haish,.,. magstop na ako sa summer job this june 5. hahaha^^ then i'll concentrate with myself na. dami ko na kasing nakakalimutan gawin dhl sa lintek na work an yan..waahahah:) joke!. i mean wla na akong time for stuff like this..coz its like going home from school..uber tired tlga.. hndi nmn sa heavy ang work pero the fact that i wake up early..tapos kelangan ko pa ng mas mahabang tulog so binabawi koh tulog koh when im home. .and then sistah is here..so i cant stay up late coz her shced to use the pc start at 9:00 pm. thats why..


uhm LOVELYF

i broke up with prince last may 21. we were not seeing each other for so long..and no proper communication..and we always fyt since the last day we had a date. that was may 8 i think.. he's busy and im busy too. and im sick of all the misunderstandings. i mean i wanna have time for myself..set priorities..and i wanna be the best in every single thing i do. later..you'll just realize that life isnt all about LOVE..happiness..fantasy. its merely about REALITY. there have been a lot of failure..i wanna be myself again..i wanna have myself again. i admit the first day..i really cried. im not stupid and most of all im not numb. weve been together for almost 8 months..and..and..we had a lot of happy memories together..and it hurts to see that everything ended that way. i mean no proper closure.

but as what they say..pain erases all those memories..so yah i cried the first night...and i super assumed that i'll be crying for several days..several months. the next day..i woke up..im still not used to everything..but i tried to enjoy myself..hell, no matter how i try i cant have that guy forever..so i made myself super busy..and my work helped me forget..so as with bruce..he was the only one who knows everything..not even my girl friends here..they know that i broke up with prince but none of them knows everything..i just thought that i need an advise from a boy. hahaha:)...then the next day..the same..after work i spendt time with bruce..no tears..i just lay down on my bed..then sleep. then wake up.. and then for 3 days ..i started to move on..i continued my daily routines without him..wihtout prince..and it wasnt that bad..exceptt for the fact that no one's saying i love you na..and no one does things he usually do. i miss him so much..but i know ive got to move on.. then with everyone i see..it wasnt that hard to let go. on the 4th day..he called me up se7en times. i wasnt able to answer it..i was curious why he called me after several days of rejection..so i asked him why... he didnt reply..so i just thought he had accidentally pressed the key..but hell that was se7en times..but i tried not to care..whats not good about the break up was we did not have proper closure. then when i got home..he called me up again..its too unusual to hear his voice again..and everything was fast..we talked for 6 minuted i think..we apologized..and everything..then i realized why not give it another try..i mean he was so special ..my friends know that..he's a good person..and i was so unfair ..coz i was too selfish to think of myself only..i was so selfish that i didnt care about him..he has a lot of problems right now..and and mga problema niya..masyadong mahirap..and dami dn niyang responsibilities..being the kuya of his family..after he explained..alam ko emotionally hndi na niya kaya..if he could give up ryt now..ginawa na niya..pero he also have his family..and i know how responsible he is..and he loves his family..and even if he's so tired doing this and doing that..he was trying his best to communicate with me..yun nga lang ang hindi ko nakita lahat ng effort niya..thinking that he doesnt have time for me already..it was so hard for him kasi and dami niyang gnagawa tapos ako reklamo ng reklamo..gumagawa ng away..un hindi ko naiintindihan na hindi lang pla ako ang nag-iisang tao sa buhay niya..it was still m fault after all.and i honestly regret everything ive done.. so ashamed of what ive done..haish. selfish talaga..pero un nga i didnt know that that was the situation already..kasi wala siyang sinasabi..his personality kasi..he wants to keep his problems as a secret..he wants to bear it alone ..he doesnt like the people around him will feel sad bcoz he got a lot of problems..thats why he preferred not to tell me what he was going through..too BAD. i realized y mistakes..and i feel sorry. then we both need anther chance..thats why we gave it another try..with everythng that had happened..we have come to know each other..deeper. so that was it..:) we're together again. i hope..i really hope this time it will be better. he means a lot..^^ Foerever After Infinity. aja!!much love!**]]



and now..now..i really miss shigyo..coz he's the one who always make me realize my mistakes..hahaha^^ coz even if i say this..i say that..im so angry to one person..even if im really unstoppable..if he knows its my fault he always tell it to me..gaya nung bumalik xa ng davao na inaaway ko si khey..akala ko pababayaan lang ako magaway kami ni khey..pero super GG. sinabi tlga na kasalanan koh. hahaha!..and he knows how to explain this and that technically. too bad wla xa para may mag enlighten sa akin.hahaha! shigyo kailangan koh ng enlightenments. wahahahah!! i miss you!!


wahahha!!^^

shigyo!~!!eprel..!!huhuhuh!!.. thank you for wasting time reading my bloggie..hahaha!:) i miss the two of you!!


and ngaun i feel better..


till here~~

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