad kaming tatlo..daming tao nakatingin..hahaha. pero hindi tlga kami ng agree na mgviolet lahat..as in co-incidence. well its destined to be like that..then back., ngusap kami and everything..so i was with bianca., maryzelle., mahdel and tiff.. bianca is my friend since prep nga..and she's really close with me present friends..lol. its great. ahahaha. then after namin mgcoffee ngutom na ulit kaya kumain ulit. then after mga 11:00 + na..lol. narealize nmn na late na pla..kaya nmn..we decided to go home. whhheeeeeeee. thats it. naloka ako.

then updates sa skewl., ahm i was happy with my math coz i got 99 for our prelim grade..pero ewan lng sa humanities..super duper lowwwwwwwww. then sa iba..hindi ko na alam. im ok in skewl..and im learning to love the people there. everyone is nice nmn so far.

awww.. i have to go..i have to rest.im tired now. and im getting bored with what im bubbling here..i hope ur not. okay..okay..bye!

see ya again:).

gimik ktv with enzo- wish wish ni sensei

2008-07-07T12:50:00.004+08:00

wooah. finally nagkaroon din ako ng time pra mgpost ng entry. tsk2x. super duper busy sa mga bagay bgay. hahaha. pasenxa na. well..well.. we had our exam sa Nihonggo last friday..and..and..huhuhuhu!!*terrible cries*..im not satisfied with what i got. its not failing nmn., but i know i could have a higher grade than that. haish. anyway, bawi nalang next exam.. and then saturday..saturday..saturday..oh yeah! saturday is the night as always. as usual napaka- chaotic ng aking lovelife right now., ewan ko ba wala akong maintindihan at ayoko na muna mgkwento about that. i dunno kasi kung ano exactly yung gusto kong mangyari ,. napaka confusing pa. so off muna tayo jan. hahaha. laaaaaassst saturday, balik tayo., ahm i had a reunion with my old friends, you know old classmates. hahaha. at first ang gulo din ng utak ko kung pupunta ako o hindi kasi yun nga pero finally narealize koh the best cure of everything im going through right now is lumabas and laugh, i mean hindi ko naman kelangan magkulong and everything kasi hindi talaga nakakatulong yun, isa pa parang sinasayang ko lang bawat araw na binigay ng Diyos sakin if i will not cherish it..ika nga "make the best out of everything.."hahah(paki-konek?) wala lang ., like before gusto ko lang mag enjoy at ayoko mag isip sa mga bagay na hindi dapat problemahin. so yun pumunta ako mga 1:00 pm..and super duper saya kasi nakita ko sila after a long time. iba parin pla yung mga taong matagal mo na kilala kesa sa mga tao na bago mo lang nakilala. iba talga ang fun enjoyment at ano pa yan kung sila ang kasama ko..sila yung nakakaintindi sa akin in any way i behave. hahahah^^ cguro nga alam na nila ang takbo ng utak koh thats why hindi na sila maxado ngtatanong about the issue kasi alam na nila yan, pag hindi ko siya kasama it means away.

(( wait lang, bakit ba tayo balik ng balik sa lintek na issue na yan?! duh. get over it muna)) so yun na nga, pagkatapos..hmmmmm ater nag -KTV kami, as in kanta to the highest level and eveyrhting super super saya..wahahaha!!^^ mga tatlong oras ata kami ng KTV, and then after a while bianca called up agen kasi gusto niya mameet koh ung GF niya so, bumalik ako ng mall and yun blah blah blah and then bianca decided to join us sa KTV so balik nnmn kami sa KTV bar..wooohhooo. grabe such an adventure..tapos yun na noh..pagbalik ko mariel is already tipsy na..hahaha. madami atang nainom na red Horse. wahahah. pero continue parina ng partyyyyyy.. hindi ako maghuhugas kamay kasi i tried to drink also kaso ang pangit ng lasa super so as in konti lang..ayoko naman magpaka KJ noh. isa pa cla lang din nmn kasama ko. so after 3 long and happy hours, umalis na kami and we decided na pumunta sa AtEneo, kasi may parang opening ata nga intrams and old classmates were inviting us to join kasi open n man daw sa lahat,. pero since mariel nga is lasing na nagcofee muna kami. then after, umuwi na ako kasi ayoko pumunta doon sa kanyang school..so i decided to go home na. wahahaha. umiiwas it is. (kasalanan ko kasi talga thats why tago mode muna ako...wahahaha^^

pero on the other hand, andoon parin ang feeling na parang may kulang talaga. hindi ko alam pero im trying to get rid of that stupid feeling pero hindi tlaga pwede iwasan kasi kahit gustong gusto mo talgang iwasan, it would still be very unusual for you. basta yun na,.. and till now its not fixed pa kasi and i really dont know if maayos pa ba or what hindi ko talaga alam as in. so yun na.

tapos kanina..wahahaha. we LoVe sensei talaga. hahaha. may activity kami sa japanese class namin. sensei said japanese people daw are celebrating a festival right now,. its like a legend of two lovers who promised that they have to see each other once a year. and he gave us cards kung saaan isusulat daw namin yung wishes namin..and dapat we will hang it daw on a bamboo tree(eprel?)., pero since hindi niya makayang dalhin ang bamboo alam niyo anong dinala niya..?hahahha! super funny kasi he brought "KALAMUNGGAY" at hindi ko alam anong english niyan , bsta yan na yun . nakakatawa kasi pagpasok niya dala dala na niya yun..and sensei nga pla super paloy kasi ang dami niyang dala everyday kaya malaki ung bag niya yun pala may nilagay na xang alarm clock, doll..laptop..etc.bsta madami siyang dala eveyrday..anyweeiiii, so un na, sinabit namin don ung cards na may wishes namn. wala lang, masaya lang ako sa activity coz i wished for the forgiveness of someone. sana totoo yun..LOL. wala akong magawa kundi umasa sa mga ganyan-ganyan kasi napakalabo. ewan ko ba.

oo nga pala before i forget, just want to share this to everyone..i made this para gift koh sa kanya nung jun 1. 9th monthsary namin, its up to you if you'll watch it or not. hehehe^^

so yun..yuna ng araw koh..well., till here.

saturday life♥

2008-06-28T16:25:00.003+08:00

woahahaha. here i am..playing with those memories again..wahahha. airsupply marathon for now. LOL. supposedly dpt jap songs (credits to eprel) lahat pinapakinggan koh kaya lang super duper hemorrhage to the highest level..swear. so take a break na muna. next week OMG! pre lim exam na nmn..haish. so sad..sana i'll do good..pray for me. LOL. well ngayon bagong gising lang ako..may clase ako kaninang umaga for NSTP. sort of community service ung subject na yan.buti nlng hindi nnmn nila inurong yung sched. tsk2x. last saturday nga pla i had bonding with my new..new..new..classmates. kasi pumunta kami so early sa school assuming sensei will be there early too., then we waited for like 1 hour bago nila sinabi sa amin na moved daw ang sched sa wednesday afternoon., so wednesday afternoon ndi na ako half day*cries*..so yun., we have decided na mag malling nlng..with my classmates..wahahah! super duper saya..that time, i wanna get rid of someone ..i mean we had another fight and i dont want to take it that much, the same reason kasi so napapagod na ako kakaunderstand. kaya i tried not to care., and enjoy the bonding pero deep inside ,im really wondering where he is na kasi wla kaming communication since thursday, i mean i was trying to reach him pero he keeps on rejecting me thats why i stopped friday pa..so yun..i enjoyed the moment..laughing and trying to forget everything and everyone was really there to make me feel okay..thanks to my classmates. ahm first thing nmn ginawa is.. naglakad lakad..then we decided to eat sa port cafe pagkatpos bumili kami ng ticket pra sa GET SMART na movie., pero hindi kami pumasok agad kasi ng KTV pa kami! wheee~., madami kami and super super fun! then after pumasok na kami lahat..then we watched movie. . after that lakad lakad ulit then we decided to part ways na., i was with mommy(mammy is our classmate pero we call her mommy kasi may bibi na xa)..pra bumili ng psychology book pti humanities.. so yun..ater namin bumili ng books, bianca( an old friend since prep) , tumawag xa sakin and asked kung pwede kami magkita. and since..ayokjo pa umuwi ng bahay so yun..we had kofi and lakad lakad..unitl latar mga 9:oo pm na, sabi niya gimik daw kmi. gumimik kami then forget to death lht ng probs. then mga 11 ., nakiinsert ako ng sim sa cellphone ni bianca since lowbat ako..then nabasa ko..na hinintay pla ako ni prince sa labas ng bahay ..pero wala ako sa bahay so pumunta xa sa mcdo..he waited for me din..pra makipag ayos..hindi ko kasi alam..kasi empty.. good thing naayos naman nmn the next day..well..yun lang..slowly din close na ako sa mga new friends koh.hehe! kapoi na pindot. cge buhbye!

COLLEGE IS IN!!!!!

2008-06-15T12:58:00.002+08:00

wooooaah.!!! first week tapos na!..ahm kaloka to the highest level. nihonggo makes me sick *cries*. but i think i'll enjoy the kind of environment the school has. i mean., its so different right now coz i've never seen myself being so interested in my studies.. i mean , the interest , excitement and willingness is really there. and im so so happy about it. its really hard., and our sensei says JAPANESE is the one of the most difficult language to learn but yah.., if you'll learn to embrace it, everything would just be fine. well, i hope so.

FIRST DAY
well first day was really a nightmare., i dont know where to go. i dont know anyone. LOL. i was really afraid. i thought ok lang kasi nasanay na akong nag-iisa. pero habang naglalakad ako., nanlalamig ang kamay koh. and i honestly didnt want to go inside. pero no choice. i asked the guard san pupunta ang mga freshmen., and he said sa 4th floor. LOL. so pumunta ako dun. and i saw 2 girls. at first i was so shy to approach them. pero after a while i gathered the guts to talk to them. first girl, her name is LYCA..then blah blah balh..then sa isa n nmn., her name is KASHMIR and i learned pinsan xa ni prince. so from that day on...kami na tatlo ang ngbonding. hahaha^^ super fun. super duper close na kami sa first day. then when it was time na for the JAPANESE class., pumasok na ang teacher nmn ., and the moment he entered the room, nagsimula na ang aking kalbaryo!..hahaha! his name is HASEGAWA ARIHIKO, and., and., he's sooooooooooo cute. its just that pinapanosebleed niya tlga ako. LOL. he's smart..nkatravel na xa sa 80 countries., he knows how to speak English well as well as spanish. ahm..he's cute and very funny. hahaha^^ . and dami kong classmate who are very good with japanese na., and i felt i was so stupid kasi wla akong alam. . may mga moment na bigla nlng clang tatawa ng di ko alam bakit kaya nmn i laugh nlng din.hahaha! para akong foreigner sa sarili kong bansa. hahaha. then., nglunch kami., kasama ko si QUINIA(younger sis ni prince)., LYCA., and KAshmir. until natapos and araw ng masaya. i mean., i was happy to have my new friends. and i didnt regret na i have decided na mgkaroon ng sariling life. away from the old people i used to know. away sa maxadong magulo na place. away sa lahat ng bagay na gusto kong iwasan. for years., i wanna have a kind of life na gusto koh tlga., i know feww people wont understand my decision kung bakit i enrolled in that college., kung bakit hindi ako nkisabay sa iba., kung bakit ganito . .. but this is what i want and i dont want to limit myself coz i know theres really a better place for me.. its like starting all over again. exploring a new world. ., but i dont mean i want to forget everyone in the past., what ii mean is that there are those people in my highschool life who made me feel less important., who made me feel alone and who made me feel i dont belong. i just want to go away from them.. and its better to let go of those people coz it makes me who i am. and now that i have my new friends., i love the way people treat me in my school., i just love the environment. and i do hope that even if there will be changes from time to time., i can adjust well. and even if japanese is really hard., i want to learn. hahaha! thats why i mastered 30+ characters in one day. hahaha. not that good but its enough. and sensei is a good teacher nmn. i know he could help me. hahaha^^ so thats it., i cant really make all of them understand WHY. but it doesnt really matter. i just know that its better to have a course that i really like than getting a college degree that can give me an extension to my name(e.g Dr. CPA, PHd., Atty..blah blah blah)..hahaha. im satisfied with what i can do. i set my own dreams and i know someday i will make it happen.

enough for that. hahahah!!

ACQUAINTANCE PARTY

well., all freshies should waer kiddie outfits. ahm its the tradition of the college department to welcome all freshies. ., party starts at 6:00 pm. wooooohhhhoo. party talaga kasi gabi. hahaha. and., and., assembly ng lahat ng students. and as in to the highest level., ngayon ko lang nakita lahat ng GWAPO. literally., "lingi dinhi, lingi didto., GWAPO tanan." LOL. as in naloka ako., kasi ang dami pala nila. wahahaha. and as in overwhelming ung welcome nila kassi pinatayo nila kaming lahat then binuhusan ng harina. LOL. unforgettable tlga. LOL. super duper shockng. then games! games!games!..hinila ako ng isang sophomore pra sumali sa trip to jerusalem., pero its a little different kasi mga higher years n boys ang kelangan nmn upo.an. hahaha! and pinili nila ung mga best faces na boys sa higher years. i enjoyed the game , ikaw ba naman umupo sa mga gwapo. wahahaha...joke!LOL. then another is bring me. , sanitary napkin ung pinadala. hahaha^^ kaya un. it just so happened na i have one. LOL. nga pla the HOST was ssssoooooo handsome. kaya nga ngparticipate ako. LOL.
the really enjoyed the night. tapos sabay kaming umuwi ni KAshmir. and..and..yun.. i started to gather new friends. there are also few people na hindi ko feel kasi maxadong papansin pero ok lang.they dont matter anywei.thats how the story ends.hahaha.

first week was really fun. i enjoyed everything,. and second week nnmn. i hope everything will be fine . till here!

xoxo =.=.=.= F.METEORA.^^

life.♥life♥life♥

2008-06-04T18:59:00.003+08:00

whhhee.^^ dahly is back. looks like 2 friends are flooding my chatbox. LOL.arguing on sumthing i can barely undertand. *cries*. eprel and shigyo..tsk.tsk.tsk. ^^ kung naa man angel na nahulog sa langit ako na to. dili si eprel. dili si shigyo. A.K.O *evil laughs* anywei, feelz like im taking bloggie for granted already *cries* . im so lazy na kasi..pero im here again. well i'll stop going to work starting tomorrow. wahahah^^ i wont see EVALICIOUS. she makes me really sick. dont like the way she treats other people..the way she behaves and the way she talks. LOL. she's my officemate who happens to be the sister of my uncle's wife.*confusing eh??* ..ahm, she's nice to me sumtimes, but most of the time she makes me angry. LOL. high blood kasi ako.but im so lovely that i keep my temper on its right level. hahaha^^ i should behave well instead of showing my kamalditahan.*evil laughs*..

then school starts on tuesday..tat would be next week . wwhhhee~ im soooo excited. totally new people..new environment. well , i do hope first week wont be a nightmare. wish me luck!*winks*. and then..hmm.. what else.. oh yah!..i cant go online for a while , kxe may huling hirit kami sa summer( me with my family). LOL. last wik of summer na kaya sulitin. hahaha^^

im also planning to change my layouts. its kinda boring already. i rily hope i'll have time to play with my PS agen.

back is aching. i have to go! bye!^^

break up.

2008-05-26T10:04:00.002+08:00

haish,.,. magstop na ako sa summer job this june 5. hahaha^^ then i'll concentrate with myself na. dami ko na kasing nakakalimutan gawin dhl sa lintek na work an yan..waahahah:) joke!. i mean wla na akong time for stuff like this..coz its like going home from school..uber tired tlga.. hndi nmn sa heavy ang work pero the fact that i wake up early..tapos kelangan ko pa ng mas mahabang tulog so binabawi koh tulog koh when im home. .and then sistah is here..so i cant stay up late coz her shced to use the pc start at 9:00 pm. thats why..

uhm ~~LOVELYF~~

i broke up with prince last may 21. we were not seeing each other for so long..and no proper communication..and we always fyt since the last day we had a date. that was may 8 i think.. he's busy and im busy too. and im sick of all the misunderstandings. i mean i wanna have time for myself..set priorities..and i wanna be the best in every single thing i do. later..you'll just realize that life isnt all about LOVE..happiness..fantasy. its merely about REALITY. there have been a lot of failure..i wanna be myself again..i wanna have myself again. i admit the first day..i really cried. im not stupid and most of all im not numb. weve been together for almost 8 months..and..and..we had a lot of happy memories together..and it hurts to see that everything ended that way. i mean no proper closure.

but as what they say..pain erases all those memories..so yah i cried the first night...and i super assumed that i'll be crying for several days..several months. the next day..i woke up..im still not used to everything..but i tried to enjoy myself..hell, no matter how i try i cant have that guy forever..so i made myself super busy..and my work helped me forget..so as with bruce..he was the only one who knows everything..not even my girl friends here..they know that i broke up with prince but none of them knows everything..i just thought that i need an advise from a boy. hahaha:)...then the next day..the same..after work i spendt time with bruce..no tears..i just lay down on my bed..then sleep. then wake up.. and then for 3 days ..i started to move on..i continued my daily routines without him..wihtout prince..and it wasnt that bad..exceptt for the fact that no one's saying i love you na..and no one does things he usually do. i miss him so much..but i know ive got to move on.. then with everyone i see..it wasnt that hard to let go. on the 4th day..he called me up se7en times. i wasnt able to answer it..i was curious why he called me after several days of rejection..so i asked him why... he didnt reply..so i just thought he had accidentally pressed the key..but hell that was se7en times..but i tried not to care..whats not good about the break up was we did not have proper closure. then when i got home..he called me up again..its too unusual to hear his voice again..and everything was fast..we talked for 6 minuted i think..we apologized..and everything..then i realized why not give it another try..i mean he was so special ..my friends know that..he's a good person..and i was so unfair ..coz i was too selfish to think of myself only..i was so selfish that i didnt care about him..he has a lot of problems right now..and and mga problema niya..masyadong mahirap..and dami dn niyang responsibilities..being the kuya of his family..after he explained..alam ko emotionally hndi na niya kaya..if he could give up ryt now..ginawa na niya..pero he also have his family..and i know how responsible he is..and he loves his family..and even if he's so tired doing this and doing that..he was trying his best to communicate with me..yun nga lang ang hindi ko nakita lahat ng effort niya..thinking that he doesnt have time for me already..it was so hard for him kasi and dami niyang gnagawa tapos ako reklamo ng reklamo..gumagawa ng away..un hindi ko naiintindihan na hindi lang pla ako ang nag-iisang tao sa buhay niya..it was still m fault after all.and i honestly regret everything ive done.. so ashamed of what ive done..haish. selfish talaga..pero un nga i didnt know that that was the situation already..kasi wala siyang sinasabi..his personality kasi..he wants to keep his problems as a secret..he wants to bear it alone ..he doesnt like the people around him will feel sad bcoz he got a lot of problems..thats why he preferred not to tell me what he was going through..too BAD. i realized y mistakes..and i feel sorry. then we both need anther chance..thats why we gave it another try..with everythng that had happened..we have come to know each other..deeper. so that was it..:) we're together again. i hope..i really hope this time it will be better. he means a lot..^^ Foerever After Infinity. aja!!much love!**]]

and now..now..i really miss shigyo..coz he's the one who always make me realize my mistakes..hahaha^^ coz even if i say this..i say that..im so angry to one person..even if im really unstoppable..if he knows its my fault he always tell it to me..gaya nung bumalik xa ng davao na inaaway ko si khey..akala ko pababayaan lang ako magaway kami ni khey..pero super GG. sinabi tlga na kasalanan koh. hahaha!..and he knows how to explain this and that technically. too bad wla xa para may mag enlighten sa akin.hahaha! shigyo kailangan koh ng enlightenments. wahahahah!! i miss you!!

wahahha!!^^

shigyo!~!!eprel..!!huhuhuh!!.. thank you for wasting time reading my bloggie..hahaha!:) i miss the two of you!!

and ngaun i feel better..

till here~~

comeback!

2008-05-20T19:04:00.002+08:00
IM BACK!!!!!

wahahha!!! * cheers*...!!! hahaha. mgcelebrate na tau mga kaibigan. (_ ah! OA!) well..obviously internet connection was disconnected for a while, i mean for a very long time. LOL. SMART is so harsh..LOL. anyweiiiiiiiiiiii... my comeback is not that good. coz i have a lot of problems..too many problems..i can hardly bear it. however i believe in fate..i'll be happy someday..somewhere..somehow..(pasenxahi.)still cant make decisions for myself..and i hate myself for being so GG. i dunno why i had to do this and that..it makes me sick..it makes me sad. really sad. i miss my friends.. LOL. pocky and eprel so sorry..huhuhhu..i miss you so much. i wish i could spend more time on net.., too bad i have to attend to my responsibilities first..i hope i can chat with you soon. LOL. infairness ha nosebleed. mga bisaya man mo ba..kamo pagamping mo ha..bantay lang mo. chat ta sa sunod. well i only have limited time ryt now so i cant have a very long entry..unnie will use this. haish. bye everyone!

updates for summer

2008-04-13T13:42:00.003+08:00
LOL. its been a while..and two peepz are demanding na.LOL. pocky and eprel!!wahahah! HUGS*.. well..i checheck ko lng nmn sana ang bloggie koh kxe tamad ako magtype ng entry kung pwede irecord nlng cguro boses koh para hindina kelangan magtype. well upadtes*updates* updates. hahaha! stressed since summer started. so busy taking exams and having interviews sa ibat ibang colleges.LOL. 'til now wala pa kasi akong final decision on what course and san na school. so far...uhm..

if i'll go to:

ADDU-->accountancy
MKD( mindanao kokusai daigako)(not sure sa spelling*--> international studies
USEP--> engineering
SPC--> nursing

sabi nila dpt daw hindi puro mind lng ..dpt may heart daw ..so choose wisely. i dont want to end up shifting..and wasting money. its good to have a lot of options pra ndi maging limited. well., so far, least na gusto koh is nursing. my father wants me to take up nursing..too bad i definitely know that i can kill a patient someday. *pokes*LOL.my patience is not enough to be a nurse. so nursing is a big big X!..LOL. at..nagiiluxon daw akong maging engineer eh maxadong hate koh ang math. and honestly nakakahiya man aminin, isa akong malaking boba pagdating sa math. LOL. exam sa USEP was a disaster.daming peepz and walang proper ventilation!*cries*. so another X. then for ateneo..uhm , my tito and my aunt who owns the company im working right now wants me to take accountancy. maybe for their business..well i think , matatanggap koh ang accountancy kaya lng..ate RC is a accountancy graduate dba..and she's reviewing for her board exams..and every time pumupunta ako sa bahay nila..LOL. nakalatag and super super daming makakapal na books. my GOD. prang natturn off dina ko minsan. but accountancy can be accepted as of now..
so far ang pinaka gusto ko ngaun..is international studies sa MKD. kasi nandun ang heart mind and soul?(lol ano un dbsk?)..pero oo..studying others' culture..and talking to different people with different language..LOL. nandoon ang heart koh..and writing stuffs. ewan..but atleast i know what i want. nag exam na ako last monday sa MKD, and infairness nmn sa USEP mas mahirap ung exam nila sa ATENeo kxe MKD had the same test items as in totally the same sa ateneo. well. pero my heartie- heart is on international studies. though everyone tells me to take up accountancy in Ateneo. i cant be myself in that place honestly. and i dont want to be in the same school with prince..i wanna move freely kc without worrying that sum1 would get angry..no worries dn coz maryzelle will study ata in ateneo ..so she would take a watch to paye.wahahah! *evil me*.LOL. proper management of time kxe dpt..now i realized i could have done better in highschool if only i payed enough attention. *sssshhhh** pero of course from time to time, we have to see each other but choosing priorities would be a great factor for success.LOL.wanna concentrate first in my studies. gotta get serious this time.so much for college..so summer job na.

well office is a little bit creepy as days pass. ngayon ko lang na-prove that third elements of life do exist. so creepy pero sanayan lang..i wont stop working just becoz of them..its crazy. uhm., at first i did not know what to do..but tita explained my work..and im trying my best. work isn't that heavy, i'll just check deliveries ..and answer the phone. we have enough time to rest in the office and our snacks is Mcdonalds!! for free. LOL. one thing i love about my summer job is that im working having fries on the table! wheee*claps*.

uhm., what else??? LOL. past few days is bad. prince isnt here in davao. he left me for a vacation.LOLz. but i understand..i can leave the house and go sumwhere else without asking permixon. LOL. still happy but badly missing him. but life goes on..anyweii he'll be back after a week.

lastly., lector career started kanina lang..well., there were mistakes..but m ate's said gnayn tlga ang first time. with the grace from God, i now i can do better nxt time. well next reading would be on may 3., anticipated mass. i hope i can relly do good this time.

thats all for now.! wheee!--..

*hugs to pocky and eprel..i miss the two of you so so much.*

bye! btw, help my decide! please.please.please.

@f.meteora.

GRADUATion-farewell:(

2008-03-30T11:55:00.002+08:00
well., im finally closing this chapter of my life to start a new beginning..as what everyone says..high school is the best..i guess we'll never know unless we finish the tertiary level..i had a lot of good memories in high school..i gained friends..i gained great memories to remember..and most of all i gained confidence..i learned a lot from 4 happy years that ive been in my school. LOL. during our graduation..i was a little bit shocked coz i wasnt able to cry..even though most of them were crying na..ahahah!:)..well anyway..after graduation pumunta ako sa recognition of my younger sisters..then after i went to madhel's house with prince..then after that balik sa bahay pra magbihis for a while..and btw, ang lakas ng ulan..LOL. then after which, pupunta na sana kami chico's bar for prince's graduation party..but his friends,m nagdemand na magpapasundo sila kay prince..kaya nmn iniwan ako ni prince..so i stayed muna sa southmall with madhel..then we waited for chen mariel tiffany and bengel..then after that..uhm..hinanap na nmn ang chico's bar..when we got there ngstart na ang party..at first i didnt really enjoy it coz i was a little bit angry to him for leaving me..but when i saw iya..hahaha. she was so cute..LOL. then kumain na kami..tapos uminom ng beer..este iced tea..hahaha. ice tea lng po. then after pinakilala ako ni prince sa mga tita niya..then may binulong xa sa akin.." sabi ng mami koh may kasalanan ka daw kasi hindi ka ngbless sa kanya pgdating mo".lol nashock ako..so un..i went up to her and ngbless. she's so nice:)..then at around 12:00 am, ngshow down si lontok pti mariel..hahaha!..super nkakatawa pti entertaining..pti parents ni prince tawa to the max sa kanilang dalawa..and then we just enjoyed the night..uhm at around 2:00 am uwi na kmi..isa isa kami hinatid at may isang lintek na tao na akala m kung cno kasi gusto niya ihatid una ang mga taga-sasa .haish. however she wasnt successful; kc inuna parin ang gusto niya maging huli. hahaha:)..anyway..napagod ako that night LOL/
. buti nlng kasama ko si mahel pauwi at hindi ako pinagalitan..hahaha:)thanks to madhel.

th next day is farewell..honestly i didnt want to go kasi pagod ako..ayokong umalis muna ng bahay kc super badxot ako kc umuwi ako malapait na 3:00. pero pinilit nila ako..so un..hahaii. wala akong choice..kaya un..at first i enjoyed but in the end everything went wrong so i decided to go home and rest. ..so it ended frustrating me much. thats all. wanna rest now. till here! bye!

kulitan moments sa classroom.

2008-03-21T19:18:00.001+08:00
kulitan moments nmn sa classroom. hahahaa. wawa mxdo xa sa akin buh. wahahaha:) xare koh lng..!!

a new beginning <3

2008-03-21T17:54:00.002+08:00
this is the first time i got out of bed since the incident yesterday..:(..i never had sleep until the rising sun..(lol. dong bang?).. i honestly wasnt able to get sleep coz i was crying the whole night..feeling so stupid. i waited for just one simple text of "gudnight" and i waited for nothing. .at around 3:oo am in the morning..i had a group message for the few people i know..and i was shocked that tiffany was still awake that time..LOL. everyone new about the incident and everyone asked me why but i never shared the story. i wasnt that strong to tell everyone the failure of the relationship.. and it still aches so much., thats why i just remained silent. and its better that way...then at 3:00 am..i was able to share it to tiffany since she's the one closest to my heart. and while telling her everything..i was also crying. feeling so stupid.the pain really hurts..i wasnt prepared ..and everything went so fast. the decision itself wasnt also decided properly..of course i had my own reasons to give up. i hate seeing him getting hurt with this stupid attitude. and i just thought that it was the best thing to do.confused and very skeptical i made the most difficult decision in my life. and thats to let go of the one person i love so much..*cries*

as what i said..i waited until the rising sun. lol. but i wasnt realy waiting that time..i just cant sleep no matter how i try to do so.. then at around 6:00 am. i made up my mind that everything is over already. and its really time to let go. ive been crying to hard since last night and i pity myself for doing that..my eye soars already..and my head aches already..everything was just painful. then at around 6:45 am. my phone rang..hearing that familiar ring tone who used to wake me up in the middle of the night hearing a happy voice who called up just to say i love you and he misses me. .but this morning..its different..i wasn't sure if i will answer it..i didnt have even a single idea what was his reason. but there's no time to waste chances..so i answered th call. and i heard his voice crying..:(:(..that he cant even talk properly..:( i didnt exactly know what to do..i just cried..then he said he wants me back..and he cant do it.. i wasnt expecting that he would do such thing. i thought i was the only one crying.i was the only one who was hurt..and i cant waste time..i know i love him so much..an d its too early to give up. its just a small thing..and i really dont have enough reason not to accept him again.. sincerity and love were the basis. i want him back so bck. and still cant imagine myself without him by my side..LOL. its sad being alone..

well lessons learned. im not supposed to share this here, i know few people wont understand. and its kinda exaggerated for most love cases.but whatever it is. im happy again and its all because of one person. well thngs might go wrong. LOL. thanks to the peepz who were really there for me. lol and thanks to him .:) till here! *hugs*

goodbye fai

2008-03-21T00:04:00.002+08:00
well., im here again.sad.:( really sad. i hoped for forever. i wished for infinity..but can have that anymore. well i guess this is how things should work now.its so hard to let go of that person..but its the best thing to do now..i had happy memories.great..great memories..:)i wont forgot such a wonderful perosn..until now im thankful for everything. i'll be strong for myself..i have to fix myself now.. i'll let go for everbodys sake. guess my father would be very happy ..and i'll be glad for that. if his happiness means letting go of my own happiness., then i'll do it. he knows best. to prince., thank you fai..thank you for making me realize a lot of thngs..thank you for everything..than you for the love..and thank you for your family who let me felt the acceptance. . that my family cant give you.i know you wont be reading this one...i just hope that you'll be happy sumday..sumwhere..and be the best that you can be,:)..te princess..thank you for the advice and the bondings so as with quinia..i'll not forget you. lol. its like saying goodbye to everyone. i'll be going through same process again..it takes time. but be it..i'll be fine soon.:D i love that guy so much and its not easy.. but i just hope..i really hope that i'll be fine. till here.

SLAPHIES DAY!

2008-03-19T22:21:00.002+08:00
LOL. super overwhelming na..happy na..amazing..na memorable..na nakakaloka..na ewan. lol. today march 19 '08 half day ang practices sa gradutaion*cheers*..LOL. so we decided to celebrate my bday!!!!and of course...HONOR lahat ng SLAPHIES!!!!!!! wahahah! naloka ako..as in..uber proud ..

so first!!

naglakad ng super duper init galing high school bulding papaunta ng kanto!!! tapos 70% sa amin..bumalik sa classroom pra kumuha ng tela na gagamitin nmn sa pincnic!..LOL.
mainit..tapos lkulitan..tawanan..lol i missed the gang.:)

after that...uhmm...punta ng gmol . tapos ang aarte ng girls kc ayaw sumakay kc daw masiikip. e hello super init na..so un..punta kami gmol. then pagpunta nmn GMOL..diretcho kami sa grocery to buy food pra sa picnic!!..then nikata nmn si prince kasama si quinia..actually alam ko andun cla pero tago2x effect.LOL. so un pumasok na kami..then start pili2x ng food. hahaha! kakatawa..kc wala lng..then prince asked me kung pwede ba daw ako lumabasa sa grocery..(we were txtng that time)...so un lumabas muna ako sama si kate..then un he gave us 2 boxes of dounts. LOL. super sweet. *hugs*..then balik sa gorcery..natagaln kc ang bagal nila pumili..;and cge lng cla tawa. lol. then mataas ang line..pti ambagal ang cashier..mga 2:30 na kmi nkaalis. so halos 2 hours kmi sa grocery palang..mga loka2x tlga. mga GG!

then nglakad papauntang acacia.under the init.hahaha!..tapos sumakay ng jeep papuntang bangkal..nkarating sa matina. then sumaky ng tricycle..

at habang nasa daan kmi..hndi makaakyat ang tricycle..dhl mabgat ang mukha ni kate..este..baboi si azzedine..tama ang hinala nmn..mabigat ang mukha ni kate..kya pinalipat xa ni manong sa harap pra ang force ng kanyang muka mahila kai pataas. lol nakakaloka..nakakatawa..ewan. LOL..after a very long bumpy ride..nkarating kmi sa shrine. akala nmn 5 pesos lng ang bayad..un pla 6 pesos na..kaya halos umiyak si manong sa kakasingil ng piso -piso bawat isa.grabe tumaas ang gasolina, pti si manong tumaas ang pressure. lol . habang papasok kami..bumuhos ang ulan..lol. at first poise pa lahat ng girls habang nglalakd under the rain..pero napancin nmn na mxdo ng malakas..kya ngtakbuhan na kmi papasok. haish.mga gaga tlga...then..i forgot..si madhel at khey..susunod ln pla..kc my ga lakad pa ang mga GG. tapos nauna na kmi ng kain..usap2x ..tawa2x..picture2x..lol.

then mga after 1 hour..dumating ang 2..super duper late..kya inway nmn konti..pero all the while..ako ang inaaway nila ..ewan kung bkt.insecure sa aking bangs na ginupitan ng multong bakla. LOL. tinatawanan nila ang aking mahiwagang bangs.haish,mga insecure sa aking pinakatago tagong bangs..eh may sariling bangs nmn sila.LOL. ano nga bng problem sa bangs koh*stares at junric*...well hindi lng nmn xa pantay pagkgupit..pati ang pangit ng bangs koh kaya insecure silang lhat.hahaha!*peace girls*

then after..nglaor kami ng.. MCDO2x..na..uhm.."tagaanay",,naa "anak -anakay"..lol. hindi kc mainitndhan na laro.lol . takbo lng kmi ng takbo na super nakapgod sa amin. kaya nmn malapit sumuka ang mataba na si azzedine. lol. pagkatpos ng pictorial ulit..

hahaha..then after napagod..bmalik sa tent at ngrest..then inaayos ang mga dirty na sarili..lol. mga puno na ng pawis..ng ngdecide na ki na umuwi..bumuhos ang supr lakas na ulan..at sabi pa ni hannah" murag dili nmn ni muundang"..so we decided na..gamitin ang cloth na dinala nmn as umbrella..whhooo..mga tanga tlga..may cloth buh na pwedeng gawing umbrella..sayang mga honors pnmn.lol. kaya in the end..basa prn kaming lahat..at iniwan sa daan ang cloth..pero nakonsenxa sila..kaya kinuha nila ulit at nlagay sa cellophane..at pinadala kay kheziah!!!! wahahaha!, pagkatpos tumakbo at nglaro sa ulan..hahai. mga gg tlga.tapos pumunta sa church at ngsimba sandali..at ngusap..na halos mgiyakan..LOL.

pagkatpos..ngstart mglakad galing shrine papauntang kanto. hahaish. mga GG. pwede nmn sanang sumakay..bkt tlga gusto mglakad?..hahaha!

hahaish. then after nun..bye~

LOL.super tagal na since nkasama ko sila. kht mga gg tlga sila..super ngenjoy ako today..still happy coz evry bday koh...everyone tries to be present tlga*(aaahhmmm..bryang junric!!!aaahhmm!!)..LOLim just happy coz the school year is about to end na ..and despite of the ehavy sched..we were still able to have the time with each other tlga. ntouch lng ako..ewan ko.uber happy to see those faces again..i mean ngkikita nmn kmi araw2x sa school pero iba c tlga ung nakaksama mo sila..pti nkakausap mo..well..i just so lucky to still have them.i admit na madami na nga akong kasalanan sa kanila..pero incomparable ung acceptance na nararamdaman ko everytime kasama ko mga taong un..thank you slaphies.. thank you sa memories..thank you sa luaghters and tears..thank you sa lahat..thank you kc despite sa lahat..i can stil feel the essence of friendship..thank you coz i have people like you by my side..congratulation to sheila for being the valedictorian..so proud of you. lol. i hope magakasama kmi kumpleto sumday..:)

hahaha! i'll post pic tomorrow. lol. im super sleepy now..hahaha!

thank you!!..it was a great day!!

love you slaphies.

March 17, 2008 happy bday!

2008-03-19T20:59:00.003+08:00
OMG. march 17, 2008. my 17th birthday. i was planning to spend it alone. LOL. i miss loner days..as in..sa totoo lang..but then..i still want to spend in a way na hindi ko tlga makakalimutan. . .so i think it will be too late to gather all the girls ..so ive decided to spend it with PRINCE, since its a long time since we spent time with each other...since bad xot nga ako dhl matagal nkauwi sa bday ni iya..so sabi ng papa ko..go home daw at 4:00 pm..pro i asked if i can go home at 5:oo..then he agreed. well ok nnmn kht konti lng ang time. so i left the house mga 2:00 pm

first stop:

ST. JOSEPH church- pumunta ako doon mgisa..lol. muni2x kaunti and spent time with the LORD.thanking him for all the blessings na natanggap koh..pti sorry sa lahat ng mga kasalanan koh. hahahaii:)

then after that ngmit na kmi ni prince..

2nd stop:

MCDO bajada- matagal kmi nkadecide kung san pupunta..kasi wala akong plano..and he wanted me to decide since its my day daw..so i just said.. CROCODILE PARK. lol wanna see crocodile..and touch that big snake again!!

3rd STOP:

CROCODILE park: lol. on our way papasok sa crocodile park..may parang isang spot doon na super super hangin na super open..na mkikita mo clearly ang horizon.and whats different about the place is..prng same place na nkiktia ko sa mga korean novela na napapanood koh..and honestly..i was really hoping since then na makapunta sa isang place..na tahimik..na super duper fresh air..na mkasama ung spexal na tao sa buhay koh..cant deny it nmn..kht nmn cguro hindi na ako mxdong addict sa mga asian series..masarap prn sa feeling mkapunta ka sa mga places na ganun..as in PEACE,SERENITY..TRANQUILITY ..as in 3 best adjectives to describe the place. so yun..we decided na doon nlng muna nmn kainin ung tinake-out na food. then usap2x sa mga changes na nangyari within almost 6 months..as in super bilis lng ng time..prang kelan lang kc loka2x ako sa taong un..then..story2x about sa break up..super daming npagusapan ..pti na open up..i enjoyed talking with him that time..then on the later part..ngmusic trip kmi..then ngplay ung.."ONE LOVE" ..OST in SPRING WALTZ dto sa pinas...and suber ganda ng song..LOL. di ko alam anong nangyari..hahaha. nafeel ko lng ang moment..so umiyak ako. ..overwhelmed na ewan..im just so happy to be with that person..honestly..he knows when to be serious and when to be funny..lol .

then there was one time na he said he will just let go of me kung may gusto na manakit s akin dahl sa knya. then..if one day,. mgaway kai na super duper severe..he will wait for me ..the same spot na pinuntahan pumunta man daw ako or hindi. char. kilig moments.lol i dunno..

then afer a while..umulan!!!LOL. super lakas ng ulan..and open ung place na un..so we decided to play under the rain!!whhhhheee~`..may halong korean ang drama..LOL. playing under the rain. hahaha!

4th stop:KARL's COFFEE SHOP(buhangin)

then after...we had coffee kc super lamig.LOL. he said maganda ang coffee shop na un kung gabi na hindi umuulan kc maganda ang lights...

then after..

5th stop.

damosa

punta kmai ng damosa..gusto niya ako pakainin ng palabok na may PORK!..kc daw bday..lol. so un..buti nlng walang palabok..so un..sinabi ko n we will eat RAMEN nlng..kc un masarap pti mainit..kc ulan..tapos nung dumating kami sa FUJI MART, !!!nkta ko ang ramen ..mahal mxdo..90 php.mahal..!!!:(*stares at junric*
so un..sabi ko

punta nlng kami..

6th stop

ASSI MART!!!!

lol .its been a long long time since last balik ko sa assi mart..lol. dong bangs days pa un..kasama ko pa si eprel.lol .super namiss ko ung place na un. and thats day i wanna bring back the days of being 16. lol so pumunta kami doon to eat RAMEUN. lol korean noodles..na super duper anghang..hahaha! i thought prince wont like it..pero love niya pla mga ganun na noodles kc kumakain din si quinia(younger sis)
ng ganun..LOL. and then nung dumating kmi doon., i thought wla na ung ate cashier na friend nmn ni eprel noon since doon tambayan nmn dalawa before..pero andun pla xa..sabi niya pa super tagal ko daw nawala..lol ..im glad naalala niya pa ko..then pinakilala ko si prince sa kanya..tapos kain kmi nung maanghang na noodles..tapos tapos..habng tumitingin..LOL!!!! nkta ko..

STEEL na chopstix..na super duper noon ko pa hinahanp sa buong davao..pti korean spoon na mataas. LOL. alam ko mababaw pero wla lang..bring back the old days na adik pa ako sa bansang korea. LOL. pero ng tinignan ko ang price..its 200 php. LOL. wla na akong budget pra doon...pti maxadong mahal pra sa chopstix lng.hahaha:)..

pero prince said he will buy it for me daw..as his BDAY gift. LOL. i consider it the one best gift ever,hahaha:D..

wala..happy lng ako kc sa tagal tagal ng time na hinahanp ko un sa maliit na city na ito ngaun ko lng nahanap..na kumpleto ang korean day koh. LOL
..

then after..

uwi. mga 6;30 na ako nkauwi.LOL. GG. good thing hindi na ako pinagalitan.LOL

uhm

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!

LOL.

i wanna thank pla all the peepz na nging part ng buhay ko nung 16 pa ako.

LOL.

first parents.sisters.family. = reasons kung bkt ako nabubuhay sa mundong ito.

my friends na palaging nanjan..lahat ng friends koh. ung mga totoo., pti hindi..bsta friends ko kau lahat..hindi ako kumpleto without peepz like you..

my section st.lorenzo..i'll miss you guys!!! wildcats forever..we're all in this together!!!!*cheers*..i super duper love you.you made me realize a lot of things.

DONG BANG. lol.super miss you..when i was 16..laki din ang impact niyo sa buhay koh.

at ang latest..

PRINCE=thank you sa pgaccept..pti pagunderstand,at sa laht.
:)

i'll be in college soon. memories will always remain. i hope this year it will be better and all the peepz wil stay with me. LOL. i lvoe u..thank you..:)

without you..i wont be here*teary eyes*

xiexie.

uhm..i think i should end this entry. lol

thank you.

happy bday iya!

2008-03-18T13:58:00.005+08:00
LOL. whatta day. nangyari ito march 16. friday
lol.super duper nalingaw ako this day. kc bday ng pinakamamahal na sis ni PRINCE na si IYA!..LOL. super cute un na bta..as in. here is she..

cute noh?!

wel anyweii umalis ako ng bahay around 1 ata un..hehehe. at super duper nightmare kc nagpagupit ako ng hair..its shorter now..LOL. super short. actually, ok nmn ung buhok..pero ang bangs ko tinorture ng multong bakla!!*cries* kainis tlga..n ayaw ko mgatake ng isang picture man lng..and i always pin my bangs. super duper hate it. LOL so much for that. tapos nun..punta na kami GMOL..stroll2x ..killing the time coz the party will start at 7:00 pa. so un..kain..then punta ng EM's inom ng mango shake. ngaway pa nga kmi ni prince slyt lng..muntik na ako hindi sumama pero ok nnmn.. and then..mga 6:30..we fetched lontok sa bahay nila.then after..*bbbbbbooooommm* nkadating na kmi..hahaha:D cute ni iya kc nkagown na nka boots.LOL..hehehe. tapos un..kain na kami..and everything..usap2x..tapos sa room lng kami ni prince ngstay.ooppss..i forgot to mention cno mga kasama ko..

uhm..chen.mariel.tif.diaz.sheenan.anding.kevin.lontok.

so un sa room lang kami kc madaming tao sa labas. then dumating si ate princes..LOL. super duper happy xa..hahaha^^ tapos..unti-unti..madami ngapunta sa room na mga auntie pti relatives..para tignan kung anong mukha ko.LOL. as in..walang jam..then si ate princess lng ngpapakilala sa akin,. LOL. tapos nung paalis kmi..nasa labas na kami..pinakilala dina ko ni ate princess sa father nila. LOL. kakatakot maxdo..but it was fine..he's nice..:)

then after..gimik kmi lahat.. my friends..si prince..ako..si ate princess..quinia and her friends.LOL. at naabutan ako ng 12:30..originally dpt ndi pa ako uuwi ng 12:30 pro txt na ng txt mama ko..su un..umuwi na ako.paguwi ko..pinagalitan ako.wwwhhhee~..naloka ako.super duper galit. pero ngenjoy nmn ako..so it was ok. LOL

pix nga pla!!

here is it!

LOL. thats it!!!

bye!

p.e day.wildcats!

2008-03-08T19:35:00.002+08:00
whhhhee..juz want to post a video of our P.E day presentation..hope you like it!

happy

2008-03-06T22:11:00.003+08:00
LOL. hello everyone..hahaha^_^ after too much grudge..hahaish. wanna say sorry sa lht ng mga nasaktan koh..sa lht ng na offend koh..LOL. im just happy with everything that's happening right now..anyweii.. what team?!!!!!

wildcats!!!

lol. i love our p.e day presentaion.and i love my classmates so much!:0..LOL. i wont say that we're the best..but at least we tried our best..ahahaha:).i enjoyed the performance and i enjoyed my classmates participation..though we really had problems in the preparation., the dance was good. well enough to be appreciated by the crowd.LOL.

thats all., then after that..uhm me and some of my clasm8s ate at penongs!!..hahaha:)..then after i was with prince..ate princes and quinia..hahaha:) thats all!,,,thank you .:D

tille here!

HATRED-and updates

2008-03-03T21:42:00.002+08:00
im here again..and this time im going to be quite harsh to the few people i I DONT LIKE-HATE duh?whtever you call it.. few people i cant understand as of this moment. LOL. school year is almost done..and i just want to clear things up..well doing this would make me better.. i think..its been a while since i've thrown fowl words to my hated peepz as of the moment..well i would just be describing them..and tell the reason why i hate them..then cut it off. its up for them kung may natamaan man.. LOL.

first on the list. LOL. close friend before..i dunno if it still remains up to now..well i understand that you have your own priorities..well when it comes to your priorities i really dont care..but there's sumthing i cant understand ..i dunno why you have to do this to us..LOL . it might be my fault ..but still cant blame myself coz i dont know everything..you've been so busy with your own life right now..and hell..i cant care about you anymore..guess you're happy and you dont need sum1 like me ..well to tell you the truth..its not easy keeping away from you..coz i got used of sumthing we usually do...at first i admit i missed you..but not now coz i think i dont give a damn to get your attention.you know who you are.. just be happy ..i know you're gaining new friends yet you're LOSING your OLD friends..its all up to you..you make your own decision..run your own life..so be it..be happy with your life ..but i really cant say im happy for you coz i hate people na sinasantabi nlng ung mga insignificant people who cares for HIM-her so much for his-her SELF SATISFACTION.matamaan na ang dpt matamaan.

second..i've been hating this girl since 2nd month of the school year,..duh? acting stupid?..whats with your body nga b that i dont have?! at least i have my brain..not like you!..STUPID!..you dont know what to answer every time the teacher asks you a simple and self explanatory question..coz all you know is to face your mirror!.stop talking shit about me..dont be stupid ..you're so plastic..gaining attention of the people yet you're not worth their attention. to hell with you..hate me and i'll hate you too.feed your brain before you talk shit. make sure you can convert an expanded logarithm to simple logarithm before you put powder on your face. im really hating you....acting to be a fighter?acting to be strong? duh? you're nothing without you're friends. FEED your BRAIN and stand on your own.

third.another shit. shits will always be shits. why cant you do your own business and stop interfering my decision?haish. cant blame me coz you're always arguing with me..senseless.pointless arguments. i know you're dumb.. do what you want and stop being plastic to me coz i know everything you're talking about me..ruin your own life..not me life. im happy and you're just insecure. LOL

--*nosebleed*tragalog muna!*

fourth. you.you.you. kaw din sinisira mo ang araw koh..close tau pero hindi tlga feel at times..kc feel mo superior ka always.gusto mo lahat ng gusto mo ang nasusunod..wala kang care anong mafeel ng ibang tao. do not under estimate me coz i know i could be cruel at times..just be nice to me.ok?

fifth.group of people.haish!..STUPID. i hate them coz they are stupid.LOL

6th. well another group of peepz hus trying to prove sumthing..i dunno whats with them nga ba..super duper feelerz..eeww.i hate you..i just do.

7th.ung mga feeling magagaling na super duper OA. sa susunod make sure na makakapasa yang gnagawa niyo a standards ng ibang tao.hindi yung feel niyo lang maganda ung ginagawa niyo un pla hindi na gusto ng tao . at kung mka asta kau prang gano kau ka galing eh hindi nmn.. eh kaht nga PS version 100 gamt niyo walang effect prn kc grabe kau kung mkaboast.haish.

LOL. i still cant figure out why i had to have this entry..well..ive been keeping much much grudge to people na kc. and i wanna be happy with my life..LOL

updates na nga lang---

well..my life is happy..im fine..and we're fine..happy and contented of everything..though a lot of people are judging us..hahaha^^..and school makes me sick because of the requirements. LOL. sorry nga pla sa mga sobra ung nsabi koh..galti lng kc tlga ako..pero lilipas din nmn to..and sooner or later mawawala na kc nalabas ko na..lol . credits to my meteoric fantasy for making me happy again right now. well grades are ok..and i have to choose REAL friends na..hindi ung nangiiwan nlng ng basta2x kc super busy na..kei fine.wala akong pakealam..and..and..there are those who remained and didnt change..and meron din ung ngchange..LOL. change na kau ng change bahala kau..bsta ako happy with my life. lol. ngchat nga pla kmi ni shigyo and im happy he's fine and happy..and so as with eprel..LOL getting chubby..hahaha*peace*..and..and..knina..kasama koh KATE AND TIFFANY..and dalawang taong super duper close sa heart koh ngaun..thank you for being there through my ups and downs..hahaha:)..im wishing for your happiness..and aja! aja!..let make our future brighter!!!hahaha**im happy again.LOL thank GOD. hahaha^^..guess this is enough. thank you! bye!

bonding with prince's sisters

2008-02-21T20:21:00.003+08:00
bloggie~~*hugs*

hello agen..im back..!LOL after a long time..hahaha^^

uhm..nsa bahay ako nila robert..kc nga cra pc koh.!*cries*

anyweii..gusto ko lng i share na..ngbonding kami nila ate princess pti quinia with prince..LOL. at super duper nachange ung impression koh sa knila..we ate and watched movie last saturday..LOL. details sunod pad naays na PC koh.heehehe cge till here!*hugs*

*edit

and LOL. i got my pc fixed!!*claps*,,hahaha^_^ well..i'll story it to na..uhm first..i had my haircut..then supposedly i'll go home immediately na..tpos prince called me up..then he said" uei punta ka dto gmol hintayin ka nmn..bye!"..then he ended th call..LOL. i had no choice but to go...haish. then first we ate together at then after that we watched movie..then after we had our story telling..and everything..LOL. we really really had bonding that day.woooshh!!!->..hahaha.and it changed my first impression to ate princes..well she's really nice..and she's a bit ewmotional coz while she telling me a lovestory..she had her eyes teary..LOL. and as well as quinia..she's also nice..and a bit funny. i enjoyed their company..and it made me fell comfortable. lol.thats it..! too lazy to make it long.till here! bye!

updates

2008-02-04T17:34:00.000+08:00
oh,,,gloomyy monday. well, first bcoz prince was absent today...but uhm..i think i enjoyed the day. we had our PROM practice..and i was with ruzze,chen,khey (table arrangement for prom)...and we were all trying so hard to make our partners laugh and feel comfy with us..coz our teachers were complaining about our attitude towards our partner..thats why we were like stupid senior clowns trying to make these juniors laugh..luckyily it turned out well...they also react,laugh and play with us. Martin, (my partner)..he talks to me na....unlike last week..LOL. anyweii..i dont get enough sleep ..like i can only have 1% of sleep..LOL. i dunno wats happening already..i need sleep!!i wanna sleep!!..but i cant sleep*cries*feels like my freaking insomniac is attacking me again..*CRIES harder*...

well anyweii..last sunday., i had the results for my LECTOR career..and..*cheers**..i got accepted!!!wheee~~..yepp., so starting march i'll be going to St.Joseph Church becoz i'll be one of the HOLY readers.LOL. wanna be close to HIM ..CLOSER than ever. yepp. and we had our meeting last sunday,...starting 6:00 pm to 8:00+..and i didnt eat sumthing after lunch..thats why i was really really hungry!...but whats sumthing sweet is..PRince went to the convenience store to buy food and give them to me..too bad coz when he got there the meeting was over..so i just said..he doesnt have to buy food coz i'll go home nlng..LOL. but i appreciate his effort so much..well, nabaik ang usapan kay prince...well, i think im fine already..the PRINCESS ISSUE doesnt affect me much..i mean..i still wanna continue what i have started..i dont want to be that coward and end up with regrets..like that..i dunno why...but for now..just wanna enjoy my life..and if sumthing goes wrong already..thats the time i will give up..and for now..wanna keep fighting..LOL

anyweii! i have to sleep!!!bye!

meet with prince's eldest sister--princess

2008-01-31T09:35:00.000+08:00
LOL. whatta day!..

yesterday was..jan 30 2008. ..

LOL everyone knows that its was jan 30 2008 and it was Wednesday yesterday.LOL. enuf for that. .yeah..yesterday was really freaking..crazy..stupid..bad day..:(..story goes like this..me and bombshell kate..yes kate..we've been going to the mall for 3 days staight already..wanna thank her for going with me..thank you kate!!!*hugs*..anyweii..and yesterday..we searched for sumthing good to give to prince for the 4th monthsary..and that was it..we searched and searched..and then i was texting with prince then..and he said he is also going to the mall with her sister princess..and he also said that he wants me and her sister to meet. i dunno why..coz i said NO..maybe bcoz i wasnt ready then..im afraid..i dunno why..im just afraid..then that was it..i said..nO..i cant..he pleaded at first and said that her sister wants to meet me..but i still didnt agree..so he juz said OK. its freaky to be in one place at the same time..thats why Kate..and me..we were like crazy peepz that we decided to hide on a magazine shop so that they wont see us..then after a while we decided to eat..coz we were so hungry running and hiding..LOL. thats why we walked and searched for a good food chain..and then..HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!..while we are going down the second floor..we bumped into PRINCE AND HER SISTER!!*cries.**..i dunno what to do that time..coz Kate said..she also doesnt want us to meet with her sister coz she was too afraid to be out of place..and since i was right in the middle of that freaking and uber hard situaxon..so i just said Hi..and i was really laughing hard..coz after all the running and hiding thingie..we eventually bumped into them..LOL. so i said hi..and..and..like that..dialog goes like this:

Kate:Hala!
ME: Sh*t

--walked towards them--

Prince: *laughs*
Princess:*laughs*
Kate and me:--absent minded. mga walang alam.--

and everyone was laughing..(everyone doesnt refer to all the people in the mall..i mean kate,prince,princess and me was laughing)

Prince: aii..ate princess si dahly..
me: hello po*waves*..

LOL. i wasnt sure of how i would act that time..i mean as much as possible i really want to portray a good first impression coz close friends are saying that im not really approachable at first coz i seldom smile.)

Princess: hi!*waves*..

then..blah..blah..blah..prince and princess were talking to each other i just cant remmeber what was it..while me and kate was looking at them like..gaga!..LOL

then princess turned to me:

Princess:Lam mo, nung pinakilala ko ung boyfriend ko sa kanya(kay prince)..prang gusto niya patayin..kya sinabi ko sa kanya pag nameet na kita..dpt ung gusto din kita patayin..

(of course that was a joke..hahahah*..then we all laughed..*..she's nice..i mean she smiles..and everything..i know she's nice..after a while..)

Prince: san pla kau punta?
ME: dito lang...lakad2x..
Princess: uwi na kayo!?
Me:hindi pa po..
Princess: okay..sabay nalang tayo lakad..lakad dto..maghahanap pa din kc kami ng gift

so ako nmn ..kung tatanggihan ko..prng bastos on their part..so i juz said yes..trying to forget everything..i really want to act normal..as much as possible i wanna forget all the fears that she wont like me..like that...then while we were walking..she cracks jokes every now and then..and i was quite relieved that time..i made myself comfy..i mean..i enjoyed being with her..coz she 's approachable every now and then..and she talks to me and stuff.. then ...

uhm..we went to BANANA PEEL STORE..then i just sat down..and kate stayed beside me..and we were talking about rione..and like that..while princess still cracks her joke..and she fights with prince jokingly ..coz she said prince didnt buy a gift during her debut thats why he said prince owe her sumthing..

PRincess: may utang ka sa akin..kc wla kang binigay sakin nung debut ko!
Prince: wala na akong pangmonthsary!..aii tama ikaw man pla ang manlibre sakin dahly noh?

ME: *nods*
Princess: hoy anong klaseng tao ka..DAHL, wag ka magpayag nyan..blah..blah..

BLAH--bLAH...*laughs*

then..then after a while..___----FREAKING PART----

she started talking..:

Princess: lam mo dahl, galit gud mama ko sa papa mo...aii first pla galit siya sayo kasi ikaw ang girlfriend ni paye,.tapos ngaun sa papa mo na siya galit..

kate said while she was saying that she had this serious look..for short she wasnt joking already.

Prince: oi..hindi gud..wag kang maniwala jan
Princess: lage dahl, hindi pla niya na share?
ME:*teary eyes*..

LOL. i was laughing back then,,but honestly it made me so sad..that right in the middle of the situaxon..i didnt have a single idea what to do..i didnt know what to say..and i didnt know how to act. so helpless..i juz pretended that i didnt take it seriously..acting like everyhting was fine. adn honestly..the thought that she was nice to me..vanished becoz o what she said.. and prince also didnt know what to do., yes..he was comforting me..and everything..i tried to pretend that i was fine..i dont want to act stupid..but cant stay long with the both of them..thats why i decided that we will just go on our own..i said goodbye properly..and her sister was like..k fine..but im telling you..i was nice to her till the last moment that i was with them..

then after that..i started to think about maillions of possiblities that what if what she said was true..that she wasnt joking..and she said it on purpose..i mean..ive come back to my senses that i actually realized this was the craziest thing i was involved to..i mean..when it comes to my family..i really dont want them to get involved on things i should carry on my own..i was so stupid that form the start i should have thought that it would cum into this..that i should have used my head back then..i was really stupid..that i regret the day i said yes..i mean..if only..we would use the heart to heart basis..my decision wasnt wrong..coz there;'s no question of how much i love him..there's no question of the infinite love as what we call it..but i cant sacrifice the safety of my family..maybe im just over reacting..but thats not reallt the point here..things could be very very possible..i mean..i didnt wished for a lovestory like this..i wish i could have a middle class boyfriend since i do belong in that society..i duuno what to do..i shouldnt have done this from the start..and now its very difficult..i cant make her mother like..and i cant make my father like him too..my family doesnt like his family and his family doenst like my family too..crazy and stupid as it may seem..and no..i cant think that that line of princess was merely a joke..coz i know she was serious..i needed time to think..thats why i decided to be absent today..i dont want to see prince..i dont want to show him that everything makes me feel like giving up..i mean..for prince alone..there's nothing wrong..he's nice...he's good..he loves me at his best,.he takes care of me..and he's serious..i know he does..but when it comes to family matters..i dunno if i can say its fine..coz 100% its not fine at all..i even didnt text him since yesterday..he called me last night and i didnt talk properly..he asked if there's sumthing wrong..i said nothing was wrong..and i said im just tired...then i kow he knew whats really the matter..and he said..it wasnt true..it was just a joke..and all..but i wasnt relieved. i dont want to hurt him..i still dont want to give up coz i love him so much..i really cant figure out what to do..haish..for God's sake..please tell me what to do..coz everyhting is just so difficult.*cries*

RVM REVIEW

2008-01-31T09:24:00.000+08:00
oh. its been a while..updates..updates.well im doing fine..i guess..??!well not really..things have been going through several changes these days..more and more changes..i hate my eye bags!it makes me sick..! LOL.ive been staying up late recently..busy..so busy in school..at home..and busy fixing my life. its sad..everything makes me feel melancholic(shigyo ikaw ba yan?!)..i guess its been weeks since i posted sumthing here..im lazy doing it coz..coz..i wanna sleep early..but still cant have that enough,needed, and happy sleep. ive been dreaming all these creepy things recently..*cries*..dunno whats happening to me.!!!well, in shcool..we are having our SEVERE!!i call it severe..LOL.its fatal i guess..we are having REVIEW..REVIEW..for the freaking RVM exam..and each subject has 2 hours?! hell..cant be attentive for straight two hours facing the same face..and understanding same subject.its boring,.really boring..but on the brighter side..im happy to see bombshells in my classroom..coz there was smerging of sections..and the two of them was placed in our classroom..the only good thing i can think of when it comes to the review. haish..Reviews make me really sick..haish.:( anyweii, highway. thats all.LOL*pokes*

changes.

2008-01-06T18:19:00.000+08:00
haish.im sad..to many changes..and still i cant explain why..i don't think i can still handle this..:(..it makes me really gloomy.too lazy to make this long.school resumes tomorrow.i hope I'll be fine the moment i wake up tomorrow.bye:(

2007-12-26T09:07:00.000+08:00
lol as promised..i'll post some pixies.if u want more go to my multiply account.hahaha*_* bye.

3rd monthsary

2007-12-24T18:17:00.000+08:00
whhhheeeeeeee~~~~~..whatta day!!!!i love this day..hahaha.its 24..ilang hours na x-mas na..well anyweii...its a great..great day.wahaha.well gumising ako..normal lang..then akala ko..normal day..then punta ako mall knina kasi may inutos mama ko..kasama ko ate RC pati ate davie..then MY gOD~!..sabi ni prince puntahan niya ako sa mall.*claps*..and then yun...lakad2x kami habang hinihintay si prince..whhheew..then nagmit kami sa 2nd floor ng mall..tinawagan niya ako..tinanong niya kung saan ako..so un cnbi ko..then pagharap ko sa side..nkita ko xa maya dalang RED ribbon na cake pati bouquet ...waaahahahah!! as in super duper shock..then ng tinginan ang mga peepz kasi ang laki ng bouquet..hahahah..then as in pinawisan ako ng super duper lamig..so surprising kasi..pati shocking..bsta ewan..then nung nabalik na ang aking senses ..tinanong ko xa bakit may flowers..sabi niya advance monthsary daw kasi nga bka hindi daw xa makalbas sa one kasi they will celebrate new year daw..wel..well..super duper uber surprising..i'll post pictures later..pati sila ate rc at ate davie super duper shock..hahaha.then as in..dala2x ko ang flowers habang ng lalakad..so happy..then after dahil sobra akong na overwhelm., nilibre ko sila sa MCDO!..whheew..uber happi tlga ako..as in..hahaha^_^..then un kwento2x mga 1 hour sa mcdo..then uwi na..bitin maxado..sandali lng kasi tlga kami pwede mglabas..hahai^_^..anyweii..happy tlga ako..thank you prince.

MERRY Christmas!

2007-12-24T12:35:00.000+08:00
ooohh..its christmas already!!!whhhheeeww~..*_* anyweeii..everything is doing good..i mean..im fine ..my family is fine and eveyone is fine!..LOL. thank GOD for all the blessings..the year is about to end...*cries*..but this year was a very great year..eveything that happened this year was indeed unexpected..but still im thankful coz im happy to see myself where i am right now..im at the point of my life where i have realized that all the best things in life are priceless., its been a great..great year..i want to thank all the people who made this year SPEcial..really special..

here they are..

:papa

(papa--primary source of strength..love you pa..*hugs*

:mama
(mama..love you ma!!..thank you sa lahat ng sacrifices..love you.

:sisters-davie-dana-denise
(wahaha!mga sis!!love you so so much!!!..*hugs*)

:ate rc
(ate RC!!.power kau ka ter!!..primary inspiration jud nko..as in!!..kaw jud akong sundon!power!:)

:PRINCE
(--primary sopruce of happiness!..buti nlng dumating ka sa buhay ko)
:rione
(..thank you a friendship..until now still sorry..but still happy to to see you hppy now.)

:DBSK.

hahahah:) mga koreano ko..hahaha.i miss you..thank you kasi naging happy tlga ako sa inyo..i love you boys..jaejoong hot ka parin..micky..cute ka sobra..yunho oppa!~!!whhheew..junsu..love your voice..changmin..alagaan mo si eprel!)
:omei
(well., nice one*_*

:madhel
(i miss you my beshiey:()

:tiffany
(tiffany!!happy or sad naa jud ka!!lov you tif)

:chen
(chen..kaw jud naa always kung ngahilak ko..thank you kayo!)

:mariel
(mariel!..whee..thank you as paglisten)

:charis
(charis..pinkadown to earth na nakilala ko..thank you..thank you sa friendship

:ms.lozada
(miss!!..pinalaba mo ako ..LOL.thank you for giving me another chance)

:sir loja
(thank you for letting me love trigo!)

:ms.jaena
(thank you ..for reminding me of my past performances)
:ms.sobrecarey
(whhhee..the one who makes me remmeber about yellow*)

:pinsans
(stop bullying me..ok?!*pokes*)

:grandma
(lola ..love you!)

:ate celia
(thank you for being with my family for 8 years!)

:eprel
(eprel!..LOL. i miss our korean invasion)

:junric
(shigyo..i miss you.thank yyou for evetyhing..i miss you so much.)

:bombshells
(thank you for being with me 5 days in a week!)

:bruce
whahaha..bruce..power kau ka..thank you sa tanan bruce..thank you ala ka ngchange

:gem
wahaha tessa..go..go..go..itayo ang bandera ng korea jud..thank you!

:sir quintero
(thank you for the discipline)

:sir aledon
(thank you for giving me tons of adobe works and displaying my work at hi-skul lobby!)

:slaphies
(even if i cant be with you that much, i cant even talk to you that often i miss you so much..i miss you..and i hope we'll have a better realtionship this 2008)

:whizzfreaks
(miss you stm8s!!!*hugs*)

:ms. banuno
(..LOL.i learned a lot from you..)

:UIC!!!!!
(whhhee~ love my school..but im about to leave you soon*cries*

:foods(thank you for keeping me alive)

:st.:lorenzo
wahhaha!!classmates..thank you for accepting me..thank you dahil sa everyday na nagksama tau..ive learned to love you..anding..lord jemar..sheenan.,gecarl!!!...diaz..kevin!!..hannah..whhheew..thank you classmates..!)

:MCDO!---(takbhan pag may problems..thank you sa fries!)
:everyone!!!

thank you..specially to those people who were there when i was so down..and people who were there in the absence of the people whom i thought was my friends..thank you so much for helping me to be me..to prince..LOL.i love you..hahaha*_*...im really thankful ..for all the experiences this year..i must admit that i cried a lot this year but at the end of each day i never fail to thank GOD for everything..and luckily im happy...lol.6 days to go its 2008!!!..i'll leave my school this march..and face another chapter of my life..i hope my friends will remain as my friends..i hope id meet more and more friends..thank you..*lits a triangle.****boom*****pokes!!!!**..anyweii...thank you everyone.. merry cristmas and a happy new year!!!

and if i fail to mention your name..lol sorry2x..till here fellas!
M2m

muntik na magbreak

2007-12-21T19:41:00.001+08:00
well., well., well., its beeeeeeeen a very long time. and i miss my bloggie.okay2x.here it goes. uhm., mutnik ko mwala ang pinkaimportanteng tao sa aking ngaun...LOL. i thought that was really the end of my love story.

it all started with a 3rd year F8cking student.i mean she's a leech.a bitch.a whore. kille me for doing this..but her name is Eucebio hannah bianca* i hate mentioning her stupid name here..but anyweii.,that girl is a certified biatch. she has all the characterisitcs of a girl that i hate. .i hate her and thats all i can think of.. uhm i think that was tuesday. i borrowed prince's phone and accidentally i read his sent items., and she named her..(UIC)-hannah. so i was curious was wat it all about so i read the in box and the girl texted him.

."prince, ng cutting ako.,dito ako victoria ngaun.puntahan mo ako dito please..may ipakilala ako."--wtf. go to hell.

so i started asking prince about it., and then he said they were texting since intramurals ., so i was a little bit shocked kc nalaman ko sobrang late nah. so un ..galit na galit ako sa girl.thats why i searched for her name sa CSSA office ., pati sa guidance.and i found out that she's from st.stephen class of third. and my friends..yes..my friends., they all wanted to see how she looks like., thats why we all went to the annex building..and searched for the whore. and we've seen her., OMG!..she sucks.i dunno., i mean she's a certified trying hard bitch..who leeches and has nothing to do but ruin her life. and honestly she not beautiful i cant even call her a human coz she acts like a hippopotamus., an elephant and a wild boar.hell hate me for saying all this., but i really don't care right now., and all my friends were saying she's not a threat. well wanna say thank you to my friends coz they all helped me search for that wild boar.(bruce,chen,tif,mariel,sheila,azze,hannah,madhel)..

so the girl started all the problem thats why i got so super sensitive this week then yesterday., Thursday., prince did not go with me during lunch recess and dismissal., coz all the time he was with his friends., well theres nothing new about it coz he's always with them as if he doesn't have a girlfriend.and then., i did not talk to him., then wen it was time for dismissal he just texted me "uwi na ako."..then i was crying that time already. and then to ease all the pain and avoid crying i went to the mall.,and when i was at mcdo, i saw his car and he was still with his friends.friends.friends. at first i didnt want to care., but i really cant avoid not to think about him thats why i texted him.."nakita kita sa mall".."then he did not replied.so texted him again..anyan ka na ngaun., ayaw mo na magreply."..and then he replied.."pauwi na ako ngaun."..thats why i decided to go home coz i hate the feeling. i mean cant really express everything through words., he doesnt have time for me coz all the time he is with his friends., and then that shit girl adds to my problems..so subconsciously ., i texted him
"break na tau"
..i really dont know what was on my mind that time., full of confusions , then his reply was.."ikaw bahala.."..i was super shock..as in ., first thing i said to myself.."wala na xa..:9"..feels like every single moves hurts me..every single step i take means losing him..and this is not en exaggeration..i felt like i will faint that time., my knees doesnt have this strength to take another step., and tears eventually fell as i started to walk..but i still managed to control everything..so i texted him.."thank you for everything..and he replied..
"thank you din sa lahat.
.then it just popped up on my mind that i want to see him for the last time., talk to him till the last moment of being with him., tell him all the pain., and give him all the last words..and thanking him for being such a wonderful person., that was everything on my mind..so i set my mind again..texted him....
i said i want to see him for the last time., i will wait for him on the place where we first dated .,thats until 6.so he had 1 hour to decide whether he'll go or not.
..then he aid .."wag lang tau magbreak please..:(..then i said we will try to fix everything and decide later.. i waited..and waited..and its like for almost 1 hour i waited for him..i thought he wouldn't come so when i was about to leave the place where it all started i saw him.then we proceed to the place where we could talk., and then on the way he did not hold my hand., he was walking ahead of me ., but i wanted to hold him and walk with him for the last time..so i hurried and held his hand.,he held it so tight ..and im losing more and more strength.without any single word..i know im slowly losing him..so when we got there..i started to talk..then he was already pleading for another chance..and i started crying when he hugged me so tight..really tight..i know i cant have that hug again..cant hole his hands again..coz i really thought that was the last time..but didnt really want to give up..i have said everything..and it was really a moment..like watching a corny dramatic film..LOL. then i dont know coz he was saying he's so sorry., he was also confused at that time coz he got a lot of problems ..and and..he was a little bit angry coz i did not talk to him daw..he feels like i ignored him...and blah..blah..blah..we decided to continue..lol.after all that was it...hindi kami ngbreak.super happy for that.

lol.mmuntik na tlga un as in..grabe ang iyako..heheh.wala lang xare lang..and everything that happend made the relationship stronger..good thing he's so nice..and he's not a player..well thats all!..bye!

oh yeah.xmas party ngaun sa school..then after the party we watched movie.its golden compass...LOL. and his friends was texting him to go to this and that..but he decided to stay with me,

thats all.bye!

muntik na magbreak

2007-12-21T19:41:00.000+08:00
well., well., well., its beeeeeeeen a very long time. and i miss my bloggie.okay2x.here it goes. uhm., i almost lost one of the most important person in my life.LOL. i thought that was really the end of my love story.

it all started with a 3rd year F8cking student.i mean she's a leech.a bitch.a whore. kille me for doing is..but her name is Eucebio hannah bianca* i hate mentioning her stupid name here..but anyweii.,that girl is a certified biatch. she has all the characterisitcs of a girl that i hate. .i hate her and thats all i can think of.. uhm i think that was tuesday. i borrowed prince's phone and accidentally i read his sent items., and she named her..(UIC)-hannah. so i was curious was wat it all about so i read the inbox and the girl texted him.

."prince, ng cutting ako.,dito ako victoria ngaun.puntahan mo ako dito please..may ipakilala ako."--wtf. go to hell.

so i started asking prince about it., and then he said they were texting since intramurals ., so i was a little bit shocked kc nalaman ko sobrang late nah. so un ..galit na galit ako sa girl.thats why i searched for her name sa CSSA office ., pati sa guidance.and i found out that she's from st.stephen class of third. and my friends..yes..my friends., they all wanted to see how she looks like., thats why we all went to the annex building..and seacrhed for the whore. and we've seen her., OMG!..she sucks.i dunno., i mean she's a certified trying hard bitch..who leeches and has nothing to do but ruin her life. and honestly she not beautiful i cant even call her a human coz she acts like a hippopotamus., an elephant and a wild boar.hell hate me for saying all this., but i really dont care right now., and all my friends were saying she's not a threat. well wanna say thank you to my friends coz they all helped me search for that wild boar.(bruce,chen,tif,mariel,sheila,azze,hannah,madhel)..so the girl started all the prolem thats why i got so super sensitive this week then yeaterday., thursday., prince did not go with me during lunch recess and dismissal., coz all the time he was with his friends., well theres nothing new about it coz he's always with them as if he doesnt have a girlfriend.and then., i did not talk to him., then wen it was time for dismisal he just texted me "uwi na ako."..then i was crying that time already. and then to ease all the pain and avoid crying i went to the mall.,and when i was at mcdo, i saw his car and he was still with his friends.friends.friends. at first i didnt want to care., but i really cant avoid not to think about him thats why i texted him.."nakita kita sa mall".."then he did not replied.so texted him again..anyan ka na ngaun., ayaw mo na magreply."..and then he replied.."pauwi na ako ngaun."..thats why i decided to go home coz i hate the feeling. i mean cant really express everything through words., he doesnt have time for me coz all the time he is with his friends., and then that shit girl adds to my problems..so subconsciously ., i texted him
"break na tau"
..i really dont know what was on my mind that time., full of confusions , then his reply was.."ikaw bahala.."..i was super shock..as in ., first thing i said to myself.."wala na xa..:9"..feels like every single moves hurts me..every single step i take means losing him..and this is not en exaggeration..i felt like i will faint that time., my knees doesnt have this strength to take another step., and tears eventually fell as i started to walk..but i still managed to control everything..so i texted him.."thank you for everything..and he replied..
"thank you din sa lahat.
.then it just popped up on my mind that i want to see him for the last time., talk to him till the last moment of being with him., tell him all the pain., and give him all the last words..and thanking him for being such a wonderful person., that was everything on my mind..so i set my mind again..texted him....
i said i want to see him for the last time., i will wait for him on the place where we first dated .,thats until 6.so he had 1 hour to decide whether he'll go or not.
..then he aid .."wag lang tau magbreak please..:(..then i said we will try to fix everything and decide later.. i waited..and waited..and its like for almost 1 hour i waited for him..i thought he wouldnt come so when i was about to leave the place where it all started i saw him.then we proceed to the place where we could talk., and then on the way he did not hold my hand., he was walking ahead of me ., but i wanted to hold him and walk with him for the last time..so i hurrid and held his hand.,he held it so tight ..and im losing more and more strength.without any single word..i know im slowly losing him..so when we got there..i started to talk..then he was already pleading for another chance..and i started crying when he hugged me so tight..really tight..i know i cant have that hug again..cant hole his hands again..coz i really thought that was the last time..but didnt really want to give up..i have said everything..and it was really a moment..like watching a corny dramatic film..LOL. then i dont know coz he was sayin he's so sorry., he was also confued at that time coz he got a lot of problems ..and and..he was a little bit angry coz i did not talk to him daw..he feels like i ignored him...and blah..blah..blah..we decided to continue..lol.after all that was it...

lol.mmuntik na tlga un as in..grabe ang iyako..heheh.wala lang xare lang..and everything that happend made the relationship stronger..good thing he's so nice..and he's not a player..well thats all!..bye!

oh yeah.xmas party ngaun sa school..then after the party we wacthed movei.its goldent compass...LOL. and his friends was texting him to go to this and that..but he decided to stay with me,

thats all.bye!

PAPA-agrees with prince

2007-12-13T08:39:00.000+08:00
LMAO.! nice morning..i mean great morning!..woohhoo!*cheers*..
okay..okay, the story goes like this., i was really suffering with a lot of body pains last night..i dunno why..becoz of the weather i guess., or its just my monthly period., its unusual to have body pains though..i was suffering from..headache,backpain,buttock pain..lower-stomach pain..LOL., and my legs are in pain too*cries*..well anyweii thats not i want to discuss right now., okay this morning iwoke up at ..8:00 am. then when i went out of my room., i was so shocked that my parents are talking about prince:

the dialogue goes like this.:

mama:but.an mana si prince.
papa:butan btaw..tsk2x..abdul..
mama:but.an gud na si prince lhing noh?
me:..oo as in..btaw pa., but.an mana xa. isa pa uyab lang man..

then blah..blah..blah..

papa:bsta uyab lang dili asawa. LOL. so funny!

hahaha^_^., so i think there's no problem about prince na..coz father used to say he doesnt like him or wat..but i know if he will get to know prince., he will like prince.

wahaha. just wanna share it.

saturday!..happy feast day!CRy-cry

2007-12-08T23:54:00.000+08:00
ooohh..saturday..but i think its sunday already..anyweii.i woke up at 4:25 am then texted prince to wake him up..but he replied .."gising na ako kanina pa..txt lng kung ready ka na"..

lol. im really lazy coz we agreed that we will wake up at 4:00 am.*pokes..thats why... binilisan ko tlga..and i had to cook my own foor coz ate is still asleep. then i took a bath..then im done dressing., he texted my that he's already outside!!..i still did not comb my hair..wahahah!...so ginawa ko na yun on the way..tpos breakfast kami ulit sa MCDo..then after that..UIC main..then procession.then mass.tapos after mass hindi kami ngsama:(..kasi kasama niya friend niya...:(...so un..tampo effect.LOL. i hate it.im so selfish.too childish.then i was tiffy nng..nag tiyangge kami sa san pedro pati sa uyanguren..then after..kain sa jollibee..then pumunta sa NCCC., mga walang magawa., we were jsut killing the time..so we went everywhere..then after punta sa Gaisano south to cheer for rotchen..then alam ni prince na galit ako..so sinundan niya ako sa GS south..then when he sat infront of me..i saw his eyes..turned red..LOl. im 75% sure he cried..nakonsensya ako..as in..kung alam niyo lang..i think ang sama ko..pero no time to talk for that..i had to cheer up for my friend rotchen..too bad they were defeated by the table cloth school!!!..stella maris!!sh*t..well anyweii after that..i was with prince na., kain sa mcdo..then after there..we had a time to talk about the problem kaninang umaga..then ..i talked..and talked..then kahit saan na pumunta ang usapin..shit.he cried infornt of me...i mean..not really cry..as cry..just tears..lol cant explain that..but his voice was like..i cant talk.."..then he thought i'll break up with him..thats why..he was really serious that time..then that time., i really wanna say sorry., i know im rally bad., he's doing everything for me..but then i cant afford to understand that he also wants to find time with his friends..im really selfish..he's really trying his best..i wanna change this attitude na..:(..i dont want to see him doing that again..the more i cant afford to see him sad bcoz of me..i want him to be happy..at some point i know im not a good girlfriend..but theres sumthing wrong with me..im working on it..

then after that..i hugged him..LOL.kinda corny i know...but thats the best thing i can do.its my fault..my mistake.hahha^_^..i have to do sutmhing about this. i love him so much., and i cant afford to lose a very sincere guy..lol.first time to see a guy crying.well anywei., he said .."hala bka ialagy mo nanaman t sa blog mo"..then i said i wont..but i did.*pokes*..LOVe you prince!

december 6 2007, thursday. swimming~~~

2007-12-08T23:47:00.001+08:00
december 6 2007, thursday. swimming~~~

oh lala!!!!!!...half day!!half day!~~..teachers were so busy thats why..anyweii..hahahah.half day..then as expected im with prince....then we went at NC mall to eat..then after that we didnt know where to go thats why we went everywhere and wasted fuel. LOl.we were just laughing with what we are doing..nawawala kami sa kawalan!!!!wahahah!^_^..

then at around 3:00pm..we went home na..LOL. then i thought of having swimming..i said..i really wanna swim..thats why he said he will ask permission first then he will just txt me if its already okay..hahhaha.actually i was expecting , plan is cancelled thats why i did not prepare..and then suddenyl he texted me that we wil meet sumwhere coz we will go swimming!!!!!!!...woohhoo! i love that.^_^ and i wasnt really prepared thats why i placed anything i cant think i will be needing in swimming..to blind that i forgot to bring my towel!~!!!wahahah!!..but he said its fine coz he had one..he let me use it..whhee~hmmmmm.. first we went at foresthill.too bad , theres a seminar going on..so we went to mergrande!!!!!..mga 6:00 na kami nkaligo..wahahaha!!!..so thats it..soooooo cool..i mean..so cold!..hahaha
^_^ ., we were just there., swimming and enjoying the water..even if there are alot of people..it was fine..hahaha^_^..too many memories. swimming is really good!!
okay till here!!

december 5, 2007 wednesday cut classes.

2007-12-08T23:47:00.000+08:00
december 5, 2007 wednesday cut classes.

i woke up at around...hhhmmm..let me think..oh yeah!!!..7:00 am. its bcoz i cried a lot ..thats why my eyes were really hurtinng and i had to sleep thats why i woke up at 7:00., and then when i went to search for my P.E shirt., lol its wet., really wet!!! wahahaha^_^., and then..i had to dry it..like.....30 mins. *pokes*..then i had to prepare for another 30 mins.LOl. thats why i left the house almost 8:00 am..then when i was about to ride a jeepney for school...i texted chen then i asked if there's a lready a teacher and whats the first subject(LMAO.its already december, ive been a fourth year student for almost se7en months but i still cant memorize my sched)., then she said there's no teacher..and and there will be a song practice for the mass. so i decided not to go., coz it will be soooo cold in the auditorium., and my eyes..my eyes again..and since prince said that he will be absent coz he had stomachache., hahahah.but i know its not bcoz of the stomachache.LOL. so i texted prince if we could meet..and talk about more serious matters since we had a huge fight last night..and then he immediately said ok..ok...so in short...i cut classes last wedenesday.then prince and i went to SHRINE..thats where we usually go. ..then we had coffee ..talk..and talked..then everything was fine..and he said he wants to pray..LOL.shocking!!..he's a muslim..then he just said..he wants me to pray...so he waited and watched me praying.LOL.

after that..we ate at mcdo.then after we went to school., but not together..coz that will be so obvious..so he went first then like 10 mins i arrived in my classroom..then when i got inisde..everboday was like...***WWWWWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH*****...hahahha., of course they knew it..LOL. they all reacted. so thats it!^_^

summary for this week. december 3-4

2007-12-08T23:21:00.000+08:00
wahahah!!okie2x..whatta week..kasi 2 celbrate ng monthsary.oohhh...ohhh..sumone was complaining about my explanation about the flow of the monthsary..too bad im really laz today.haish. well anyweii.

december 3-4(thats monday and tuesday right?..

ive done nothing for that two days. i mean i just went to school then go home.simple as that.uhm., theres nothing special that happened.damn!..when im in school theres nothing special of course except for seeing my prince. duh?! kinda stupid..but that the best thing i can think of if sumone asks me whats so special about my school life.okay..okay..that was it. wake up at 6:30., leave my house at 7:00 then arrive in school late then go directly to the disciplinarian's office.hell., i hate my life being late but cant afford to wake up early. so thats it.

updates-december 1

2007-12-02T08:39:00.001+08:00
whhheew..grabe.ganda tlga ng tulog ko kagabi.hehehe:)..tabi ko kasi si baby fai..LOL. kahit ano nlng tlga pangaln ng baby nmn., LOL. well anyweii, masaya.super saya.nga pla i wasnt able to make updates pra sa intramurals. well congratulations to the seiors!!!..we are the over all champion.isnt it great?!*pokes*..then the declamation..wahahah.too bad i wasnt able to make it.but the winner surely deserves it..anyweii, i miss my prince now.hehehe^_^.uhm what else..un lang nmn..nga pla..i have to upload pictures sa mga nangyari sa picnic nmn kahapon..later when im done uploading those pixies.till here muna!!..bye!

2nd monthsary

2007-12-01T21:41:00.001+08:00
HAPPY 2nd MONTHSARY

wahahaha!! happy monthsary prince koh!!!!..OMG! watta day. its december 1, 07 ..its our 2nd monthsary!..well..well..well..the story goes like this..again sinalubong nmn ang 2nd monthsary ..mga malapit na 12, ngachat kami..then hintay mag12..so un ..nag monthsary kami over the net muna..then kanina punta kami sa school para sa PTA sportsfest..and then..and then..dinala niya din si baby iya na super cute!..then origina plan is surprise koh xa..so mga 4:00 pm ang sabi ko sa kanya na magdating ako..tapos ewan..ang bilis ng oras..naggrocery pa ako..tapos bumili ako ng pagkain sa jollibee..tapos..pagdating ko sa mall knina sa meeting place nmn, hindi ko pa sinabi na andun ako..naggrocery muna ako para sa surprise picnic..then after bumili ako ng pagkain sa jollibee..tapos nilagyan ko ng "happy monthsary " sa loob para pagopen niya mamaya..ma surprise sila..then nung ready na lahat..i texted him na..

"prince may problema tau., punta ka muna national bookstore..meet tau doon"..then un..happy2x ..then sinabi ko/

"prince..inutusan pa ako ng mama ko na ihatid to sa shrine..kelangan ko pa pumunta doon.."

prince:"huh?! ang layo..kaw tlga magdala nyan doon?"

dahly:oo., palpak maxado..nakita ako ni mama dito sa mall so inutusan nalang niya ako. malas maxado..cge lang alis lang tau agad hatid ko lang to..

then yun..punta na kami sa parking Lot..and then..sabi ko..bilisan ntn prince.. then parang ngtaka ako kasi nagstop xa!!!then eto..pagtingin ko sa front seat..wahahaha!! may nkalagay na bouquet ng flowers na nka wrap ng yellow..tapos bear!..wahahah! how sweet..super nkakatuwa!...as in..naloka ako..so un..nghug kami..kakaiyak..then sabi niya happy monthsary.LOL. grabe tlga.pix!

then un..on our way...super happy tlga ako..pero im pretending na naiinis ako kay mama kasi nasira monthsary nmn..LOL. then pagdating nmn sa shrine.. hinahanap niya kung saan na mama ko..hahahah*_*
tapos sabi ko..wala man sila"

prince:"huh?!!!"*confused*

dahly:hahhaha..picnic tau.."..halika.."

prince:"hala..?!"

dahly:"hahaha.cge na.."

prince:"hala gi surprise mo lageh ako..hahaha

then thankyuo2x xa sa akin..then nag usap2x usap kami doon..super duper hangin. then moment.para kaming mga tanga..mga bata n cge laro2x..then away2x effect LOL. kacornihan sa world!

so un..ngpicnic kami..whhhee~..
then pagopen niya sa burgersteak niya..may nkalagy na happy monthsary!

eto pa pla shocking..may one time na umiyak ako kasi ayaw niya ako bigyan ng letter kasi hind daw tlga xa marunong..pero eto ngaun ginawan niya ako..

.sabi pa sa letter niya

dear beh,

unang-una sa lahat "happy 2nd monthsary", mahal na mahal kita.."i love you.."hindi ko tlga alam kung paano to gawin .sorry tlga kung binibigyan kita ng problema.sorry rin tlga sa mga nagawa ko sau mas lalo na talaga kung pinapaiyak kita.promiz talga na magbago na ako sayo.salamat din sa lahat ng ginawa mo sa akin.sayo lng tlga ako ngabgo ng ganito.i love you tlga*hugs**kiss*.

salamat tlga sa lahat ng nagawa mo sa akin beh huh..salamt din dumating ka sa life koh:)..i love you tlga.sorry din pla sa writing ko dito sa letter.:)

awwww...how sweet!LOL

LOL.LOL.LOL..

hahhaha:)

I love you PRince koh!!!..watta day tlga..as in..woohhoo.gosh!,
happy monthsary ulit.*hugs*

declamation tomorrow

2007-11-28T21:29:00.000+08:00
OMG!..tomorrow is the day.LOL. . .yes...yes..i'll be performing tomorrow. hell., its hard..im not really prepared..but okay..okay..i dont have a choice again..i had to do that..LMAO. i dont know how i could perform there..well anyweii life great as of now..im happy..so happy..2nd month is near already!*whee~**claps*..so much memories already..hahaha:)..

yeah..yeah..i wanna thank BRUCE FAMIN coz he helped me with my actions and he corrected my mistakes..he helped me a lot kanina..he was with me during my practice..i was kinda shy at first but i acted infront of him later....hahaha.he's nice. uhm we finished at around 7:00 pm na..and na shock ako kc sinundo ako ni prince sa school..kala ko kasi ndi xa pupunta kasi nga absent xa kanina..tapos ndi na din ako umasa na pupunta pa xa when he said he will..but he was really there..hahah^_^..PRINCE is nice ..super nice..nicer each and every day..^_^.

im tired..ive got to have a rest muna kasi..kasi..magchat pa kami ni prince mga 11. 40 mins rest muna..hahaha^_^..till here!

awake.

2007-11-28T06:27:00.000+08:00
oohhh..its 6:58 in my pc's clock..and im still awake*cries*..wanna have rest now..i cant go to school that i never slept the whole night..ive been doing a lot of stuff..serious ones..i had to to it..hahaha:) gotta have rest right now..bye everyone. just wanna say goodmorning!LOVE you all..*hugs*

declamation- - prince--intramurals

2007-11-25T22:32:00.000+08:00
OMG!!..*cries*..im really tired right now..i dont know what made me tired..is it because i havent seen my prince today..?..oh noooo not that one..maybe its because i faced my PC for almost 15 hours..LOL.*i have to sleep. i did not have even a single practice for the shitful declamation..hahaha*_*..i still cant gather the strength for that stuff..but i cant back out mainly bcuz of my conduct grade*cries*..i dont have a choice:( well..well..all i have to do is stand there..talk..act..then its done..thats all ..dahly..think..think..think..you'll just do the same thing as what you've done way back when you were still in grade 6..hahaha. face the crowd then feel the moment..hahaa..oooohh...i wish its simple as that..but honestly its not..i dont know why it seems to be a very big problem for me..i dunno..i dunno..well just wish me luck..luck..luck..if only they have given me enough time to choose the best piece for me..and practice..then i'll do it with out hesitations..but then..they asked me like 6 days before the presentation..hell ., how can i memorize a 3 pages piece with mastery??..and how can i organize myself..how can i make up my mind that i had to that??..oooohhh nooo...im getting crazy now..every single nerve is worrying about the declamation..

PRINCE

on the brighter side of the world!!!!!wahahaha!!...2nd month is almost here!!Whhhhheee*cheers*..going strong !!..he's better now..yeah..yeah..i love him..and i cant let go of him..and thats it...LMAO.he makes me happy despite of all the problems..he cracks his corny jokes and it makes me laugh..hahah..none sense..but i enjoy chatting with him..LOL. i miss him now...but yesterday..we werent able to see each other coz he had this eye infection ( just like mine during my retreat)..i can still remember that i cursed that he will also have like that coz he kept on laughing at me that time..but it was just a joke..and now its real..hahaha..i pity my prince...but you know what..even though he had that on his eye..he went to my house last Saturday night for a very simple yet very sweet reason..he misses me..hahaha..i love him when he's having all those simple reasons..he always had reason for everything..sumtimes silly reasons..*pokes*..but i know he's loving me at his best..hahaha..im just so lucky to have a guy like him..forget all the misunderstandings..just let LOVE conquer all odds.*pokes*

well tomorrow is our
intra murals....
hahaha..i hope it would make me forget my problems even for a while..and..and..what else.?..yeah..intramurals next week..and i did not join any game coz all i wanna do is sit there..sleep..and then eat..thats my life during intramurals..doing nothing..just observing..and just letting myself feel happy..hahaha..and thats it..LOL.

im tired..got to go to bed right now..gudnyt everyone!..LOVE YOU PRINCE!

hectic stupid bad week

2007-11-23T20:48:00.000+08:00
oohh..its been a while. i wasn't able to write entries for several days coz i was really busy with our monthly exams. i hate the the way they arranged the subjects ..its started Thursday and we had 8 subjects during the first day and only two in the second day., hell ..i dunno if i passed in physics,social study,math and English. i wasn't able to study properly ..kasi last thursday..sumama pa ako kanila robert at sa papa niya..kasama ko din sila ming at kate..so super duper late ako nkauwi..mga 8 ata..as if walang exams the next day..*pokes.*..

natapos ang one week ko na medyo hindi maganda..ewan..i have a lot of things to look up to.last Monday i wished for this week to end up fast..coz im quite excited with our intramurals and but then i dont want next week to come ..i'll be having the declamation next wednesday and i really hate it coz its been a long time since i had one..my actions and posture is quite failing right now coz i forgot everything..i thought i wont be having it in my entire life again..but here is it..the pressure is quite high coz everyone is really expecting that i will do well., but honestly i think i wont. i dunno why..i still cant gather guts..my head's in a jam..i really dont know what to do..i thought after this week i will be free..but im imprisoned again...well just wish me luck:0

uhm..prince..prince..prince.yeah..im quite frustrated with how our relationship is going right now..2nd monthsary is approaching..and..and..changes..a lot of changes..i think he still cant have proper time management..he fails to divide his time with me and his friends..but as what he have said..its really a big adjustment for him. ..and i have to understand.i also dont want to to lose time for my friends.thats it..but overall he's nice..still good..i know he's trying his best..and he's doing everything to make this one work.and im honestly happy for that..*hugs*

hmmm..what else..??..i dont have anything to say right now..all i can feel is that..im tired and i wanna have a rest coz for two days i wake up at 12:00 am..until 4:00 to study ..oh well..rest..rest..rest..i wanna have peace of mind...but too bad i have to think..think..and think..thats life. till here!

saturday-nood one more chance

2007-11-17T22:35:00.000+08:00
uhm...actually i wasnt planning to go out..kasi nga kakapagod and i have a lot of plans..then they were all texting me to go to the mall to watch movie..so andun c chen,tif,diaz,anding..then sheenan..and of course with prince..so un nood kmi ..then after ...kain sa jollibee..then uwi..wahahaha!un lang!

meeting with Prince's mom

2007-11-17T21:45:00.000+08:00
THURSDAY-november 15, 2007

1st MEETING with prince mom

okay..okay..story goes like this. punta ako mall with bombshells kasi may bibilhin cla for their retreat plus pinpapaunta ako ni ate RC para sabay kami uwi. and then..ang prince ko naman, nasa victoria with his mom and then later lumipat cla sa mall and then parang wala lang rin., iniicp ko rin hindi parain kami magkikita kasi kasama niya mama niya..so do the usual thing..kain sa mcdo then txtxt kay prince then usap usap kanila ming at kate...then nung malapit na kami matapos..bigla lang sinabi ni prince through txt na..:

"gusto ka daw makilala ng mama koh"..

so yun kinabahn tlga ako..kasi kain sila sa GErry's grill tapos kami sa mcdo..eh sobrang lapit lang..so un..kinakabahan tlga ako..pero honestly gusto ko din tlga mameet mommy niya..so un..sinundo niya ako sa Mcdo..so no escape na tlga..this is it na tlga..wahahah. tapos un..sinabi ko tlga sa kanya na kinakabahan ako kasi bka hind ako magustuhan and whatver...so yun nasa GERyr's grill na xa..nakaupo..tapos pagpasok ko..she gave me this strange look..i dunno if she's happy or angry..maybe in the middle..and then..when i stand infront of her..she smiled at me..it was quite a relief on my part.i know she's nice. :"mommy...si dahly padillo pla..GF ko."..as in complete name pa tlga huh....and then she smiled nanaman sa aming dalawa..then she asked me if i asked permission coz it was alrady 7:00 pm..haang kinkabahan..sumagot ako ng oo..hahaha:)..and then..hhmmm..she asked kung cno kasama ko ..then sabi ko.."classamtes ko po"..then sabi pa niya na magkain daw kami doon...and then i just said no kasi busog pa tlga ako..bago lang ako kumain..hahaha.:0..then after that...we left the place then nglakad2x lang kmi ni prince.hahaha!:)...watta meeting..:)..

i hope she doesnt hate me or wut.LOL

then few minuts later..
i met kuya HAMES. kuya pipo and the rest...hahaha:)..ate rc's freinds.one of them is her special friend..LOL, tapos un..kakatuwa kasi first time nmn magmeet ni kuya James.uhm he is nice..he knows how to listen ..but i think he thinks im weird coz i always talk..and im unstoppable..hahaha:)..then we ate at penongs..mga 10 na cguro ako nkauwi.grabe..im with 5 professionals..ahahaha!..it was kinda weird coz they were all listening to my nonesense story and they said i act as if im already 22 years old.hahaha:)..i love those people..HOPe to see them again.

well that was my adventure.

then prince started talking..then sabi pa niya..

happy 1st monthsary!!!!

2007-11-01T22:15:00.000+08:00
okay.,first of all, i wanna say..

HAPPY 1st MONTHSARY!!!

i love you prince koh!..wahahah.so happy. first monthsary was really really special.woohhoo.very special kasi sinalubong nmn ang first monthsary nmn together. unexpected...hahaha. he made it really special. you know what., at around 12:00 am ng nov.1 pumunta xiah sa bahay para lang tlga mgsama kmi sa 1st monthsary nmn!..wahahah. kala ko hanggang phone call lang..tapos yun..pintuntahan niya tlga ako sa bahay..grabe kakaiyak tlga as in. di ko akalain pupunta xiah and everything!...wahahah! kaloka...hahahah! then we talked for like 30 mins.tumakas lang daw xa sa bahay nila..pati ako tumakas lang din..pero alam ng ate ko pati ni madhel na pupuntahan niya ako.wahahah! really sweet..then he said thank you ..kasi daw happy xiah bcoz of me..he's really sweet!..well., ang happiness cguro na nafifill niya triple sa akin..haii nko..mahal na mahal kita prince ko.

well monthsary..at the same time bday ni besshiey madhel!
happy birthday besshiey!,,,to celebrate her bday pumunta xa sa bahay nmn at dito natulog ..dito niya sa bahy piniling salubungin bday niya..hehehe.then mga 2:00 pm ata punta kmi sa kanila..uhm wala nmn lakad2x and everything.then nakaalis ako mga 7:30 pm na ata..then pinuntahan si junric at prince sa mcdo!..si junric para kunin ang album for slaphies..then..then..si prince para magcelebrate ulit ng monthsary!!!

wahahaha..pagdating ko..ala niyo..kasama ni prince si IYA!!!...younger sister niya na super dooper cute...to the highest level..as in cute tlga!!! i love that kid. npka witty tapos and cute tlga..hahaha. so un ..sabi ni prince..dinala niya tlga si IYA para makaalis xiya ng bahay..hahahah^_^..then un kain si IYA..at first mahiyain pa..then after sa mcdo nghanap kmi ng open pa na mall kasi bibli daw si iya ng damit..punta kmi victoria..gmall///southmall//close lahat..so we tried NCCC mall..close din..punta kmi SM!..open!!!*cheers*...so un..pagpasok nmn..puno na ang diaper ni IYA..tapos hindi marunong si prince magchange ng diaper..tapos sabi ko ako marunong..sabi niya nakakahiya daw..wahahah!!..i said..ok lang..hahah! so un..ako ngchange ng diaper ni IYA..nga pla., IYA is still 2 years old.cute ng boses niya ..then after..pili pili na xa ng damit..hahaha!!@_@...pero l;ater toys na ang gusto niya bilhin...hahaha! ang cute tlga!..:)*_*..hahahha^_^..

well watta day!..ang saya tlga..at the end naging close na kmi..hahah! palagi na xa nga salita..npka talkative niya as in!..cge na till here!!! happy monthsary ulit!!

I LOVE YOU PRINCE KOH!!!

khey's bday-overnight!(monthsary gift)

2007-10-30T12:22:00.000+08:00
wahahah!!im back! woohoo..grabe ha as in walang tulogan.hinntay tlga nmn na mag sunrise.

well umalis ako ng bahay mga 3:00 pa ata kc bibii pa ako ng gift for prince.hahah! for our monthsary..alam niyo..ang binili ko..toblerone.wahahah!un lang..hahah., di ko na kc alam anong bibilhin. tapos un nagmit kmi mga 5:00pm then sabay na kaming pumunta sa bahy nila khey for her birthday..tapos un..tawa2x..kain2x..oohh lala! saya ng party as in to the highest level.!then ung sobrang gabi na..prince asked me for a walk..then i just said okay..then he got something from his pocket..its a necklace..then sinuot niya sakin..hahaha! kilig!..its for our monthsary..hahah!..thanks to prince!!!then we hugged each other..then later i gave him my gift.then i gave him the card..then he read it..then un..wala lang..super dooper happy ako...we celebrated our monthsary in advance kasi malablo tlga na mgkita kami sa nov.1..anyweii..anyweii..un na..umuwi ata cla mga 12 na...then ako..i joined my friends..we just talked..and talked..until 6:oo am in the morning..as in matira matibay tlga!!..wahahaha!!grabe..dami nmn napagusapan..mostly horror. so un na..grabe tlga..then after that..hmmmm...umuwi na ako mga 10:00am.na wala tlga naktulog.LOL

till here!

back to Jack's Ridge

2007-10-28T20:04:00.000+08:00
whhhee`w~..its sunday!..family day...but everyone is really busy. im was supposed to stay at home and have a rest.i honestly made up my mind not to go anywhere coz im going home late these past few days, i was kinda guilty with wat im doin..but then..Prince asked for another date..he said he misses me and stuff..hahaha^_^..kinda silly coz last time we've seen each other was saturday!..hahah:)..i thought my decision wont be change but then he insisted, then he fetched me ..then later i was asking him where will be our date but he wont tell me., and said its a surprise..then later he realized that supposedly that place will be for our monthsary so he said i will decide nlng daw..wtf! its my weakness to decide where to go ...and so i just said we will go to the GAP farm., but when we got there i dont like the place so i said we will go to crocodile farm., funny thing is., i was confident that i know how to go there., but i ended up empty minded...so we decided to go to JAck's ridge. then we ate there..omg!., before i left the house i ate i think 3 cups of rice., then when we had our lunch., he ordered a lot of food! hahaha.,he said he ordered a lot of food coz he knew that i will still eat even if i say i wont.LOOOOLL! and i was tempted to eat again coz it looks really delicious!..*pokes*..then after we just enjoyed the place..like we stayed there for 3 hours..hahaha!..then we talked about a lot of things again.hahaha!..i love being with him., i dont think i could feel even a bit bored or sumthing..just being with him..then looking at him..laughing with him..he must have been the only guy who could make me happy. i honestly dont regret anything..its all worth it., for the first time, ive felt that i made a right decision.and then after that we went to GMALL to meet up with junric and the rest..then after that i went home na!..oh lala! thats the adventure for the day!

SUMMARY-october 24-27 07

2007-10-28T10:49:00.000+08:00
its been a while., ive been doing a lot of things recently., thats why im going home supah late and i cant type my entry for the day., well anyweii., i'll just summarize everything..okie?okie?

OCTOBER 24 '07, wednesday

before anything else., morning., i was with junric..we went to his dentist but too bad the doctor was busy and he cant accoomodate junric anymore..and then we just ate at MISTER donut..then my prince arrived..then we had our lunch in junric's house since he invited me and prince.and then after hinatid nmn si junric sa bahay nila azee then i was already with my prince sa damosa. kain2x then usap2x lang.nkauwi ako past 4 na.

whhhee~~..it was charis's bday!..oh lala!..i love the food., the place and everything.
Saeng ill chukkae charis!..uhm super late kami nkarating., party starts at around 4:30 or sumthing then we got there at 7:00. hahaha. but it was fine., i was with ming., madhel and yen2x..the party went really well., i saw past crush james but there was no spark., then i saw my my prince!!!..and it feels like there are a lot of friction around me..LOL.i was wearing a black dress and its kinda irritating coz its too short..im not really comfortable wearing those., but again it was just fine. and

JACK's RIDGE with prince
hen..after the party...hhhmmm..i guess it was 10:30 pm. i was with PRINCE!!!..he said he will bring me sumwhere..but he wont tell me where is it coz its a surprise daw ....then later i said i will not go if he will not tell me where..then he just said that we are going to sumwhere where i could see the whole davao. LOL.sounds cool?!...then i said i will go. then when we got there..yeah..yea..its jack's ridge!..let me share that we have been wishing to go together there..but we dont have a time..and it was just the perfect time. whhhee~..i was really happy that time. we talked a lot of things..then i love the view.!..he's so romantic. i think for one hour we just talked then we had coffee!..then after that we went to BLUGRE ., mts branch to fetch madhel..since she will be sleeping with me..then when we are supposed to go home., everyone agreed that they still dont want to go home..and so..we had our KTV bar at K1.!..then i got home like 1:30 am.hahaha!*pokes*

october 25, 2007 thursday
i was really tired when i woke up ...my body is kinda heavy..so i decided to got to school during recess na. then in the afternoon..wait..hhhhhhmmm..cant remember anymore!

october 26, 2007 friday

yeah..yeah..i went with the slaphies sa SM!...hahaha!we ate mcdo and talked..then prince also went there..and then ..hhhmmm..they had a little bonding then after i went with my prince to tok's house to get the cake then tok will sleep in prince's house so he went with us then after we ate at damosa..sa crazy bowl..then hinatid niya na ako sa bahay.

october 27 07 saturday

hahahah! morning pa lang umalis na ako ng bahay para magpa sched sa entance exam kasamao ko ang bombshells.then after kumain kmi then naghanap ng pwde i gift kay prince.tapos nyan..pumunta sa bahay nila junric kumain ng pocky then after pumunta sa chimes then after pumunta sa south mall at kumain sa PICOBELLO. then pumunta na kami ng SM. lakad lakad then ngpa picture..tapos..tapos..hmmm..pumunta sa hotel para sa bday ng daddy ni azze then sa damosa kumain then dumating na si prince.then nagusap lang kami for a while. then thats it! hahaha*_*..:)

thats all!

JUNRIC SHIGYO

2007-10-24T08:12:00.000+08:00
wahahah! monday.
that was october 22, 2007
at around 11:45 am..i saw junric after a very long time!!! wwoooaahhh!! i missed that freak!*pokes*..well he is still the junric i used to know..noisy..senseless..etc.well i had to cut class just to see him..in the middle of the physics discussion i had to go out ..(you know what.. i told him the day before we met., my lunch is at 12:30..and he went there 1 hour earlier than what has been said..**throws junric a bomb!**)and my reason to the teacher was..?//"i had to get sumthing from my mom."..LOL!.// then my next class is music..and i decided not to go back to the classroom and just spend time with shigyo.then we talked..and talked.laughed and laughed.*pokes!*
he met prince na nga pla.LOL. uhm..what else,,??!..i wasnt able to go with them after dismissal coz i went to my grandma's bday..and i was with prince for a while..we had coffee again..oh yeah..speaking about prince..well few days to go its our first monthsary!..*claps!*...im really counting the days..every moment spent with him is not wasted.i dunno if i could see him coz thats nov.1 and its all souls'day!..*pokes*..but there's always a way..right?!..LOL.

and then tuesday...
october 23, 2007
after dismissal i spent it with the slaphies..kinda miss the gang..
we werent able to be together for so long..we just ate at mcdo.
then we talked about a lot of things..and another thing..i was able to fix my problem with yen-yen..as well as with khey. its like ..i wanna be happy with whats happening with me right now without having to worry about anything.after all..friends are friends..they are my friends..and i dont have to fight with them coz it will be a waste of time..its like that. hahaha*_* as of the moment..i dunno what happened but i really dont have to guts to fight with anyone ..i really dont want to ruin my happiness.thats it.

and then after that., i was with Prince na coz we will go to the dance practice.
and then...hhhmmm...:) we were able to go home at around 11:00 pm na..
the practice ended too late..but we decided not to dance nlng.senseless.*pokes.

today!today! today is the day,..yeah..yeah..
i'll be going to charis' bday today. hope i will do well. LOl.

till here bloggie!

saturday wata day.

2007-10-20T18:17:00.001+08:00
oh..ok..another great day. lol. he called me up at around 8:00 am. to early to wake up..then the original plan is we will meet at 1:30 to make our project..but he said he had nothing to do at home..so we have to meet earlier..so at around 10.30 ..nagmeet kmi sa damosa sa coffee dream. tapos punta sa mall., lakad2x ..but boring ata sa mall..then he said punta kami GAP farm., pero nung papunta na kmi sa GAP., i said sa NCcc mall nlng kmi..sobrang init a kasi that time..then we watched APAT dapat dapat apat..then mga 1:45..balik kami mall to meet our groupmates chen mariel and tif..then punta kmi sa san pedro intervie ng mga bata..tapos magsaysay nnmn..then balik sa mall., supposedly sama ako sa kanya punta sa bahay nila lontok kc fiesta then tok's mom asked prince na papuntahin ako..kaso hindi pa ako comfortable..and nahihiya ako..so i decided na hindi nlng magsama..then un parang na sad tlga si prince..gusto ko sumama na ayaw/..pero un..mas nangibaba ang hiya..so hindi na tlga ako sumama..tapos...tapos..pauwi na ako., then wala akong kasama..eh hindi xa pumayag na wala daw akong kasama mguwi..so i asked my friends to go with me para lang tlga makauwi..hahaha^_^..he's really taking care of me..LOL. so thats it. whatta day.!^_^..LOve you prince!<3

saturday wata day.

2007-10-20T18:17:00.000+08:00

I LOVE MY PRINCE

2007-10-10T17:50:00.000+08:00
oh well, its been a while again..i should say that thngs are doing fine.im fine., he's fine and we are both fine. im happy and i guess he's happy too. i love him and probabaly he loves me the best way he knows. i love this feeling., and i guess im lost without that person..you should know by now whats the latest about my life..if not., okay.,okay., i'll explain it now. i have my prince.a real prince..and his name is prince.,
weve been together for 10 days now., and i guess things are in its right places right now. i must admit that there are some simple problems..due to differences when it comes to our beliefs., but it doesnt really affect that much., i mean we cant avoid those things since he's a muslim and im a catholic., but he's learning to adjust with the kind of life i live.., . and other senesless stuff that we have to consider at times.
he's a great guy., really great., i love it when he cracks hiss corny jokes., i love staying on the phone talking with senseless stuffs..i love being with him., and he means a lot to me right now.,he's taking care of me and he calls me late at night just to say how much he loves me., he never fails to make me smile.,i can see how much he tries to change for me., he's trying to reach out with my friends..and thats it..he is really sumone i have longed to have since then..someone so sweet., not boring..someone who really love me for who i am..weve been together for 10 days but we already have a lot of memories together..well i hate saying this but he courted me for 3 days only..what i was thinking back then was im too afraid to lose him coz ive been waiting for him for such a long time.,so he courted me then on the third day i said yes...well say what you wanna say but i dont regret anything.we already had 7 dates with in that 10 days. oh well., i love him so much., thats all i can feel right now..and i wont bother to care if a lot of people will judge me or whatver..after all this is my life., it wont make any sense if i'll listen to those hurtful wordss..and in fact no one has the right to judge me coz i know what im doing ..all i want now is that this love to last for long..i love him so much., i dont need to prove it to other people..i just have to prove it to him..im trying my best to be good for him..oh well..PRINCE ..will forever be my PRINCE. one of a kind person. till here!

i love you prince

2007-10-05T22:01:00.000+08:00
I LOVE YOU PRINCE KOH!

tagum to school.

2007-09-28T20:26:00.000+08:00
TAGUM ESCAPADE

wait..wait..eto ah..plano ko tlga magpalate..kasi nmn tamad ako, un parn wala kming ggawin sa school..then when i went out from the C.r., naa si auntie annie..kasi nga may kasal na pupuntahan mama ko ., pero hindi xiah pede..so since tinamad akong pumunta sa school., at kahit na ayokong mamiss ang performance ng mga boylets..pumunta prn ako sa TAGUM., kasama ko si ate RC., then mama niya..super kewl ang church..as in to the max..kakaloka tlga ..oh well., masaya nmn ksi marami akong nkain., tapos maganda dn ang kasal kasi binabalik balik ang pagplay ng how deep is your love na fave ko plus ang color yellow..wahaha!~and then while i was there enjoying the place and the scenes., hindi parn mawala sa isip ko na gusto ko pumunta sa school to see someone so spexal..akala ko makakabalik ba ako by 12:00 pm., eh kaso 3 na ako nkabalik ng DAVAo..so kahit na 3:00 pm na ako nkauwi., pumunta prn ako sa school with all the hope na makaabot..then kasama ko si ate RC., kaso hindi na kami nakaabot ., awarding nlng nkita nmn..then si se7en sumayaw..uhm ok nmn kahit papano..hahaha!~..at happy prn ako kasi nkita ko si eight!..wahaha!..oo ang galing noh?!..well i missed him., pero parang cold ata xiah sa akin..peo it doesnt matter..i really wont bother to care sa mga drama niya.wahaha.all i know is that i like him.then tapos sa mall punta kami sa penong's para kumain..at i-meet si kuya pipo na friend ni kuya james..wahahah., kaloka..feeling ko ang dami kong nasabi na bad about kay kuya james., at for sure., lahat ng sinabi ko..i-sharing is good ni kuya pipo kau kuya james..deadz na jud ko ani kay kuya james..pero ok lang..tama man pud tanan gisabat nko.--evil laughs--*peace kuya james!**gets killed by james*..nyahaha!aii tama., libre pud mi tanan ni ate RC!., lingaw noh?!~wahahah!

HUG BY TVXQ SA MALL
so tapos sa school., pumunta kami mall., kasama ko si kate at si ate rc.then laag2x and everything!..wahahaha!:)...and then,..uhm., ano pa ba., oh yeah!!!!!before i forget..eto super shocking..as in..to the highest level...ang song ng TVXQ na HUG ENGLISH VERSION..pinaplay sa atrium sa mall kanina,.as in..it feelsa great to listen to that song..wahaha!., saya noh?!..aba spreading na the dong bang virus.wahahah!~

oh well from north to south ang adventure nmn ngyn..kaloka..at grabe ang energy nmn ni ate RC. bsta all i know is , im happy to see him. luv 8.!...*hugs*...till ere!

RETREAT GALORE!

2007-09-23T14:41:00.000+08:00
OMGGGZZ! im back bloggie!*hugs*..wheee~ i missed you!..did u miss me too?!*pokes*..oh well...2 nyts ..three days..perfectly..absolutely..amazing..i love our retreat..it went on just fine.. very well.i cried a lot..and..and..i ate a lot!(wtf?!)yes..they were serving us food ever now and then..nyahaha!..and i love eating with my classmates..hahaha..luv to see them in baboi mode..oh my.,

ROOM

our room?1 well very nice..although the bed was too small for me to move..i was able to sleep nmn eh..and then my roomates..--.(hannah,jierette,tj,jyl,sul..)..they were all good roomates!..it was fun being with them..and then,we were with a very nice teacher..ms. Shena..she's nice coz we share stories late at night..then the KJs..(the nuns ,banuno neni & randy meh man!)they were all compaining! wahahah!..wats sumthing funny about our room is that., when we woke up the first morning., they said that i was talking daw while sleeping--**pokes..pokes..Pokes*..--its kinda weird..but actually if im really tired, frustrated..or sumthing like that, i really talk while sleeping. and guess wat!!?!..from the first day to the last, im always the first one to finish taking a bath! wahaha!

EYE INFECTION

too bad...the first day was quite disastrous for me..because my eye was bulging..( one eye only, owkie?!)yes..i don't know how to explain it..but i think..it was bitten by an insect or it got irritated..whatever it is..it made me sick..and my classmates was like.."wah!!!nasumbagan ni morales."..hahaha!..but later on..they were all asking me wat happened..and im touched! char!but good think the nxt day it got better..

CONFESSION
well anyweii..i was able to think of my mistakes..thousands of failures and millions of realizations..and i'll definitely change all my bad habits.i want to be a better person for myself and for everyone else, especially for my family. i used to hate regrets before..but when i was there..i learned to accept even the simplest thing that made me bad..im happy to hear this from myself..honestly ive been a very..very bad person before..im so selfish..and my pride..wahahah..i hate to mention this here but..my current enemy, yenyen made me cry ..yes..one video clip said.."learn to love your enemies"..and thats wat im doing right now.....and yeah!~!!! and then..when i had my confession..i cried and ive said almost everything..even the hardest ones to tell..only Father knows about it..i really want to change all my bad attitudes..don't worry, i'll be better for everyone who loves me. its not too late right?!

OPEN FORUM
the open foruym was quite great..except i wasnt able to tell sum1 that i like him..well thats fine.we're better off this way, i luv him then he doesnt know about it, its better that he wont know anything so that he wont ignore me.we're friends and thats more than enough for me.and then..i said sorry to everyone..and its good to hear from my classmates that they accept me for who i am..and they like me because of my childishness..it feels great to hear that from those few people i used to judge before..i've seen them cry..and me too..i cried..when it was my turn to talk..i really thanked everyone for helping me to adjust..and ive learned to enjoy every second with them..and then...u know wat..rione is really nice..he said he understand my decisions and he's happy nlng daw if im happy..and he gave me toblerone..how nice dba??!! i do hope that we'll be friends..

eight
and i really thought of something during our free time..well here's this one guy in our room and he makes everything difficult for me..coz i never mean to fall in love with him from the very start..i hate saying this but i luv him..its like that..but i hate this feeling..i don't want to fall for sum1 who loves another person..but every time im trying to let go of this feeling..he gives me senseless reasons not to let go..sad ryt?.,

over all it was really fun..nice oppurtunity to be with God. till here

watta day.

2007-09-13T21:41:00.000+08:00
whatta day...another great..great day. oh well luve this day, thanks to bombshells. today is really great for the three of us..know why???!! cuz..me..kate...and zelle got the first honors!!!*claps*..suya??! bright man gud mi! bleh!..wahahaha!!..at dahil dito..nagcelebrate kami..kac way back the other month zelle promised that she will treat us if she will be a first honor..so as promised...wahahaha! kumain kami sa..HARANA kasama ang grandma, tita at tito ni zelle. hanep noh?! sarap ng fud., plus zelle bought 3 cakes and three candles sa isang Meteor Garden-like bakery..wahahaha..sa BISTRO chuva ata un., i forgot..wahahaha..at nagblow kami..and everything..at eto..lintek na pagkachildish ko!!..kasi na excite ako sa playground..so un naglaro ako ng sobra-sobra na parang bata..tapos nung nagslide ko hindi ako nka break!!!*cries*..and bato pa tlga ang ground...sakit ng pwet ko sobra...plus super duper nakakahiya..wahahaha..buti nlng bombshells lang nakakita.LOL. well anyweii.. .,.THANKS TO ZELLE and her FAMILY...

tapos...tapos..shift to another topic..wahahha! MAGANDA rin ang luvlyf ng bombshells ngyn..este luvlyf nmn ni zelle..

first kay zelle:
inakbayan xiah ng kanyang eeyore at hindi lang yan..may pa haplos2x pa..wah! unsa na tender loving care?!lol.*pokes*
nanggahi si maryzelle...nyahahah!

mine..wah! kaloka din at super shocking..ksi..recess na that time..at as usual mamayabas mi..(kami lng nakasabot unsa mamayabas)...then naksalubong nmn ang grup ni se7en..when suddenly one of his friends(who happens to be my classmate said

"uei dahly meet se7en......*dies..WTF!..at kinilig ako dun..sobra..

ang saya noh??!!

oh well..thanks To GOD for everything..ahahaha!...

till here!

solo flight galore.

2007-09-08T17:26:00.000+08:00
wah! haii nko..solo flyt nanaman ako kanina. mg-isang nag lakad lakad..kumain at ngstalk.wahaha!^_^ ewan. uhm first., punta ako ng SM..ewan ko baket ang lau..hahaha para maiba. tapos bigla akong na bore..kasi nmn wala akong nkitang gwapo na pwede i-stalk., *pokes*..so un lipat ako sa mall..lakad2x..and everything...tapos nagutom na ako..kain ako ng mcdo..wahahaha..at..at..at..pagdating ko..bumaha ang mga boys!!!xiet..as in..sa counter palang, sobrang dami,kaloka.! ang gwapo nila**--gets killed--*...so un na., kumain na ako..pero ang table ko sobrang layo sa mga pogee kasi wala ng vacant chair na malapit sa kanila., at binagalan ko tlga pagkain ..para ma stalk ko sila after!*evil laughs*..so nung tumayo na sila..timing naubos ang fries ko..pero iniwan ko na coke ko., bahala na..hahaha! so un ngstalk ako..eh kaso papunta sila sa arcade..hindi na ako sumunod noh..awkward kaya pumunta ng arcade mag-isa..LOL. so un lakad2x nnmn ako..tapos, parang hindi ko na feel ., so pumunta ako sa uyanguren..what else so ng tiyangge ako,.*pokes*..pero wala akong na bili kc ubos na pera ko.LOL. so un na adventure ko for today.thats all. bye!

DACS culmintation--past crush.

2007-09-07T17:20:00.001+08:00
WWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWhhhhee~ thank God its Friday. whatta day.,! not nice..not bad either. oh well ., so bored and happy ..and annoyed in the end. LOL. okay, okay..its like this., when i first stepped in UIC's soil..uhm i guess i was a little bit excited to see him..him..and him.* pokes*..kill me now but i love seeing HOT boys in school. oh well., its just another day right?! when i almost entered the high school building...the first person i saw...hhhmmm., guess who...1,2,3....tralalal!~~ its se7en.,lala se7en.,,none other than se7en ., yeah..yeah ., and u know what I'll share sumthing..he's a certified bad boy tlga., cuz we're supposed to wear gala since its the first Friday of the month., but he's not abiding the rules in school., he wore the daily uniform ..*pokes*..(loving him even more.LMao.) so i guess., my day started right., seeing him..and like that. kababawan., i know..but hell, who cares right?!~*evil laughs*..hahahah<3 i think i like him..but i dont love him yet., LOL. and then., i think 30% of the class knows about him na., i really cant keep this forever., oh well..let it be. and juz this morning., i learned from my sources that he has a GF.,but its okay., no prblem about it,.nyahaha.

and then hhhhmmm., whate else., i was really bored ryt?! and we didnt have formal classes., so as usual i had classroom hopping., i went to st. anthony and i slept there..and when i went back to my classroom my hair was really messy., super messy., and my classmates were shocked. hahaha..i dont care. , and then late in the afternoon., i saw past crush.,yes., James. i saw him., but so far, really far. aish. i tried to stalk, but i didnt see him after the game bcuz a lot of people are crowding..hahaha@_@ oh well., then i had a little arguement with my friend irene., cuz i was really annoyed and im not in the good mood cuz i did not see past crush really close..hahaha!..kababawan again. i guess thats it! till here!

tok's-se7en ..school..and everything nice.

2007-09-05T18:44:00.000+08:00
helooo bloggiiee!^_^ uhm walalng class today., at as usual net ang trip ko., tapos kain., luto tulog. LOL. hay nako., buhay oo nga naman.,mabuti nmn ako ngayon., pero as usual ganun parin, pero ok naman,,sinasanay ko lang sarili ko. kanina., gumawa ako ng layout para sa aking multiply acc.(dahly.multiply.com), uhm ok nmn..pero hindi ko maxado feel ang kulay kasi nmn po pink ulet., ewan ko ba..bsta kung gumagwa ako ng layout, hindi nawawala ang lintek na kulay na yan..its easier to blend kasi in photoshop..kaya ganun. tapos as usual., oldies ang playlist ko ngayon., pero may naiba one song ang "kabet", oh well parang pangbudots sa first., pero i like the song., feel ko kasi naging kabet ako minsan *pokes*...nde., loko lang. jz wanna make comment about being kabet., i think its kababawan to be a kabet., kasi nga ang panget ng dalawa kayo sa buhay ng isang guy..hahaha*_* dba?!..its either you steal the guy or simply let go. ryt?! oh well., having too much blah blah agen..oh well just wanna do sumthing with my spare time..later i'll cook sumthing for myself and as usual., experiment nnmn ang recipe ko..so far nmn noh., lahat ng experiment ko masarap ..lol. well anyweii., im not doing good in school recently., its like im doing all this bulakbol stuuff., the other day,,thats monday, i was in the cilinic for almost whole day, i was with jyl..and honestly im not feeling anything..i mean i had slyt headache.,and i can do stuffs nmn eh., its just that im too ~~lazzzyyyyy~~ that day so during the 2nd period i got out my classroom and stayed there..supposedly i'll go out na for recess then i saw jyl., she also had headache that time, so we decided to stay...then we talked..blah2x..then we bought a lot of food in the canteen., then ate it inside the clinic., we were like dormers that time!..then we realized later that we didnt want to go back na..hahaha..*gets killed by the principal*..until lunch we pretendd that we still have headache!..then its like miss nurse was suspecting na., then she said that we will go home nlng daw..then she said that she will call sumone to fecth us!!LOL.and so we decided to go back to the classroom nlng..:( oh well..then tuesday..hmmm., im really bored so i did not stayed in my classroom and jz made laag2x..and watched se7en's practice., lol. he is not se7en the korean artist...its just codename..why se7en? coz hell he's effin hOT!..really hot., he's on fire! hahaha! he knows how to do stunts., and he can do se7en's famous stunt..

he can do like this..exactly the same! whhheee~

he's really a good dancer., uhm he is a new student., passed out from another school. and i think i like that guy., i watched their whole practice, and everytime he do his stunts, hell i wanna make some noise.,scream.! but got to make this feeling a secret., i dont want to inform everybody., cuz hell, he's not just any other student in school., he's such a gg..and dorky student., i mean, he's not doing good with his academics., then he's making laag everywhere..hahha in short not a good student..so ...its like that..well., i have to tell that.. he reminds me of my past crush james..but i didn't really know that he knows how to dance..i swear., i just knew it recently..so un..he's hot., he's a bad boy. exactly dahly's ideal guy.LOL.

uhm., what else...well my classmates are doing fine., all the same., nothing has changed. oh yeah., this whole week is intended for DACS., but hell all fourth year student are punished bcuz of all the drop outs and kick outs that happened in school which all students involved are from the seniors., so we cant wacth the games and programs, so while the seniors are having their effin class, frehies,sphies and juniors are in the gym enjoying themselves,. oh well , uic is kulelat this year, we wont win ---evil laughs--., i hate it when the school are boasting that they are like this and that., and hell they are doing it on Mondays., and gosh its really hot during assemblies.. i swear,. and they are announcing the sh*t achievements while the students are under the heat of the sun..*cries*..oh well let it be., i cant do anything about it nmn eh..

updates bout my luvlyf., uhm nothing..its the same., no imporvements., im not inlove and im not hating anyone either..hahaha*_* jz enjoying myself being single., and im not planning to have another BF yet..in the right time probably..hahaha*_* oh well., im wondering why i have this very long entry today., when infact..recently im tamad having a long one..hahaha., oh well., nothing is constant., im unpredictable yeah., i change my mood easily., hahaha*_* uhm i wanna blah blah more pa., its just that i cant think of anything to blah blah na., till here muna., i'll update if i want to..hahaha^_^ till here bloggie!<3

lala

2007-09-05T00:25:00.000+08:00
ooohhh..hell i miss him now..;( wanna see him again...wanna be with him again..wanna call him again,,,hmpf! i can't do it..no matter how many times i pretend that ive moved on..i still have this old feeling.haish.let it be., sooner or later., i know this will fade.

toaday s another day

2007-09-01T18:16:00.000+08:00
heloe bloggie..uhm right now im so tired. ive been facing this shit pc for 7 hours!hahaha. well anyweii yeaterday we went to robert's house ., we had a movie trip and as usual we left the house super busog. hahaha., robert's dad is really kind when it comes to food..hahaha. kanina, im supposed to go to the mall and let myself enjoy alone., but i made changes so i'll be doing that tomorrow coz for now i'll fix my room first. and then,,,hhmmm i was the MC nga pla for the culmination of our linggo ng wika..and hell nose bleed tlga..coz im not good in Philippine dialect., but i guess i did well..i was with azze nmn ehh and she helped me though. then the reason why i stayed so long here is that im supposed to make a new layout for my fs account but then i got bored playing with my PS, so i stopped and just answered these nonesense surveys. and hmmm..no other updates for now..gtg! bb!

updates

2007-08-30T19:36:00.000+08:00
updates..updates..updates..LOL. hell i lost my fone the other day..thats august 28 2007, i left it on the front seat of the taxi..im so tanga! as in!..uhm ive got to prepare myself for my hosting tomorrow..and and..no updates yet about my love lyf.thats all.bye!