recently, i get frustrated with the slightest things that bother me. i dunno y i have to become this sensitive. i mean, i have this disease,.i i super hate it being with me. but its me, one thing i learned about one litre of tears, i cant get rid of anything coz this is me., this is my body.. i mean , its not about physical or anything..its about emotional..arrrghhhh!! i soooo hate this feeling. coz i dont know how to handle..it does pain me because i have to think about all these things that makes them super burden..too hard to handle. aiiiish. i need someone right now..i need friends. i miss them. i talked to mariel a while ago and it feels good..its just that its better seeing them personally. i miss my school. i miss my friends there..i miss the bonding moments and everything.i miss studying..i miss those sleepless nights.. summer is soooo boring right noww..i wanna cry i wanna let these thing get off me. i hate it. i mean..i feel like being abductd from the reality i used to stay. i have all these imaginations..everynight..but those imaginations dont make me feel happy and eager to reach them coz they are juz too far from reality. really. its so hard. i have dreams but seems like theres something i wanna get..but i dnt know what exactly it is. im typing anything right now that comes into my mind..but it doesnt feel better. i wanna go back to schoooooooool. i miss my friends...*cries*...i so miss studying.i miss everything..i miss nihonggo. everything !! arrghh! y do i keep saying all of these things???!! aiish. it feels like hell sitting here..typing anything..i dunno whats the title...frustration?? duh. duh. im too tired to think of other things. aiish. im not ready with my stuffs. im gonna travel but i still dont have anything. im excited and i badly want that one to happen tomorrow. i wanna sleep early but i cant sleep. i wanna gain weight but it doesnt happen ever !! the problem is that i dont know what the problem is. *shooots myself on the head*... arrggh. i said i wanna have firing..hahah. oooppsss that comes back to my mind again.. why the hell do i want to become an agent?? aiish.

this is nonsense. bye.

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