I swear to myself, if theres one achievement that i can say I am really proud of, its winning the Nihongo Speech Contest. Even the skies could testify how i used to hate Nihongo, how i regret having to face all those Japanese stuff everyday for almost four years now, and that i have tagged Nihongo as one of my greatest weakness. But as the title goes, believe in the Unbelievable. :) Choz.

Yes, it is my weakness. But for the record, nothing can never be done with my mighty mighty determination. I had a lot of Fear joining the contest.

1st- because i love English too bad that my jap. pronunciation is extremely bad.

2nd- im too afraid of failure.

3rd- there should be a lot of sacrifice.

i was determind to join because:

1st- there's something i wanna share

2nd- there's something i NEED to prove to myself

3rd-

1% passion. 99% pride.

I know i can't lose the opportunity, and the trust that my Senseis have given me. I can't act like i don't care when in fact people around me are working too hard to help me. And that, i know i want this and i would never ever want to regret in my life that i never tried just because it is my weakness.

Shang Rila Plaza Mall, Manila, February 26 2011.

The day had come, and booom . i was there in front of everyone, but i can't see their faces. The spotlight have eaten my sense of sight and everything was dark, my heart was extremely extremely pounding. It was a hard start, but i know, that there were 3 people from the audience who had their fingers cross, believing and looking up to me, my Senseis. Ayano Sensei, Daiji Sensei, And Haruyama Sensei, and i know i can't fail them.

Nonetheless, i have myself. and though before i never trusted my skills in Nihongo, that time i had to trust myself, and tell myself to do whatever i could possibly do to make the best out of such a great opportunity.

Getting there wasn't easy, being there was horrible, but finishing the Job was far way more compelling

for someone like me who never really had that special attention for Japanese.

And *BOOOM* BOOOOM* BOOOM* even brighter than the *MOOOON.* *MOOON* MOOOOOOON*. Like i always say to myself, i can be a firework. I can be whoever they want to be, because more than the passion, i had this Pride that i never would want to throw away just because of my Fear :))

It was worth it, it was self compelling, it was simply one of a kind!

And as I had to deliver my speech for the First Year Students' Orientation, i shared to them: i had to sacrifice my sleep, i had to sacrifice the time i had to laugh with my friends, i could just have let this slip away, i could have just slept and never cared, but at the end of the day, nothing is more priceless than being able to tell yourself, that OF COURSE , I WILL, and OF COURSE, I CAN!.

and as the last part of my speech says: 　

-" it doesnt matter where you came from, even if you're just from a small and not so famous school, the things you can achieve, the things you can do, it's all up to YOU."