oh well.,recognition day nmn ngyn. uhm..bad thing is we have to dance that bullSh*t chineSe dancE again!lOl..i hate dancing that coz it gives me a lot of problems. anyweii., i only gOt the 3rd honorS.,hmm not bad.,at least i reached 3rd. and a token thingie for the highschool website. uhm..i wonder why the medals are soo cheap when infact we are paying too much for our tutition., adn then they will have to give these stupd medals which cost 10 pesos..hell*

oohh...one thing that makes me so sad is., i have to say goodbye to my classmates*cries*!!ive come to meet fantastic people, people who have always been there beside me., people who are always ready to make me happy. im really thankful to have my classmates. and one thing i shoudl be very proud of is that for almost 10 months i did not have any serious fight with anyone!LoL:..ok back to the topic..yes yes..st. stephen made a huge impact in my life. in this section ive experienced new things..faced new challenges. and ive come to meet new people. im not stocked facing the same faces. i had to interact and relate with them. and im just so happy to spend my 3rd year life with these people. the moments we've shared, the nonesense cries we had, the lamon session during class hours...and of course the tulog marathon on the floor, the loud music we usually have during lunch time, the beauty sessions...libak sessions..and of course the flirt excercise!!!waahahaha..i will miss everything..everything..as in ST. STEPHEN in general.*cries*...i hope i'll be having same classmates next year!!!wwooohh..aja aja fighting,,!

uhm., upadtes?!oh well i could still remember omei., but not often., like he will juz pop up on my mind if im not doing sumthing and i just remember those days when we are still together., but good thing it doesnt hurt me., i guess thats how our story ends.we are not really for each ohter., thats why i gave up. i dont have to regret.after all it was my decision. and this time, im telling you.,this is for real.uhm i admit that i miss him., but thats why i keep myself busy.,and i dont stay in the corner and doing those nonesense sentiments after break up.,i just have to enjoy everything that is happening ryt now.,GOD has other plans for my lovelyf., so much for my happy ending(whatever!)..

uhm., regarding my new luvlyf!?yeah i forgot to tell you that his code name is EUN supposedly it shoulr be eun hyuk(from suju) but then kate is having a hard time pronouncing that name and so she told me to just get the first word so that everything will be easy for her.rOfl. anyweizz..we bumped at each other kanina., and then he still gave me those stupid looks..lol.,i should not use the word stupid..uhm..cute" looks i guess..hell., and then he told me sumthing., but i could barely hear him..thats why i just pretended that i didnt hear anything(*bad*) ...uhm honestly..i really dont like him..maybe im just looking for someone .on whom i could spend my precious tym..i mean im looking for another lovelyf and i want everything to be fast., so i didnt bother to find someone who could meet my friend's standards. thats why if there's really sumthing behind this., only few people would know.

on the other side..i've been thinking to have a break. i mean life was so happy even without these real boys. im happy just spending time infront of the computer and spazz about dbsk..suju..etc..and then.. doing things for them seems to be so important for me...adn it makes me happy., it makes me show the real me and only in this way i would not be hurt. in my fantasy.,,im always happy. hell., the moment i loved real boys.,seems like i had to cry for them..listen to these songs..see him evryday..seems like i have these bullshit obligations..and thats one thing i hate about having a boyfriend..it gives me a lot of problems maybe beacause im not yet ready..im not willing to gve all of me to one person. i want freedom.i want to make decisions without thinking of someone..only myslef. i want to do what i want. i want to shout and behave like a kid..i want my messy hair and i want the real me ..i want to be myself again.....but then i wonder why i have to enter this stage in life wherein.. from 6:00 in the morning till 5:59 am., i think and dream for one person..hell, it ruins my studies. having serious relationship with real boys gives me a lot of problems..oh well., people change. sumtimes i just have choose., i always have an option. and i dont have to make evrything hard for me. i can quit anytime ryt?and i can go back whenever i want to. well,i'll have my decsion in a week.,after massive thingking about this matter. and lucky,its already vacation. i wont be seeing these real and bullshit boys. and all my time will be spent on my pc. it means ..i will be going back to my fantasy again~~lol..

im getting tired now.i wonder why i have to have so much blah blah ..i wonder why i have to talk about these things ..its already 1:oo o'clock, hell, i will wake up early tomorrow for maryzelle's bday..and u know what there are a lot of trojans tomorrow..thats why i have to ready my sword and my armor!(stupid dahly!)..ok..ok..enough...im really tired. goodnyt!

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