LOL. whatta day!..

yesterday was..jan 30 2008. ..

LOL everyone knows that its was jan 30 2008 and it was Wednesday yesterday.LOL. enuf for that. .yeah..yesterday was really freaking..crazy..stupid..bad day..:(..story goes like this..me and bombshell kate..yes kate..we've been going to the mall for 3 days staight already..wanna thank her for going with me..thank you kate!!!*hugs*..anyweii..and yesterday..we searched for sumthing good to give to prince for the 4th monthsary..and that was it..we searched and searched..and then i was texting with prince then..and he said he is also going to the mall with her sister princess..and he also said that he wants me and her sister to meet. i dunno why..coz i said NO..maybe bcoz i wasnt ready then..im afraid..i dunno why..im just afraid..then that was it..i said..nO..i cant..he pleaded at first and said that her sister wants to meet me..but i still didnt agree..so he juz said OK. its freaky to be in one place at the same time..thats why Kate..and me..we were like crazy peepz that we decided to hide on a magazine shop so that they wont see us..then after a while we decided to eat..coz we were so hungry running and hiding..LOL. thats why we walked and searched for a good food chain..and then..HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!..while we are going down the second floor..we bumped into PRINCE AND HER SISTER!!*cries.**..i dunno what to do that time..coz Kate said..she also doesnt want us to meet with her sister coz she was too afraid to be out of place..and since i was right in the middle of that freaking and uber hard situaxon..so i just said Hi..and i was really laughing hard..coz after all the running and hiding thingie..we eventually bumped into them..LOL. so i said hi..and..and..like that..dialog goes like this:

Kate:Hala!
ME: Sh*t

--walked towards them--

Prince: *laughs*
Princess:*laughs*
Kate and me:--absent minded. mga walang alam.--


and everyone was laughing..(everyone doesnt refer to all the people in the mall..i mean kate,prince,princess and me was laughing)

Prince: aii..ate princess si dahly..
me: hello po*waves*..

LOL. i wasnt sure of how i would act that time..i mean as much as possible i really want to portray a good first impression coz close friends are saying that im not really approachable at first coz i seldom smile.)

Princess: hi!*waves*..

then..blah..blah..blah..prince and princess were talking to each other i just cant remmeber what was it..while me and kate was looking at them like..gaga!..LOL

then princess turned to me:

Princess:Lam mo, nung pinakilala ko ung boyfriend ko sa kanya(kay prince)..prang gusto niya patayin..kya sinabi ko sa kanya pag nameet na kita..dpt ung gusto din kita patayin..

(of course that was a joke..hahahah*..then we all laughed..*..she's nice..i mean she smiles..and everything..i know she's nice..after a while..)

Prince: san pla kau punta?
ME: dito lang...lakad2x..
Princess: uwi na kayo!?
Me:hindi pa po..
Princess: okay..sabay nalang tayo lakad..lakad dto..maghahanap pa din kc kami ng gift


so ako nmn ..kung tatanggihan ko..prng bastos on their part..so i juz said yes..trying to forget everything..i really want to act normal..as much as possible i wanna forget all the fears that she wont like me..like that...then while we were walking..she cracks jokes every now and then..and i was quite relieved that time..i made myself comfy..i mean..i enjoyed being with her..coz she 's approachable every now and then..and she talks to me and stuff.. then ...


uhm..we went to BANANA PEEL STORE..then i just sat down..and kate stayed beside me..and we were talking about rione..and like that..while princess still cracks her joke..and she fights with prince jokingly ..coz she said prince didnt buy a gift during her debut thats why he said prince owe her sumthing..

PRincess: may utang ka sa akin..kc wla kang binigay sakin nung debut ko!
Prince: wala na akong pangmonthsary!..aii tama ikaw man pla ang manlibre sakin dahly noh?

ME: *nods*
Princess: hoy anong klaseng tao ka..DAHL, wag ka magpayag nyan..blah..blah..

BLAH--bLAH...*laughs*

then..then after a while..___----FREAKING PART----

she started talking..:

Princess: lam mo dahl, galit gud mama ko sa papa mo...aii first pla galit siya sayo kasi ikaw ang girlfriend ni paye,.tapos ngaun sa papa mo na siya galit..

kate said while she was saying that she had this serious look..for short she wasnt joking already.

Prince: oi..hindi gud..wag kang maniwala jan
Princess: lage dahl, hindi pla niya na share?
ME:*teary eyes*..

LOL. i was laughing back then,,but honestly it made me so sad..that right in the middle of the situaxon..i didnt have a single idea what to do..i didnt know what to say..and i didnt know how to act. so helpless..i juz pretended that i didnt take it seriously..acting like everyhting was fine. adn honestly..the thought that she was nice to me..vanished becoz o what she said.. and prince also didnt know what to do., yes..he was comforting me..and everything..i tried to pretend that i was fine..i dont want to act stupid..but cant stay long with the both of them..thats why i decided that we will just go on our own..i said goodbye properly..and her sister was like..k fine..but im telling you..i was nice to her till the last moment that i was with them..

then after that..i started to think about maillions of possiblities that what if what she said was true..that she wasnt joking..and she said it on purpose..i mean..ive come back to my senses that i actually realized this was the craziest thing i was involved to..i mean..when it comes to my family..i really dont want them to get involved on things i should carry on my own..i was so stupid that form the start i should have thought that it would cum into this..that i should have used my head back then..i was really stupid..that i regret the day i said yes..i mean..if only..we would use the heart to heart basis..my decision wasnt wrong..coz there;'s no question of how much i love him..there's no question of the infinite love as what we call it..but i cant sacrifice the safety of my family..maybe im just over reacting..but thats not reallt the point here..things could be very very possible..i mean..i didnt wished for a lovestory like this..i wish i could have a middle class boyfriend since i do belong in that society..i duuno what to do..i shouldnt have done this from the start..and now its very difficult..i cant make her mother like..and i cant make my father like him too..my family doesnt like his family and his family doenst like my family too..crazy and stupid as it may seem..and no..i cant think that that line of princess was merely a joke..coz i know she was serious..i needed time to think..thats why i decided to be absent today..i dont want to see prince..i dont want to show him that everything makes me feel like giving up..i mean..for prince alone..there's nothing wrong..he's nice...he's good..he loves me at his best,.he takes care of me..and he's serious..i know he does..but when it comes to family matters..i dunno if i can say its fine..coz 100% its not fine at all..i even didnt text him since yesterday..he called me last night and i didnt talk properly..he asked if there's sumthing wrong..i said nothing was wrong..and i said im just tired...then i kow he knew whats really the matter..and he said..it wasnt true..it was just a joke..and all..but i wasnt relieved. i dont want to hurt him..i still dont want to give up coz i love him so much..i really cant figure out what to do..haish..for God's sake..please tell me what to do..coz everyhting is just so difficult.*cries*

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