this is the first time i got out of bed since the incident yesterday..:(..i never had sleep until the rising sun..(lol. dong bang?).. i honestly wasnt able to get sleep coz i was crying the whole night..feeling so stupid. i waited for just one simple text of "gudnight" and i waited for nothing. .at around 3:oo am in the morning..i had a group message for the few people i know..and i was shocked that tiffany was still awake that time..LOL. everyone new about the incident and everyone asked me why but i never shared the story. i wasnt that strong to tell everyone the failure of the relationship.. and it still aches so much., thats why i just remained silent. and its better that way...then at 3:00 am..i was able to share it to tiffany since she's the one closest to my heart. and while telling her everything..i was also crying. feeling so stupid.the pain really hurts..i wasnt prepared ..and everything went so fast. the decision itself wasnt also decided properly..of course i had my own reasons to give up. i hate seeing him getting hurt with this stupid attitude. and i just thought that it was the best thing to do.confused and very skeptical i made the most difficult decision in my life. and thats to let go of the one person i love so much..*cries*


as what i said..i waited until the rising sun. lol. but i wasnt realy waiting that time..i just cant sleep no matter how i try to do so.. then at around 6:00 am. i made up my mind that everything is over already. and its really time to let go. ive been crying to hard since last night and i pity myself for doing that..my eye soars already..and my head aches already..everything was just painful. then at around 6:45 am. my phone rang..hearing that familiar ring tone who used to wake me up in the middle of the night hearing a happy voice who called up just to say i love you and he misses me. .but this morning..its different..i wasn't sure if i will answer it..i didnt have even a single idea what was his reason. but there's no time to waste chances..so i answered th call. and i heard his voice crying..:(:(..that he cant even talk properly..:( i didnt exactly know what to do..i just cried..then he said he wants me back..and he cant do it.. i wasnt expecting that he would do such thing. i thought i was the only one crying.i was the only one who was hurt..and i cant waste time..i know i love him so much..an d its too early to give up. its just a small thing..and i really dont have enough reason not to accept him again.. sincerity and love were the basis. i want him back so bck. and still cant imagine myself without him by my side..LOL. its sad being alone..



well lessons learned. im not supposed to share this here, i know few people wont understand. and its kinda exaggerated for most love cases.but whatever it is. im happy again and its all because of one person. well thngs might go wrong. LOL. thanks to the peepz who were really there for me. lol and thanks to him .:) till here! *hugs*

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