its done..i dont know if i still have the courage to look at him
after everything, it feels like i wanna disappear eveytime he is there..
im so thankful coz till the last mometn he made me
feel how much he loves me.
its hard to leave him like that

if only i could teach my heart
how i wish i was just a robot.
so that i wont feel anything. so that i can choose whom to love
so that i would have reasons why im like this and that
if only i was one., he wouldnt suffer.,
if only i have excerted more effort.,
if only i have hold on
if only i learned how to forget the past
it wouldnt hurt as much as like this.
im soo stupid for letting go of a person like him
but i think that was just the best thing to do
coz if i would go on in a relationship knowing that i cant feel anything anymore.,
he would probably start hating me
i know sumday i'll feel the same pain that ive caused him
and im ready to face the consequences

i dont care how many people would hate me
they dont understand., and they dont know anything
they could hate me as much as they could
they could judge me and let me feel how small my worth is
as long for me., i was just true to myself
ive decided and i should learn how to stand with it.
he doesnt deserve everthing ive done., he was so great
yet stupid for loving sum1 soo fool..so pathetic ans so immature.
i dont know why i have to cry infront of him.
before i told him eveything., i promised that i should expalin eveything
little by little., word by word without letting my tears flow.
but the moment i started talking., my tears flowed.
i know i can fel the pain of regrets. maybe time will come that he would find sum1
sum1 who could give the love i tried to give him., bot too bad i failed to do it.
and that girl will be the luckiest person i've ever met.
i want him to be happy. and i want to suffer more if thats the only way i could face the consequences.

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